20. Lila
CHAPTER TWENTY
Lila
I shouldn’t have said yes to the motorcycle ride.
I shouldn’t have let Colt convince me to climb onto that beast of a machine, my arms wrapped around his solid frame as we sped down winding back roads.
But as the cool night air whipped around me and the rumble of the bike echoed in my chest, I realized something.
I didn’t regret it. Not one bit.
Now, as we pulled up to his house, the adrenaline was still buzzing under my skin.
His place wasn’t at all what I had expected. Tucked at the end of a gravel driveway, it was a cozy cabin-style home, complete with a wraparound porch and soft golden light spilling through the windows.
“Wow, nice place.”
Colt smirked, reaching out a hand to help me up. “Come on inside. You’re gonna love this.”
I hesitated, glancing back at the bike and then toward the quiet road we’d come from. “Are you sure?”
My breath caught. I didn’t know how things were going to be once we left the cabin.
I had no idea what the guys’ expectations were going to be.
But I did know I wanted to have fun.
“Okay,” I said softly.
His smile widened, slow and confident, as he led me up the steps and into the house.
Inside, his place was surprisingly homey. A big leather couch faced a stone fireplace, and shelves lined with books and records filled one wall.
The scent of cedar and something faintly smoky hung in the air, and the whole space felt… warm.
“Make yourself at home,” Colt said, disappearing into the kitchen.
I wandered over to the shelves, running my fingers along the spines of books and thumbing through a stack of vinyl records. It was a side of him I hadn’t expected.
“You’re full of surprises, you know that?” I said as he came back, carrying two glasses of whiskey.
He handed me one, his grin just as mischievous as ever. “Yeah? What kind of surprises?”
I took a sip, the warmth spreading through me immediately. “The kind that makes me think there’s more to you than the reckless, flirty guy everyone sees.”
Colt leaned against the arm of the couch, his gaze fixed on me. “Maybe there is. Or maybe I just keep people guessing.”
“Guessing, huh?” I set my glass down and crossed my arms, pretending to scrutinize him. “What’s the biggest risk you’ve ever taken?”
He didn’t answer right away. Instead, he closed the distance between us, stopping just a breath away. “Asking you out.”
I laughed, but the sound came out softer than I intended. “You’re so full of it, Colt.”
“Maybe,” he murmured, reaching out to tuck a strand of hair behind my ear. “But I’m not lying about this.”
The air between us shifted, the teasing giving way to something heavier, more electric. His hand lingered near my face, his thumb brushing my cheek.
“Tell me to stop,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper.
I should have. I should have stepped back, reminded myself why this was a terrible idea. But instead, I leaned into his touch, my breath catching as his other hand found my waist.
“I don’t want you to stop,” I admitted, the words spilling out before I could second-guess them.
His lips curved into a small, almost relieved smile, and then he closed the space between us.
The kiss was slow at first, careful, like he was giving me a chance to change my mind. But when I didn’t pull away, it deepened, his hand sliding to the small of my back as he pulled me closer.
It wasn’t just a kiss. It was a free fall.
I needed this, needed him—not just the physical closeness but the raw, unspoken desire that seemed to bind us in that moment.
“Lila…” His voice was low, rough around the edges as if he was holding himself back. “You drive me crazy, you know that?”
“Good,” I whispered, my fingers trailing down the line of his jaw. “Because you’re doing the same to me.”
That was all it took.
He scooped me up effortlessly, his hands firm but gentle as he guided me down onto the couch. The leather was cool against my back, a shock after the heat radiating between us.
Colt leaned over me, his arms braced on either side of my head as his gaze burned into mine.
He hovered above me with a look in his eye that suggested he wanted to devour me. Never in my life had I wanted to be eaten alive by anyone. I arched my back, wanting him to connect with me sooner.
The need to have him was growing by the second. I could feel myself spinning out of control.
All of a sudden, we were kissing hungrily again, and his eager hands were traveling down my body. It was all happening too quickly, yet somehow not fast enough at the same time.
Even as his hands found the hemline of my dress and he slipped his fingers under there to cup my bra, I wanted more. I wanted everything that Colt had to offer me.
“Oh wow,” I gasped as his hands reached behind my back and my bra magically popped open. “You’re good.”
“You think that was good?” His eyebrow cocked at me as my hands hooked around his back. “You just wait.”
