27. Chapter 26
Chapter 26
BECCA
Shyloh Mendoza terrified the living shit out of me. Everything he said made sense. Everything he did was so kind. Everything he was— I wanted.
Yet here I was, pushing him away again. I didn’t want to keep doing that, but there’s an emergency button being pressed in my mind every time I thought I could be falling in love. I didn’t want to keep living like this, but I didn’t know how to change it.
Maybe Shy coming to visit with me in the ‘normal’ world would be good for him and me.
Now that the trip was over, I needed to be more honest with myself. Maybe I did want to be with Shyloh. Maybe I wanted to have a life with him. I just needed to give myself a chance .
Thomas lived in my memories, in pictures, in conversations, but he wasn’t here. Even the people we were with didn't know what our futures would be like. Maybe Thomas and I wouldn’t have been together anyway.
“Okay, everyone. It’s time to head to the van!” I announced and everyone grabbed their bags and cheered. Our entire group walked and talked with each other on the trail as if they’d known each other for years. Their voices were happy and joyous, giggling and chatting about their plans when they return.
Joy and Mark were going to spend time with their kids, Josh was going to visit his brother, and Donna was already planning her next trip with me.
Shyloh was the only one that was quiet, which was unusual for him. He was always my chatty Kathy.
I glanced behind my shoulder to get a look at him and his face was a blank slate. No feelings or emotions. He was completely engrossed in his thoughts. Shy glanced up for a moment, and in that split second, the ground started to vibrate.
We all turned to look upward as rocks started to fall towards us. I tried to move as fast as possible away from them, but I was too late.