Chapter 4 #3
Once baby girl picked out her little ugly ass dog, we dropped her off with her grandmother, who gave Regancy an earful before letting her leave.
I picked up on the unfamiliarity between them, and that caught me by surprise.
It was almost like they were just getting to know one another.
There we both were in the back of my range with no destination in sight.
She thought I was taking her home, but I didn’t plan on doing that.
My time with her wasn’t up, nor did I want it to be.
I ended up instructing Beck to take us to the waterfront near where my boat was docked.
I didn’t plan on going anywhere, but the space was the only place where everything was peaceful, yet the view wasn’t half as beautiful as she was.
I glanced over at her beautiful sleeping frame.
She had dozed off a few minutes after dropping Kale off, and all I could do was stare at her.
My eyes and mind were both trying to find something that wasn’t perfect on that woman.
I just need something to break this deep ass infatuation I have with her.
I couldn’t find shit though, and that partly frustrated me.
I mean, there had to be something fucked up about her, right?
Big Homie didn’t make a perfect soul on the earth, and that was what my mama told me on a daily while I was coming up, but somehow, she slipped through the cracks and landed right in front of me.
“We’re here, sir.” Beck’s voice broke me from my thoughts.
I nodded and leaned over, doing something that I wanted to do since before she fell asleep. My lips covered hers, kissing her passionately until I felt her hand on the side of my face. What the fuck am I doing putting my lips on bitches all randomly and shit?
When I pulled back, I had to remind myself where we were before I spoke. “Come see something with me.”
She blinked a few times before sitting up and looking around. “I can’t do no more weekend sails with you, Sav—”
“That’s not in the itinerary. I just wanna get to know you in a space with it just being us.
” I couldn’t believe that corny shit came out of my mouth, but it had.
I watched for her response before she nodded her head in agreement.
Once we were out of the car, I instructed Beck to take a minute as I walked her to the dock.
With her hand locked in mine, I led her onto the boat and into the cabin.
She stood in the middle of the room while I went to secure us something to drink.
“You must like boats.”
I nodded and turned around, looking at her. “I do. I feel like they’re the most peaceful places to think. Gives you a peace of mind like no other while you’re surrounded by water.”
She nodded.
“I wanna get to know you,” I blurted as I walked her drink over and sipped from my own.
“Why? I’m a normal wo—”
“That’s a damn lie. Yo’ ass is anything but.” I corrected her.
She smiled coyly before taking a seat on the white sofa a few feet from her. “I think I’ve told you everything about me, but you’ve told me nothing about yourself.” She peered at me as I took a seat across from her and set my glass on the table.
I nodded my head. “I was raised by my big mama outside of the city, but I always found myself in the city.”
“Spare me the cover story. Give me the you that you want out of me.” She set her glass on the table next to her and peered at me.
“Like what?” I asked. I’d never had anyone in my space long enough to ask the questions that had me wondering how deep they wanted to go.
To be honest, I’d never wanted to go deep with anyone.
As deep as she wanted to get with me, I wanted that and more from her.
I wanted to know everything about Regancy—including the way she thought and every thought that traveled through her mind. What the hell is wrong with me?
“What made you the man that you are today?”
“I never knew my pops, and I guess you could say my mama abandoned my sister and I because my big mama raised us.”
She nodded her head. “Sometimes parents are a pill.” She shook her head.
“Is that why you seem like you and your mother are strangers?”
She looked at me before she brought he knees to her chest and hugged them. “We are. Before I moved back here, I hadn’t spoken to my mother in almost nine years.”
“Why?” I asked.
“Because when I got raped, I kept it to myself. I was young and thought I could put it behind me if I didn’t acknowledge it.
However, that was hard when, weeks later, I couldn’t keep anything down, and I felt sick to my stomach anytime I ate.
She forced me to the doctor’s office, and when we found out why, she didn’t even give me a chance to explain.
She went from putting her hands on me, calling me out of my name for weeks until she finally put me out.
She sent me upstate to live with my father.
The day I boarded the plane was the last day I spoke to my mother.
The only way she found out about what actually happened was my father.
