Chapter 30 - Ryan
Ryan
I did exactly what I’d been dreaming of since the moment Dom walked out of my flat. I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him as tight as I could. Tucking my face into his neck, I breathed him in. “I’m sorry I made you wait, Dom. I wish I’d come to my senses earlier.”
“Seems fair, given how long you waited for me,” Dom murmured, rocking us slightly back and forth. “Still can’t believe you’re here, if I’m honest. How’d you even find me?”
“Max. Turns out he’s got you on Find My Friends.”
“You asked Max for help?”
I leaned back so I could see his face. “Yeah. But in the spirit of full transparency, it’s not the only way he helped today.”
“It’s not?”
“No. I’d already decided not to go through with the wedding, but there were…doubts in my mind still.” I hated the hurt that flashed through Dom’s eyes. “I’m sorry, Dom. I never should’ve doubted you. Us.”
“I gave you every reason to,” he said roughly. “I can’t be angry when it was my own actions that caused it.”
“We were both there that night. I certainly wasn’t blameless either. Maybe it’s time we forgave ourselves.”
“It’ll be easier to do that knowing I’ll be waking up beside you every day,” Dom admitted, sliding his hands up and down my back. “That will be happening, right? Or do you want to take this slow?”
“Fuck slow,” I said breathlessly. “I want you in my bed, in my flat, in my life. In all the ways.”
“Good,” he growled. “Now finish what you were saying about Max so I can take you to bed and show you just how happy I am that you’re here.”
With how he was palming my arse, it took me a few moments to locate my brain. “Ah…he gave me your letters.”
Dom’s hand paused. “My last letters?”
“Do you mind?” I searched his face. “He said you wouldn’t.”
His throat bobbed. “No, Shadow, I don’t mind. They were all written to you. For you. I never wanted you to read them because of what it’d mean, but I don’t mind that you have now. Especially if it’s brought you back to me.”
“You really do love me.” I choked on a sob. “You thought of me all the time. You weren’t lying.”
Dom released a shuddering breath as he shook his head slowly. “No. I’ve lied a lot in my life, but never about that. I love you. I thought of you constantly. Being away from you…it damn near killed me, Shadow.”
“Same.” I leaned into him, letting his solid weight anchor me. “I didn’t say it out loud. Hell, I didn’t even admit it to myself. But it did, Dom. Please don’t ever leave me again.”
“Never,” he vowed. “Never, Ryan Davies. You’re mine, and I’m yours. Just yours. Always.”
I nudged Dom back towards the bed. My hands were already working at his buttons while he shoved my T-shirt over my head and chucked it aside.
My foot caught on something. If it hadn’t been for Dom’s hold, I would’ve gone tumbling. “Hang on.”
I ducked down, snagging the piece of red material from the floor.
My heart ached as I felt the wet patches, knowing what had put them there.
It was what Dom had been holding when I’d spotted him through his window, shaking as though his whole world was falling apart.
I hated that I’d put him through that. That it had taken me so long to pull my head out of my arse.
At least I had now. I vowed then and there that I’d spend the rest of my life making him happy.
“What is this?” I shook it out.
Dom smiled. “Don’t you recognise it?”
A surge of happiness swelled as the pieces fell into place. “Is this…? This is what you wore the first night we kissed.”
“Yup. First time I made you come too. I remember thinking I was going to keep it forever as a trophy.”
I snorted. “Is that cute? Or an arrogant teenager thing?”
“Let’s go with cute.”
“Technically that wasn’t the first time you made me come,” I mused. “Seem to remember I came all over my jeans during that first blowjob.”
“True.” Dom hooked his fingers through my belt loops and tugged me closer. “But I’m not counting that. This was the first intentional orgasm.”
“Fair.” An idea came to me. “You know what, I think this top needs a new memory.”
“It does?”
“Yep.” I pulled it over my head. “Last thing either of us wants to remember when we see it is how much you were hurting. I’d much prefer we associate it with something else.”
Dom’s throat bobbed. “Yeah. Let’s do that.”
I tugged at the bottom of the shirt and frowned. “I don’t remember it being this tight on you. Did your dad wash it and shrink it?”
Dominic’s laugh was rich as he slowly ran his hand down my chest. “No, Shadow. I think you’re just bigger than I was at eighteen.”
