8. Chapter 8 - Kip
Chapter 8 - Kip
Good Enough
I prayed for hours that I wasn’t making a mistake. I laid there with the perfect tiny angel that had fallen into a trap on my property, in my arms after I’d explored her body and found pleasure in it and prayed that I hadn’t just betrayed the only woman I’d ever loved.
Hadley had laid awake for a long time in my arms too, I felt the variance in her breathing the same way I was sure she felt mine as we lay in silence and got lost in our own thoughts.
When she rolled away, to lie on her side facing the wall, I let her go and didn’t follow her. I wanted to, but I needed to wrap my head around how effortlessly I consumed her body with mine earlier. How little thought and effort it took to convince myself to betray Molly and cheat on her with the tiny pixie.
Would she be mad if she knew? Or would she know I was a weak man who couldn’t have said no to such an easy, willing partner when she was lying half naked in my bed?
Shit. Hadley wasn’t fucking easy.
She was the opposite of easy and I knew that. Deep down, she had been struggling with her own inner demons the entire time she had been with me, but especially when I was touching her.
Did she have someone waiting for her at home that she had just betrayed like I had? Or did her reservations and worries stem from what someone did to her? She told me many times that she didn’t have anyone, but how could she not?
She was beautiful, even more beautiful than Molly, and believe me, it pained me to admit that.
Molly had always been the girl next door type of pretty, with easy, low maintenance routines that left her effortlessly pretty. Tall and skinny, with long blond hair and crystal blue eyes. But Hadley was timeless and elegant in an Elizabeth Taylor way. A pin up, goddess type of sex appeal paired with a submissive and gentle personality that left my head spinning and my cock hard constantly .
I didn’t deserve her affection. And I didn’t deserve her kindness, seeing as how I’d barely given her any of my own since she showed up. But I wanted to change that.
I wanted to be nice to her and stop being such a hard ass with her, given that she surely didn’t deserve it. But I couldn’t let my grief and resentment go, it’d been five years, and I was still a pissed off shell of the man I’d been before two men stole everything I ever wanted and needed in my life.
And I didn’t know how to just let someone else in when I’d shut down and shut out everyone I had left five years ago.
But I needed to figure it out because the snow stopped falling earlier, and by the day after next, the roads would be passable and I’d be out of excuses for keeping her locked away with me and not taking her into town like I’d told her I would.
She hadn’t brought it up, and I sure didn’t either, but she would eventually, and I’d then have to shut up and take her to town and give her what she needed to get away from me and back to her life. Or figure out how to convince her to stay here and see what it was becoming with me .
And I didn’t know how to even begin wooing her into staying.
Scratch that.
I did know how to start, and that involved being kind, sweet, and gentle with her. Once upon a time, I was all of those things with Molly; I could figure it out with Hadley.
I looked over at her and admired the way her curves laid out under the blankets, her waist was so tiny and her hips wide with a flare that made me ache to hold them in my hands and pull her backward into me.
So I did what my body ached for me to do and rolled over, wrapping my arms around her from behind and holding her the entire night as I once again slept harder than I had in years.
When I woke up the next morning, she was still in bed, but she was awake, looking at me from where she laid on her side facing me.
“Mmh, good morning,” I said as I scooted closer and pulled her warm naked body flush with mine. She giggled lightly when my morning erection jabbed into her stomach before it laid between us .
“Good morning to you, too.” She whispered. Her dimples were so deep in her supple cheeks, I wanted to lean forward and just take a bite out of each of them.
“Your gorgeous face is something I could easily get used to waking up to every morning. I can’t even tell you the last time I’ve slept past sunrise, but I’ve done it every morning since you got here.”
She smiled, “I’ve never been an early riser before, but since getting here, I’m up with the sun. Must be all the wonderful windows.”
“Must be, I’ll have to get some curtains for you,” I said.
Instead of acknowledging the way she stiffened in my arms slightly as I talked about the future, I buried my face in her neck and breathed her in. I kissed her neck with open passionate kisses and planned on pulling back after a little teasing, but she moaned sugary sweetness and dug her nails into my shoulders where she held on as I tasted her flesh.
I willingly accepted her invitation.
As I slid my knee forward and spread hers, she greeted me by throwing her leg up over my hip and opening her center to me, rocking forward on my thigh .
“Tell me what you want, Bambina .” I whispered as I kissed up her neck to the shell of her ear, remembering how responsive she was to the stimulation last time. I ran my tongue along the outer edge before sucking the lower lobe into my mouth. She squirmed in my arms, rocking her hips on my thigh until I felt her wet center grind against my own naked flesh.
“Tell me what Bambina means.” She replied, catching me off guard, but not really surprising me, as she had asked me before and I’d avoided the question.
I smiled at her persistence and pulled back to look into her eyes as I let my hand slide from her back to rest on her hip before slowly sliding it around to her front and teasing the upper outer lips of her pussy pressed against my leg. “Are you sure that’s what you want right now?” I asked, once more trying to distract her.
“Yes.” She said even as she moaned, closing her eyes, and arching her back to press harder on my fingers. “I want you to tell me what it means, and then I want you to lay me back and finally slide that monster cock deep into me until it bottoms out. Think you can do all that for me?”
Naughty little chit .
I felt the fire climb in my veins and blast to my cock as her words rushed through my ears. She opened her eyes and watched me intently, waiting for a reply.
