Chapter 26
CHAPTER 26
TEXTS
Jake
Thanks for lunch. It was nice.
Esme
I enjoyed it. Especially how much you loved your meal.
Jake
I can’t help that it was the most amazing gnocchi I’ve had in nearly a decade.
Esme
Your little groans and whimpers told me as much. I had to think about root canals to be able to stand up after lunch.
Jake
Not sorry.
Esme
We got sidetracked at lunch. What do you mean you’re not always little and not always a put-together cop?
Jake
Sometimes, I need help getting out of my head. The world feels too much and I can’t be little and have fun, but I can’t be big and in-charge either. I want to throw my problems out the window and find some toys, but I need to get out of my head first.
Esme
So how do you like to get out of your head?
Jake
Depends, really. Spankings are the easiest. But sometimes other sensory play, edging. I’d say it’s all pretty typical stuff.
Typical yet, fml, I can’t believe I just said all that.
Esme
Spankings? Sensory play? Edging. Okay, I know about edging, and the basics of spankings… But I’ve never spanked anyone. And what is sensory play? And will I hurt him?
Trent
Christ, I wish I’d been there to see what led to this text.
Canyon
Sounds like they’re working their shit out.
Trent
Drinks tonight? The boys are going out for dinner.
Esme
Do you use the traffic light system or a different safe word?
Jake
Traffic lights.
I’m almost afraid to know why you’re asking…
Jake
I told Esme I like spankings. Someone kill me now. I’m so embarrassed.
Logan
At least you didn't tell an entire group chat you like spankings. It can’t be that bad. Besides, you want him to spank you.
Jake
Oh my god, that would be mortifying! Definitely didn't do that.
Aiden
Then it's all good!
Esme
Are diapers always part of your little time?
Jake
***beeeeeeep*** Jake is dead. Please leave a message and he’ll get back to you… never.
Esme
That’s not an answer.
Jake
Just so you know. I’m totally plotting ways to hide your body.
Esme
Still waiting.
Though a little freaked out too.
Jake
Ugh. Fine. No. They aren’t always. Actually pretty rarely. It’s hard to get into it when I don’t have a Daddy to help me get in the right place. It’s… personal and special and I’m not sure how to explain it.
Esme
I think you explained it well.
Jake
Are you freaking out yet?
Esme
About what?
Jake
All of it.
Esme
Not at all, if anything it’s the opposite of freaking out.
There’s something relaxing about it. I can’t explain it well. Your friends are good mentors though, they have answers to everything.
Jake
It’s a good thing my ability to be embarrassed by the things they say and overshare left shortly after I met them… Though knowing you talk to them about this stuff is testing that.
Esme
How do you see your Daddy being?
Jake
Ummm…. Caring. When I’m feeling little, I don’t want to be in trouble. I want to let shit go.
Esme
… Is that what you mean about getting out of your head?
Jake
Yeah.
I can’t just be little, even if I want to be. If I’m stressed out, had a rough day, whatever, I can’t just turn it off to be little. It doesn’t matter if being little for a while would help. I need help getting there. But once I’m there, I just want to be little and feel special.
Esme
That makes sense.
Jake
Why do I miss Esme so much? Totally not whining.
Larson
Oh, you are whining. And you miss him so much because you guys have actually been building something real. How long has it been since you’ve actually spent time with him?
Jake
At work? Last week.
Aiden
Outside of work?
Jake
Between him closing on his new place, the schedules we’ve had at work… And believe me, just because we work at the same place doesn’t mean our schedules align… and now his work trip? Longer than I’d care to admit. He’s been to my house a few times but that’s about it.
Logan
Damn, that sucks. When’s he get home?
Jake
Soon. But I still have work.
Esme
This has been the longest trip known to man. Heading to the airport now, thank fuck. With any luck, I’ll make it in before the storm hits.
Jake
Good luck. The news is predicting major storms. Safe travels.