Chapter Twenty-Three
Ryder
She really was trying to kill me. Ellie held my cock in her hand like a pro.
“This isn’t a competition,” I hissed, as she swiped her tongue across the head of my cock. She looked up at me with a grin.
“Not one you would win, anyway.”
Then she took me into her mouth, and before I knew it, I felt the back of her throat.
Good God! She was going to kill me.
My eyes rolled back in my head while Ellie’s lips slid back and forth from root to tip. She swirled her tongue around the head with every pass.
My hand went to the back of her head. Not to direct her, she didn’t need direction. No, it was to ground me. I needed the connection to keep me from passing out from the sensation of her tongue as she licked along the vein on the underside of my dick.
“Ellie,” I rasped. “I can’t hold on any longer. If you don’t want me coming in your mouth, you need to let up.”
I looked down at her as I said the words. Her eyes lit up, and she smiled around the head of my cock, before sucking it to the back of her throat once more.
“Fuck, Ellie. This is your last warning.”
She grabbed my ass, holding me to her. I held her head in my hands and thrust my hips back and forth, our eyes locked on each other. A few more strokes and my release came hard and fast.
“FUCK!”
Ellie’s hands squeezed my ass, and I watched her throat work to swallow everything I gave her.
I tried to step back, but Ellie wrapped her hand around my dick once more, stroking me, coaxing more drops from the tip as she licked my balls, cleaning up what she missed.
I groaned and stepped back away from her.
“Ok, you win. Your fucking mouth will be the end of me,” I whispered, pulling her to her feet. I took her mouth with mine as my hands roamed over her.
“You’re still dressed, Ellie.”
“I know. I thought maybe you could help.”
I didn’t hesitate.
She had added a shirt over the sports bra she wore earlier. Most likely before going to my parent’s house. I quickly pulled it over her head, tossing it to the floor.
Just like I did earlier in my office downstairs, I pushed the sports bra up to her neck and pulled a nipple into my mouth. The loud gasp from her lips had my soft cock perking back up.
I suckled and nipped at her breast before switching to the other side. My hands moved to her waist, and my thumbs dipped into the waistband. Releasing her nipple, I kneeled before her. Her hand found my shoulder as I lifted one foot and then the other, removing her shorts.
I looked up at her and I remembered our first night together. My hands skated up the outside of her legs until I reached her hips and then her waist. I pushed her down onto the bed, grabbing her knees and lifting them over my shoulder.
“Ryder,” Ellie sighed when I licked the inside of her knee.
“Turnabout is fair play, Ellie.” I laughed when I heard her groan.
“Ryder, please don’t tease me. I want you now,” she whined, and I loved hearing her beg.
“You had your fun. Now, I get to have mine.”
“But I want you inside me, Ryder. Now.”
I pushed a finger into her pussy and said, “I am inside you.”
“I need more,” she cried, and I felt her clamp down on my finger.
Sliding another finger inside, I asked, “How about now?”
Ellie groaned, and her hips bucked against my hand. My fingers were covered in her wetness, and I pushed them in, pulling them back immediately.
“More, Ryder. I need more.”
“What do you want, Ellie? Tell me.”
“I want your cock. I want you to fuck me, Ryder.”
“Come for me first, Ellie. Come on my fingers, then you can have my cock.”
I leaned down, taking her clit in my mouth while I fingered her pussy. I nibbled and licked until I felt her clamp down and she came in my hand.
Pulling my fingers away from her, I kept my eyes on hers when I put them in my mouth and sucked them clean.
Climbing on the bed beside her, I laid on my back.
“Come ride my cock, Ellie.”
A smile spread across her face, and she didn’t waste time swinging her leg over my hips. My erection stood up between us, and she wrapped her hand around me, stroking me until I moaned.
I rubbed my hands up and down her thighs, watching her hand stroking my cock.
“Don’t make me wait, Ellie. You wanted my cock. Climb on and take it,” I said, slapping my palm on her ass.