“Huh.” I tugged once more before giving up. Looked like those two inches of skin were staying on display. “Sure I don’t look stupid?”
“Stupid? Shadow, there are a thousand adjectives I could apply to you right now, but stupid isn’t one of them.”
I bit my lip. “Really?”
“Really.” He smoothed his hands down to the sliver of skin before sliding them beneath the T-shirt. “Never thought about you wearing my clothes before, but now… Yeah, I’m going to need a bigger wardrobe. I want you in them all the time.”
“I’m sure that can be arranged,” I said, sinking to my knees. I held Dom’s gaze the whole way down, memorising how his green eyes darkened so I could revisit it later with a pencil in my hand. “Remember how we started?”
“Like I could ever forget,” he said huskily.
“So, Dominic.” I bit the inside of my cheek to stop myself laughing. “Are you going to offer me your protection if I suck your cock?”
He slid his thumb over my lips before lowering his hand to my throat. “No, Shadow. You’ll have that regardless. If you choke on my cock, it’ll be because you want to. Not for any other reason.”
“You had to spoil my fun,” I teased, before letting the gravity of the moment settle. “I think I wanted it back then…I just didn’t realise.”
“We both did, we were just too blind to see it at first. I should’ve realised when I knocked the shit out of those lads who hurt you.”
“And I should’ve worked it out when I used drawing you as an excuse to get you naked.”
Dom gave a throaty laugh. “Yeah, that one was kind of a big giveaway.”
“At least it didn’t take us too long,” I said, peeling down his joggers. His cock hung heavy, half-hard before I’d even put my mouth on it. “A few weeks and ten years later, and here we are.”
Dominic’s hand trembled on my throat. “With a fresh start?”
“Exactly,” I whispered. “One where we love each other, with nothing holding us back.”
Relief shone so brightly in his eyes that it was almost blinding. “I can’t fucking wait, Shadow.”
Only with Dominic could I have such a sweet moment while his cock was inches away from my face. But that had always been the way with us—contradictions of heat and aching sweetness that somehow existed together. No. They complemented each other.
Just like Dominic and me. We shouldn’t have worked together, but we did.
“I love you,” I said, taking his shaft in my hand and kissing the head. “More than anything, Dom.”
He shivered. “Can’t love me more than I love you.”
“Always a competition.” I smirked, teasing his foreskin before pulling it back. “Bet you come before I do.”
“I’d better,” Dom warned, his eyes glittering down at me. “Because if you don’t come in my mouth, I’m going to be very disappointed.”
I groaned, pressing my hand against my erection. “You don’t play fair.”
He grinned softly. “We wouldn’t be here if I did.”
True. “Thank fuck for that.”
His hand moved to my hair, tightening around it. “Now be a good boy and make me come.”
My eyes rolled back in my head as my cock throbbed incessantly. “You and your mouth.”
He tugged gently, smirking down at me. “It’s your mouth I’m more interested in right now.”
There was no way he thought that would make me hurry up. He knew me better than that. Returning his smirk, I leaned forward. Not to take his cock in my mouth, but to drop teasing, kittenish licks up the length of him.
Dom trembled. “Fuck, Shadow. You really don’t play fair.”
I bit back a grin. Little did he know that I was just getting started.
Bending lower, I paid the same attention to his balls.
He shivered as I sucked first one, then the other into my mouth.
My tongue laved over each one, soaking it, before I finally released it.
Then I lifted them out of my way with one hand, shoving Dom’s knee with the other until he got the hint.
Lifting his leg out of his joggers, he spread wide for me. “Oh, I like where this is going.”
I chuckled roughly. Yeah, I bet he did. With more room, I was able to attack his taint. I kissed, licked, and sucked, all the while massaging Dom’s balls with my fingers.
“God, Ry,” he moaned, his thigh shaking where it was pressed to my ear. “This is definitely several levels up on the first time.”
I sat back on my heels and winked. “Got to make sure I keep you interested.”
His eyes softened. “Shadow, you keep me interested just by breathing.”
That might have been true, but it wasn’t stopping me bringing my A game. This was our fresh start; I wanted it to start explosively.
Pun fully intended.