He and his wife were my support system. So when I got back here, my father asked that I make amends with my mama.
So yeah, our relationship is fairly new, and I don’t spend much time with her, because I feel odd around her.
Kale loves her though, so I’d never stand in the way of their relationship. ”
I nodded, seeing the imaginary crown on her beautiful head. Where the fuck had this woman come from, and who the hell sent her to me? “Come here,” I demanded.
“No. I just got comfortable.” She smirked a little.
It was that mouth that attracted me to her in the first place. “Regancy.”
“Savior. I changed my jeans because you asked me to, but right now—”
“Since you brought them up, you can definitely drop them before you come here.” I saw the amusement in her face, but I also saw the lust in them too.
She knew the vibes. I cursed myself the moment I watched her stand to her feet and realized I didn’t bring condoms. I didn’t plan shit that was going on right then, so I didn’t have shit on me.
The more fucked-up thing was that I didn’t wanna fuck up the moment.
The anticipation of feeling her bare was killing me, so I dropped the condom thought and promised myself that I’d pull out of the pretty brown beauty in front of me and not slip up like I did the last time we were there.
Before I knew it, she was climbing into my lap and lowering herself onto me with her teeth buried in her bottom lip. Even her fucking pleasure faces were beautiful. Everything with Regancy was different, and I fucking hated it. It all made me aware of how fucking obsessed with her I really was.
I glared at this goofy-looking ass nigga Zay, and I shook my head.
He was high as fuck and couldn’t do shit right, even when he wasn’t out of his fucking mind high.
It was five in the fucking morning, and I should’ve still been in bed wrapped up in Regancy, but instead, I was looking at his stupid ass face.
Somehow, his pickup was short, and he didn’t know how he couldn’t explain it to Reese, so Reese called me.
I couldn’t for the life of me understand how since that nigga was older than me, but then again, it happened a lot.
Age didn’t mean shit when it came to how smart a nigga was in reality.
“I promise you, cuz. Gimme two days, and I’ll find the short,” he pleaded.
Against my better judgment, I nodded and agreed to give him the days. “Two days, Zay, and if I don’t get my money, even yo’ mama’s angel won’t be able to keep me off yo’ stupid ass.”
He nodded. He knew better than to give me any of that back-talk shit.
“I still say we give his ass the paper route. I think they hire grown ass men too.” Taurus sat at the chair in front of my desk on his usual shit.
I chuckled and motioned for Zay to clear out of my office. He did after giving Taurus the most-hateful fucking stare possible.
Once he was gone, Taurus leaned forward and glared at me like we had beef. “What’s up with you becoming unreachable all of a fucking sudden?”
“Nigga, yeen my mama. What the fuck you clocking my moves for?”
“Because you’re moving kind of funny. Like a nigga that found the right box. I mean, I ain’t heard from you since you took baby girl and her moms to get the dog. Now, it’s two days later, and you smiling top of the morning instead of that ugly ass grimace. You must have you some in house.”
I laughed. That nigga was definitely reading me too damn hard. “Damn, nigga. You know me like the back of yo’ hand or something?” I questioned.
“Hell yeah I do. You’ve been the same nigga since we were twelve, pissing in alleys. So what the fuck is up?”
His question brought up too much in my mind.
I mean, hell yeah I wanted something with Regancy, but I was too stuck in my ways to ever do something like that.
I’d destroy her and the life she’d built for herself, and I couldn’t have that.
My life was way too fucked, and nothing was ever normal, so I couldn’t drag her or lil’ mama into that.
Maybe I was using my lifestyle as an excuse, but who knew?
TAURUS
He looked up at me, and I could see the anguish in his eyes. I’d known Savior since we were both in the streets looking for some type of direction. So I definitely knew him like he knew me, and I knew when he had some shit on his head.
“I fucked up.” He looked down at the desk in front of him.
“And how the hell did you do that?” I quizzed, getting ready to laugh because I already knew what he was about to say.
He shook his head.
“Damn, you got it bad, don’t you? I knew what was up when I called yo’ ass this morning and you told her to go back to sleep. Usually, you’re up and at it, telling a bitch that the sun is rising and so should she.”