“Fuck,” she groaned, and raised herself above me.
She held my dick in her hand while she guided me into her dripping pussy.
Ellie dropped down on me, and I wanted nothing more than to flip us over and fuck her hard and fast. But I gave her this option and she took it.
“Oh God, Ryder. Oh God,” she said over and over as she bounced up and down. Watching her take control was going to make me lose mine.
“I need you to come, Ellie. Take what you want from me. Make yourself come.”
My hands gripped her hips, lifting her, then slamming her back down. It didn’t take long before I felt her walls flutter.
“That’s it, baby. Come on my cock.”
Ellie threw her head back and slammed down against my pelvis, grinding her pussy against me as she came. I didn’t wait for her to come down. I rolled us over and pulled back, slamming into her, over and over. I grasped her knee, hitching it over my hip, giving me more room to pound into her, until I couldn’t hold on any longer.
When my release hit, I buried my face in her neck. My breathing came in short pants. Ellie’s hands roamed over my back. She kissed my neck, and I lifted my head to gaze into her eyes.
“I love you, Ellie. Promise me you won’t ever leave me.”
“I promise.”
I laid beside Ellie, holding her in my arms, and I knew this was it. Never had I felt so content, so at peace. My mouth was inches from her neck, her back pressed against my chest.
I told Blade I would talk to Ellie about the club. I wanted to be a part of it, but if she said no, then I wouldn’t choose between them. There would be no choice.
Ellie was more important.
We needed her.
The girls and I would never be complete without this woman in our lives. And if it meant I couldn’t be in the club, then so be it.
“Ellie, you asleep, baby?”
“No, I’m lounging in euphoria, so if you want to talk to me, now is the time, ’cause I’ll agree to anything right now.”
When I heard her giggle, I knew she was only half truthful.
“I wanted to talk to you about something.”
She turned in my arms until her eyes focused on mine. “Is everything ok?”
“Everything is perfect,” I told her.
I pushed her hair back so I could see every inch of her gorgeous face. I leaned in and kissed her gently, slowly taking my time to ease her concerns.
“Blade and I talked today.”
“You can talk while riding the bikes?” she asked.
Jesus, she was fucking adorable.
“No, we stopped somewhere so we could talk about shit. He told me about what happened, why he did what he did. I told him he was an asshole and why I was so pissed at him still,” I said with a smile, letting her know some of that was bullshit.
“When I got shot, King, Cash, Jack, and Blade were at the hospital.”
“I remember. They were there for hours, waiting to make sure you were ok.”
“Yea, they asked me to join the club. They had a cut made for me, with my name on it.”
“Is that what you want? To join the club?” she asked, leaning up on her elbow to look at me.
“It was until I found out the reason I was never asked was because Blade told them not to. He explained why, and he asked me about joining. King said he was waiving the year of prospecting. He told me that what I did for Beck, jumping in front of that bullet to save an old lady, his blood, showed him more than a year of prospecting ever could.”
“That was a very brave thing to do. Stupid, but brave.”
I smiled at her. I knew what she meant. Beck thought it was stupid too, but I would do it again without thinking.
“I would do it again if I had to.”
“I know. That’s what makes you the man you are. The man I love.”
“I love you,” I said, leaning up to kiss her again.
I would never get enough of this woman. By the time Tammi left, we hadn’t had sex in months.
“How do you feel about me being in the club?”
“What?” she asked.
“I want to know how you feel about it.”
“Ryder, that’s not my decision. That’s something you have to decide.”
“I know what I want, Ellie. But I want to know what you want. If it isn’t something you’re ok with, I’ll tell them no.”
Ellie sat up quickly. The expression on her face changed so fast, I didn’t have time to recognize just how angry she suddenly was.
“How fucking dare you!”
“What?” I asked, confused at what had just happened.
Ellie jumped out of bed, pulling on her clothes. Did she think she was leaving? Fuck no.
