Chapter 6 #3
“Nope, I came to see you and I got a pleasant surprise. Now spit it out and don’t you attempt to change the subject again.” She crossed her arms and sat at the foot of my bed.
“His name is Taurus. I met him a while back and—”
“He makes you happy.”
I nodded in agreement.
“If so, then why do I still see Bash at my dinner table?” She had a look of confusion. “I’m sure you would’ve told him by now, seeing as though you wear the scent and marks of another.”
I dropped my head in shame. I hadn’t seen Bash in almost a week, and we communicated lately through texts. Even those were forced. I was horrible, and I knew it. He didn’t deserve to be done that way.
“So you haven’t told him? Why not? I may not be a big fan of Bash’s, but I don’t condone you behaving this way. Tell him immediately. Of course, it’ll break your father’s heart as well, but it will free you. I’m sure the young man you’ve been dealing with doesn’t like being kept in the dark.”
I definitely had to laugh at that one. She didn’t know Taurus. He was in no one’s dark and definitely gave less than a fuck about blowing up my relationship. “Not possible, Mama. That man wouldn’t even let me hide him as a surprise. Taurus is—”
“Then why are you dragging him along? Why not give whatever it is that you have a fair chance?”
I didn’t have an answer for her, and she knew that, so she stood to her feet and grabbed her purse. “I’m in the city to meet your brother for lunch. I was hoping you could accompany me, but I see now that you have a lot on your mind.”
I threw my head back and rolled my eyes.
She was out of her mind if she thought I’d go with her to that lunch.
My brother was two years older than me and couldn’t stand my ass.
He and I couldn’t be in the same room for longer than an hour, let alone at the same table.
For as long as I could remember, we had never gotten along, so we always ended up trading blows that landed way too far below the belt.
“I’d rather spend my time doing things that I want to do. ” I rolled my eyes.
She laughed. “I don’t know when the two of you will realize that you’re all you have in this world. He is your brother and the only one that you have. I just hope that you both realize it before I leave this earth.
I shook my head. “That’s not a conversation that you should be having with me. I don’t have a problem with Joseph. He has one with me. Maybe you should talk to him about his issue with me.”
After a while, my mother left, and I was left in my thoughts.
I knew I was wrong, and nothing could prepare me for the conversation that I knew I needed to have with Bash.
It didn’t take for my mother to tell me that I was wrong for me to see that I was.
I knew that Bash and I had run our course a while ago, but I was too comfortable with having someone around when I craved it.
For a while, I just floated through my house, cleaning and finally looking through a few case files.
I had court within the next few days, so I really needed to be catching up and working, but my brain couldn’t focus on that.
I needed a moment to just recuperate and find my center.
Usually, my center was with a smudge and binging some TV.
However, that was no longer it. Somehow, I was craving his presence, even though I’d just left him that morning.
That was too bad because he had business to tend to, and I needed to do the necessary soul-searching.
I was way too attached to a man that I had absolutely no history with.
Taurus had forced his way into my life, and I didn’t regret it.
It was just the timing. However, I welcomed him at that point because he made me feel something that Bash wasn’t able to.
Taurus made me feel him. The vibration of my phone on the sofa made me look down, and there his name was.
I had manifested him, and I couldn’t control the smile on my face as I pressed the green circle on my screen.
“Look, I’m outside, and I had a long ass day. C’mon down so we can go, old stubborn ass woman.”
I bit my bottom lip before shaking my head and hopping from my seat.
Of course, I grabbed my already-packed overnight bag and my purse after stuffing my files in it.
I’d be taking a car service from his house to work in the morning.
It was such an inconvenience because of how far out he lived, but the rewards of spending time with him were priceless.
After dinner, we had both showered and retreated to his bed, where he stood at the foot looking like a full-on creep. I couldn’t keep my attention on him though. I was too annoyed by the cool air blowing through the fan at the foot of his bed. It was sure to give me the sniffles by morning.
“Can you turn the fan off tonight, Taurus?” I asked. I didn’t understand his point of having the fan on when he made sure the central air kept his house in the frigid temperatures.
“Hell nah. That’s the only way I sleep, baby. If I don’t have my fan on, then I’ma wake up with a nosebleed because I get hot as fuck in my sleep, and you refuse to sleep yo’ ass on yo’ side.” He cut the lights out and crawled into bed with me.
I smiled in the dark. My side.
“How are you cold under all these covers, baby girl? It ain’t that cold in here,” he murmured, getting comfortable.
“How? You have your house on sixty-seven all day, every day. It’s hard to believe anything in here gets hot.” I tried to bury my body under all his covers because I was borderline freezing at that point.
“Yo’ ass is dramatic. It ain’t even that fucking cold.
” He got under the cover and pulled my body into his.
We just fit, and believe it or not, in that moment, my path had never been so clear.
I wanted to be with the man who made me feel so comfortable being myself that it was impossible to be anything else.
The man who made me feel secure just by draping his arm around me and pulling me near.
I wanted to be with that man, and I wanted to create nothing but memories with him.
“I wanna be with you,” I said in a slight murmur while my head rested on his chest, listening to the beat of his heart.
“You’re already with me. Unless it’s something you haven’t told me.”
I smiled. “I am?”
He sat up and forced me to fall back against the pillow before he hovered over my face.
“Woman, you been mine ever since you let me put my lips on you in that parking lot.” He pressed his full lips against mine with a smirk.
Then he pulled back. “Now I’m just wondering if I gotta knock a certain tax attorney off. ”
I could see the smile on his face. He almost looked crazy the way he peered at me before his lips closed in on mine. There was no better feeling than the one I felt right then.