My lips returned to his cock as my hands kept busy on his balls and taint. I kept my caresses light, never giving Dom quite enough. Even my kisses were designed to drive him crazy—dusting along his shaft but never lingering.
It wasn’t long before Dom was begging. His legs were shaking so hard that I was silently amazed he was still standing. “Please, Ry. Baby. Shadow. I need more. Please.”
My resolve to draw this out vanished instantly. His desperate pleas had me taking him deep into my mouth, sucking until my cheeks hollowed, his cock bumping the back of my throat.
“That’s it,” Dom murmured. “Look at you taking me so well.”
I moaned around him, squeezing myself through my trousers as I flashed back to that night. The one that had changed everything. At the time, I’d questioned my decision.
Now, I knew it was the best one I’d ever made. Because it had led me right here. In love with someone who wanted me. So much so that he’d been prepared to wait even if I married someone else. Who’d vowed to be there, the moment I was ready for him.
I was lucky. So damned lucky and grateful. And I was going to spend every day thanking Dom for it.
For loving me.
He was thrusting now, his hands guiding my head, pulling me deeper onto his cock. Was he even aware of it? Or was he so lost in the moment, so lost in me, that he’d lost control?
Fuck, I hoped it was the latter.
I relaxed, letting him fuck my face. A quiet peace filled my head as Dom chased his release. I floated to a blissful place where there was no past. No hurt feelings or broken hearts. Just the two of us. Together.
“You’re too good,” Dom panted, his eyes fixed on my face. At where his cock disappeared between my lips. “Too good for me, Shadow. Fuck, I’m so lucky.”
That’s where he was wrong. I was the lucky one. This man, this wonderful, funny man had waited for me. He’d plotted, schemed, and manipulated his way back into my life, knowing I’d never really be happy without him.
And I’d never be able to thank him enough for it. Because he was right.
No one made me happy like Dominic did.
His cock pulsed in my mouth just as he gave an inarticulate yell. I sucked harder, squeezing his balls lightly, begging for him to empty them, to give me what I craved—the knowledge that it was me who made him feel this way.
When he did, my hand shot down to grab the base of my cock. It was as though Dom’s pleasure was rolling right through me, dragging me to the edge. I was tempted to let it, but I’d made a promise to Dom. I wasn’t letting him down.
“Fuck, Shadow,” he wheezed, his grip on my hair loosening, his fingers stroking my scalp soothingly. “Didn’t think I could come harder than at the cabin, but apparently I was wrong.”
I kissed my way along his softening cock, chuckling when he hissed. “Good to know I can still surprise you.”
“Let’s see if I can say the same.”
That was all the warning Dom gave me. The next thing I knew, I was being shoved backwards.
I fell with a panicked squeak, waiting for my head to hit the floor, but I should’ve known better than to think Dom would let me get hurt.
He tumbled down with me, his hands cradling the back of my head before it could make contact with the carpet.
“Can’t wait,” he said by way of apology, already shoving my trousers down. “Need you now.”
My shout was loud as heat enveloped my cock. “Fuck, you weren’t kidding.”
Dom didn’t tease. He didn’t go slow. He devoured me like I was his last meal. His head bobbed furiously, cheeks hollowing as he sucked hard.
It was all I could do to remember how to breathe. My eyes rolled back in my head, my hands grasping at his hair. Not to control him, but just to give myself something to hold on to before I floated away.
Not that Dom would let me. I was safe with him.
“Dom,” I gasped, lightning racing down my spine. “I’m not going to last.”
Dom grunted, doubling his efforts. One of his big fingers slid between my cheeks, tapping against my hole.
That was it. I was done for. I came with an inarticulate yell, my hips straining as Dom drank me down.
“God, you taste good.” Dominic rested his chin on my thigh and smiled up at me. “Can’t believe I made Ryan Davies come in my teenage bedroom.”
“Seems fair given how many times teenager Ryan made you come in his bedroom.”
He tugged on the bottom of the red T-shirt affectionately. “How about we revisit such activities in our current bedrooms?”
I smirked. “Haven’t we already done that too?”
“Not in the same room,” Dom said before rolling off me with a sigh. “But if you’d rather not…”
I sat up and hauled him towards me by the front of his shirt. “Fuck off, you prat. You know I was only playing.”
“I know.” He grinned. “And you’re still my favourite person to play with.”