“Ellie, come back here,” I called as she walked through my bedroom door. “Ellie! Stop!” I grabbed her arm, pulling her back away from the door.
“Where the hell are you going? Why are you mad?”
“If you don’t want to join the club, then be a man and tell them no. Don’t use me as a way to avoid doing something.”
I smiled down at the fierce woman before me. She thought I was using her as a scapegoat to avoid the club.
“What you’re thinking right now couldn’t be further from the truth. I have wanted to be a part of the club since they set up five years ago.”
“Then why aren’t you?” she said, crossing her arms over her chest.
“I told you; they never approached me because Blade told them not to.”
“Why didn’t you approach them? You said you just found out Blade told them that.”
“Tammi didn’t want me to.”
“What about after she left?” Ellie asked.
“I had the girls. Prospecting would have taken too much time away from them,” I told her.
“And now?”
“Now, I wouldn’t have to prospect. I would join as a fully patched member.” I shrugged, like it was no big deal.
It was a big fucking deal.
“And if I said no? That I didn’t want you to join the club?” she asked, anger still on her face. I couldn’t read her. I still didn’t understand why she was so angry.
“Then I wouldn’t join.”
I stepped back when Ellie threw her hands in the air and growled at me.
“So, you ask me. If I say yes, you join the club and get everything you want. Me, the girls, the club. Right? If I say no, you don’t get what you want. Eventually, you would resent me. Then we break up, and I lose you and the girls. I lose your parents. I lose the friends I am making here. I lose the town I have been searching years for, the first place that has ever truly felt like home. What the fuck kind of question is that?” she yelled.
“Ellie, no. I would never resent you for that. Come here.”
I pulled her with me to sit on the couch. Sitting down, I tugged her onto my lap.
“Baby, you are what I want. You and the girls. I have gone five years without the club. I can go forever without being a member. We would still have the club. I just wouldn’t wear a cut. I want to know how you feel because, from this point forward, we make all our decisions together.”
Ellie looked at me with glassy eyes. Fuck, she’s crying again.
“Tell me what’s wrong, please,” I begged.
“I love you,” she wailed.
“I love you too, baby.”
I wasn’t sure why she was crying. I didn’t know what I said that set her off.
“Baby, if you don’t want me to join the club, that’s ok. That was why I asked you. I want us to make this decision together. “
“I want you to join the club. I never had an issue with you joining the club,” she cried.
“Then why are you crying?”
“Because you thought about me, and not just what you wanted. You asked me for input on something that affects you and the girls. You saw me, Ryder. No one but Jessie has ever seen me before. It’s always about what they want, how it affects their life, and never about me.”
“So, are these… happy tears?” I asked hesitantly.
Ellie laughed out loud.
“I think so, but I’m not sure. I am sure, however, that I want you to do what makes you happy. That will make me happy.”
She wrapped her arms around my neck and cried into my shoulder. I was still unsure what she wanted. I was cautious about asking for clarification, but I knew I wouldn’t be able to sleep until I was sure.
“So, what should I tell King?” I asked quietly.
Ellie’s head popped up so fast, she just barely missed my chin.
“Do you want to join the club?” she asked.
I groaned, not thinking. Immediately, her eyes began to water again.
“Ok, let’s try something else. Ellie, I have been asked to join the club. That is something I am interested in, if it works for our family. Do you think that is something that could work for our family?”
“Our family?” she whimpered.
For fuck’s sake, we were never gonna get through this.
“Yes, Ellie, our family. You, me, Chrissy, and Tabby. Would joining the club work for our family?” I was willing to ask one more time.
“Yes,” she said with a smile.
“Thank fuck,” I declared, then jackknifed off the couch with her in my arms. “Let’s go to bed. I’m exhausted, and we have a big day tomorrow.”
I laid Ellie in the bed and crawled in behind her. I held her in my arms until her breathing evened out, then followed right behind her.