18. Chapter Eighteen – Adam
Adam
A soft knock on my door makes my head shoot up from my laptop. My work never ends and I just spent a few hours answering more or less important e-mails to shrink the amount of work awaiting me back at the office.
But I also know how to prioritize. So I shut the laptop down, because this is definitely not high on my priority list. Not when the alternative is Lily and even less when I have an array of freshly bought toys charging on the windowsill, ready to be tried out.
Before I open the door, I take a second to take a deep breath and look at myself in the mirror. Oh God, I’m too old to feel as giddy as I do. I rub my hand over my face, hoping it will help me school my expression.
But as soon as I open the door, and Lily comes into sight, my face breaks into a smile.
So much for playing it cool .
"Hello there." Lily grins at me and doesn't wait for an invitation before she slips past me into my room.
"Long time no see," I tease her right back. We’ve seen each other the whole day during the last event of the conference – basically a little ‘goodbye’ party with champagne and snacks, before they sent us off.
Afterwards, she went to grab dinner with Felix to celebrate the conference ending properly, before sending him off to his flight back.
"Got your assistant into the taxi?"
"Yes, Felix is on his way back home." She nods and sits down on my couch, shrugging off her high heels and sighing in relief when she kicks them away. "And dare I say I envy him."
She notices the toys charging on the windowsill and jumps up, sauntering over to them with a seductive sway in her hips. Really fucking seductive.
"I love Tokyo. And don't get me wrong, I'm not in a hurry to go home," she continues, but I grow distracted as she starts unbuttoning her blouse and I bite my lip. Before she opens all of them, she reaches for one of the toys and weighs it in her hand, looking at it from all sides before putting it back down. "But damn, I miss my own bed."
She shoots me a glance over her shoulder, and a deep-seated feeling of desire makes my insides grow warm and my brain turn to mush.
"Do you?" I raise my eyebrow at her and walk closer until my chest aligns to her shoulders, taking the toy out of her hand and turning her around until she's facing me, only to crowd her against the window.
"As much as I would like an invitation to said bed…" I mumble and continue to unbutton her blouse, carefully pushing the buttons through the holes and grazing her naked skin underneath with my fingertips, making her shudder in anticipation.
"We can't," she interrupts me, and I gulp when I realize that there's a slight twinge of disappointment in her voice.
All I can do is nod. "I know."
But do I? The more I think about it, the less reasons I can find aside from the fact that she’s made up her mind.
“God beware we collaborated. We’d take down the industry,” I try to lighten the mood, but she shakes her head. “Do you really think Millie and Kayla would mind?”
“It’s not about Millie and Kayla. Well, partly it is, but it’s not my main issue.” She bites her lip and my thumbs resting on her hips begin to draw lazy circles on her skin. Her hands wander up my arms until they come to rest at the sides of my throat. "I mean, what secrets could you even get from us? You're the media giant in there." Her fingers start playing with the ends of my hair. "If any, you should be scared of me doing business espionage."
"Oh, now should I?" I raise my eyebrow at her.
A smile spreads on my face as I reach behind her to open up her skirt. It's one of those tight pencil ones with the zipper in the back that I can’t wait to peel her out of.
“But what if I can’t let you go? ”
She freezes in my hold, looking down to evade my gaze. “You need to, Adam.” After taking a deep breath, she looks up to meet my eyes. “So, let’s stop talking about it and enjoy tonight. We don’t have a lot of them left together.”
Her hands find the hem of my shirt and bypass it, making their way up my skin and lifting the fabric up until she can pull it right over my head, then reaching for my belt. Within seconds, they fall to the ground and I step out of them.
Meanwhile, I make a mental note to have Barbara comb through my contract. And I’ll find a way to contact Felix and have him look at hers. Anything else, we can face together. Because I meant it. I don’t think I can let her go.
If there's even the slightest chance of this continuing on after Tokyo, I'm not going waste it. You miss one hundred percent of the shots you don’t take and all that, but I’ll never want to look back at our time, knowing I didn’t even try. Just imagining realizing five years down the line that nothing we worried about in the grand scheme of things actually mattered… God, I would bite myself in the ass.
Finally, I have her skirt zipped open, and she shimmies out of her clothes before she turns around again to look at the little collection, while my lips find the side of her neck, making a shiver run through her when I rub my five-o’clock shadow against her skin.
I didn’t like sleeping without her yesterday. But she insisted, telling me that she'd have to start packing and get up early to spend some time with Felix before he would be leaving today. Which is understandable, but I still didn’t like it.
To annoy her, I'd taken her bag from that sex shop we went to, with promises of having everything charged and ready to go for tonight, making sure she knew that I would be eagerly awaiting.
"Let's see what you got me." She sounds curious and like she’s smiling. "I never managed to take a proper look yesterday."
"I’m very sure you're going to like it." I grin and pull her earlobe between my lips. Blindly, she reaches up and tries to push my face away, but I pinch her hips to make her stop. Shooting me a pouting glance, she shimmies her ass against me, then refocuses on the toys.
The first thing she reaches for is the little glass dildo I’ve picked. A peculiar choice – but when I did a quick internet search, I stumbled over a lot of raving reviews.
"Glass?" She sounds confused and I nod, her whole body vibrating with my chuckle.
"It might look weird," I whisper into her ear, my hips moving against involuntarily, just by remembering the pictures they put into my head, my cock already hard and so fucking ready for her. I let my hand trace a path over her front, evading her breasts and lay it on her clavicle.
"But holy fuck, the reviews I've seen on that thing."