He wasn’t wrong. The moment that his fingers reached my now naked breasts and he began to tug and tease my nipples with his fingers, I nearly screamed with pleasure.
Without even thinking about what I was doing, I grabbed Colt’s hand and slid it down my body to where I was aching desperately for him. The wet heat in my panties absolutely needed to be felt by him.
“Oh, fuck.” The expletive flew passed my lips as he grazed the outside of my underwear. “Colt, you’re…”
“You don’t want to be teased, do you?” he murmured, reading my body language for me. “That’s okay.”
I stiffened up as he slid my underwear down, grazing the hypersensitive skin of my thighs. I could hardly stand it. The anticipation was getting to be too much for me. I wanted him right now.
As soon as I was naked from the waist down, those incredible fingers of his were tracing up and down my soaking wet slit.
He circled my clit a few times, shutting off any of my remaining thoughts, making me a complete slave to the sensations that he was causing to careen and rocket all the way through me.
Before I could get used to the rhythm of what he was doing, he stunned me by plunging his fingers deep inside of me, making me scream.
I seriously hoped no one was on the other side of that door listening in. That would be incredibly embarrassing. Not that I could stop screaming if I wanted to.
“I want you,” I called out as I rolled my hips against his hand. “Oh, Colt, I want you so bad.”
He whipped away then, taking his hand off of me, which made me instantly regret my words. I had to squeeze my thighs together to stop myself from finishing off what he had started.
“What are you…?” I started to ask, but words deserted me as I saw what he had pulled away to do.
He was peeling off his clothing, bit by bit. Damn, he was gorgeous. He was pure muscle, and I just wanted to touch him all over.
Especially as he dropped his pants and I got a glimpse of his thick thighs. His body turned me on, set me alight.
I pushed myself into a sitting position and yanked my dress up over my head. It was totally worth it when he groaned in agony at the sheer sight of me.
“Oh god, I want you so bad.” He joined me again in a heartbeat. “Say that I can have you, Lila.”
I wasn’t sure how much of me he wanted, what he truly meant by that statement, but I nodded mutely, knowing that I would give absolutely anything of myself over to him.
I could feel that rock hard erection of his teasing my entrance, and I was so eager to have him fill me. My core pulsed and pounded with need.
He kept his eyes on me the entire time as he slowly edged his way in, moving slowly and carefully. It pinched a bit, but it was a pain combined with such pleasure that I just wanted more, so I lifted my hips off the bed to meet him faster, to take more of him.
His cock scraped my walls, hitting incredible-feeling spots that I didn’t even know existed. I grew dizzier by the second, losing myself to him.
“You’re beautiful,” he murmured, his soft breath tickling my neck. “You have no idea how stunning.”
I loved the way that he was treating me, but there was a need inside of me, a part of me that wanted more. I wrapped my legs tightly around his back and I drove him deep into me.
Colt let me control the thrusts and it wasn’t long before I was plunging against him hard and fast, the pressure inside of me building.
The pleasure was swelling, growing, consuming me, and as Colt pulled me under the waters of ecstasy with him, I didn’t want to be anywhere else in the world.
He was pushing me; I was on the knife’s edge of pleasure, about to fall at any given moment. Just for now, I wanted to cling to this moment before the glorious anticipation…
But with Colt, I had no hope. I couldn’t hold on to it forever. So, when I fell, I fell hard. The orgasm literally took my breath away.
I knew in that moment everything had changed.
Because I knew with full certainty that I wanted Colt.
But not just him…
Was it wrong that I felt more alive with all of them? More… complete? Or was this just some confusion I was feeling because of everything that had happened with my ex?
The betrayal, the flight back home, the vulnerability I had been hiding. Hadn’t they all been there for me? Jaxon, Ryan, Colt… they each brought something unique into my life, something I hadn’t even realized I was missing until now.
But now, lying in Colt’s bed, I had to face the truth. I wasn’t just attracted to him. I was starting to realize that I didn’t just want one of them.
I wanted them all.
Was that even possible? Was I just fooling myself, letting the attraction cloud my judgment? I wasn’t even sure what I was looking for anymore. The comforting thought of safety in a one-on-one relationship felt so distant, almost unachievable.
I couldn’t even think about my brother in all of this.
I was a mess.