“I think I can handle that.” Swiftly flipping her onto her back, I positioned myself on top of her. I was careful not to put any pressure on her ribs or bad hand as I slid between her open legs. My cock pressed against her wet pussy as I slid it back and forth, teasing us both immensely.
“Kip.” She moaned, running her nails down my pecs and stomach until she reached between us and slid her hand between my cock and my pelvis, and pressed me harder into her clit before stroking it eagerly. “Tell me what it means so you can take me, right here, right now.”
I growled at her and threw my head back as the sensations made my balls ache with a need to bottom out in her like she’d told me to.
I dropped my head until our faces were inches apart and stopped moving, taking a few deep breaths to focus. When her eyes opened and looked back into mine, her hand stilled, and she waited for my reply. “It’s Italian, for little girl.” I said, watching her reaction. She stayed silent and still, other than the slight squinting of her eyes at the definition. She didn’t like that answer, of that I was sure.
“My sweet, feisty bambina.” I smoothed the hair back from her forehead and smiled down at her before leaning down to kiss her sweetly. She welcomed my lips on her own, even though she didn’t like my answer. I made sure to remember that. “My grandfather has called my grandmother that their entire marriage. It’s to remind her of how small and feminine she is in his big powerful arms, and how he feels like her protector when he is holding her.”
“Oh.” She whispered.
“The moment you opened your eyes here in my bed, I finally understood what he meant my entire life when he told me to find someone that needs me as much as I need them to,” I said as I ground my hips into hers further. She ran her tongue out over her plump lower lip before biting down on it as her eyes closed in pleasure. “We have an indescribable connection, Hadley. And I’m going to shield you and protect you as long as you let me.”
She seemed to hold her breath as she softly whispered, “And if you can’t? If my demons aren’t something you can physically protect or shield me from? Then what?”
I paused for a moment, absorbing her question and the fear in her eyes, “What are your demons?”
Her green eyes dilated slightly before her lids closed and when they opened again, they were looking at a spot just to the side of my face instead of back at me as they had been before.
“Tell me,” I demanded, sliding my hips forward again, rubbing my cock through her soaked folds.
She scowled at me slightly before stretching her neck back and moaning slightly as I used the head of my cock to put pressure on the bundle of nerves at her core.
“I can’t, you wouldn’t want me anymore if I did.” She whispered against my lips before sliding her fingers into the hair at the base of my neck, pulling me down the fraction of an inch left between us, and kissing me with lust-filled noises. “And I need you right now, so bad. I can’t risk it.” She finished as she wrapped her legs around my hips and pulled me against her even more.
And I was lost.
I buried my fingers in her dark locks and kissed her hard as I pulled my hips back far enough for the crown of my cock to find her slick opening and surged forward, spearing her fully in one thrust.
She let out a screech as her tight pussy fought to accommodate my size, but I didn’t stop as I pulled back and thrust forward again as my eyes rolled in the back of my head.
“Fuck Hadley, you feel so damn good,” I growled, already feeling the electric current at the base of my spine pick up.
“You’re so big, you fill me up like no other.” She moaned.
I leaned down and took one of her perfect nipples in my mouth, flicking it with my tongue before biting down on it, making her yell out in ecstasy again.
“Yes! I’m so close already, Kip.” She ran her fingernails up my flanks and up to my shoulders before running them back down again, driving me wild.
I pounded into her repeatedly, pushing her up the bed further with each brutal thrust. Her eyes closed again, and she threw her head back as her body clamped down on my cock as she orgasmed. It was an entire-body experience, and I watched with rapture as it overtook her.
The sight of her losing it caused me to pitch over the top and climax myself. I filled her with everything I had and ached to do it again and again in an animalistic way. I didn’t know her from Adam, but I wanted to fucking claim her in the most fundamental way. A way I had once before with Molly. It was something I lost the day I lost her.
Taking a moment to catch my breath and calm down, I carefully pulled out and rolled onto my back, bringing her along and holding her securely against my chest with both arms.
“I didn’t use a condom; I should have asked you if it was alright before I just took you like that.” I panted.
For the first time in my life, the pleasure overtook me and made me not care about safety.
“I have a birth control implant in my arm, so that’s all good. And I’ve never had sex without a condom.” There was a darkness shadowing her eyes as she said it though.
“Okay, we’re good then.” I exhaled with relief.
“Very good.” She said, taking a deep breath and relaxing into my arms. I looked down at her and saw her smile as she tried to hide it in my chest, bashfully.
“Oh yeah? How good?” I questioned, though I already knew the answer, for myself at least .
“Eh, just good.” She tried to play it off, but I used my hands to tickle her arms as she lied, and she ended in a fit of girlish giggles and I had never heard a more angelic sound in my life.
Laughing myself, I pulled her over the top of me and spread her thighs over mine as I laughed with her, but she quickly sobered up.
“Was it good for you? Was I good?” She asked shyly, not meeting my eyes.
I slid my fingers under her chin and made her look at me square on before I answered. I could tell she needed my answer to be a good one to ease some fear or doubt buried deep in her heart.
“Honestly, what we just did and what we did last night felt better than anything I’ve ever felt before, with anyone. Better than anything I could ever imagine.”
I saw the speculation in her eyes as she tried to cover it up, but she wasn’t quick enough. So instead, I showed her, so she would have to believe me.
I grasped her hips with both hands and urged her towards me until my hardened cock entered her again.
I spent the rest of the day inside of her, showing her in ways she couldn’t deny, just how good it was for me.