I pull her earlobe between my lips again, noting the way her breath hitches .
"Did you?" she asks breathlessly, and I can see her grin in the window’s reflection. "You didn't get anything for yourself?"
She turns around in my hold, her breath feathering over my chest, nudging her nose against my collarbone, then my throat as she kisses her way to my face.
"Lily," I tell her when we come face to face, breath mingling between our lips, and I tangle my hands on the small of her back. "I don't need a fucking toy when watching you use them is on the table." Our lips are now only millimeters apart, and I bridge the gap, catching them in a heated kiss that has her sighing into my mouth happily.
Without missing a beat, my hand traces a path up her spine and then I have her bra unclasped in seconds, the other hand pulling down her panties.
Her hands roam over my skin frantically, pulling at my underwear, our lips not breaking apart until the two of us are completely naked. I break the kiss, and for a moment, we stare at each other, heavy breaths mixing, before Lily shoots me a wink and pushes me aside to make her way to my bed.
“Fuck,” I groan and rub my hand over my face when she crawls into the middle of it, giving me a view that’s a thousand times better than the night skyline outside.
"Scoot up," I tell her, then reach for the toys I’ve been the most curious about: the glass dildo and two little stars that are going to be an absolute game changer if they work.
"What’s that?" she asks curiously when she notices the little toys and I hold them up .
"These are for your nipples," I explain and throw them on the bed next to her so she can have a look.
But first, I crawl over her, covering her whole body with mine, and capture her lips in another scorching kiss.
"Did you spend the night imagining what I'd do to you today?" I whisper against her lips, grinning when her cheeks turn an adorable red that she tries to hide by looking away.
"Maybe," she admits shyly, and I reach for the toys blindly, not taking my eyes off her flushed face for a moment.
"What did you imagine?" I kiss a path down her body to her collarbone. Her breath hitches and her hands roam through my hair as she begins writhing underneath my touch.
"I'll tell you later," she promises, a small moan falling from her lips when I put the first star-shaped toy to her nipple. It’s supposed to have a suctioning effect and judging by her reaction, it does. "Wow, that feels weird."
"Weird in a good way?" I ask and look up, trying to read her expression.
"To be determined." She grins and tugs at my hair until I give in and she pulls me down into another kiss. Without having to look, I take the second star and place it on her other nipple, swallowing her shrill moan when it latches on.
If that’s her reaction just for fixating them, I can’t wait to see how she’ll like them in action. I reach over for the little remote that I don't think Lily has seen yet, just as she breaks the kiss .
"And what are those supposed to... Ahhh!" She interrupts herself when I push the little power button and the little toys start to buzz.
"Ooh, fuck. That is new," she moans, her back arching, entire body writhing, not knowing what to do, where to get more pleasure.
"Oh, I'm loving this already," I say, my voice hoarse as I press a kiss to her skin.
I sit up and take a moment to just watch her. The way a slight sheen of sweat is already making her skin glow. The even deeper red that's now on her cheeks and the way she doesn't quite know what to do with her hands as I’m out of reach, so she fists the sheets.
"Oh damn," she finally breathes, when I lower the intensity, looking at me with glossy eyes and a wild expression. “I knew letting you pick was a good idea.”
I reach to the side for the little glass dildo, because she’s way too coherent again.
My fingertips slide over the surface, feeling each bump and notch on its sides until they reach the round head. Then I hold it by its base, a little handle on the bottom which is supposedly used to turn the dildo once inside, providing a better grip to push it inside or pull it out.
But mainly to turn it, according to the stellar reviews.
‘My girlfriend has never squirted before, but with this thing? Fucking waterfall.’
‘I’ve never been so wet.’
Now, let’s see what this thing can do. My palm traces a path up her thighs until I reach her core, my fingers greeted with wetness and her guttural moan making the hair in my neck stand up. I look at her face and shoot her a grin.
"Fuck, you're wet," I state the obvious and up the vibrations on her nipples as I thrust a finger into her, making her back fly off the bed.
"Holy fuck," she whines, her hands blindly reaching for my wrist. "Please tell me you're not into orgasm denial because I'm not going to last."
"Not to worry," I tell her. Then I extract my finger and line up the dildo with her entrance, before I lean down until our faces are only a breath away from each other and my cock rests heavy on her thigh. "I’m not that patient.”
My cock twitches when she bites her lip. “And I want to watch you come again and again."
I lick a path up her throat, freeing her lip from her teeth just to pull it between mine as I push in the toy.
"Adam! Fuck!" she moans into my mouth, and goddammit, I’m not letting her go.
Because this? I want to do this for the rest of my life.
Want to make her lose her mind, fuck the teasing tone right out of her voice and tease her until all she knows to moan is my name. Until I’m the one occupying all of her senses.
"So how about you come for me, Beautiful?" I mumble with a grin and start turning the vibrator slowly .
"It's cold," she says, surprised, her eyes wide like saucers. But as soon as I move the toy, her eyebrows crease, and her expression goes to downright shocked but ecstatic. "This is good.” I turn it again. “Fuck, Adam."
"Patience," I tell her and grin. “I’m going to fuck you alright. Later.” She shoots me a glare, but her legs instinctively open when I kiss and lick my way down her body, groaning when I reach her pussy.
Fuck, the way this glass thing looks in her. I can't help but lean down and lick through her folds, drawing a lazy circle around her clit.
"Ad-ahhhm," she moans, her voice way higher as she loses control of it, and she reaches down to bury her hands in my hair, pulling on it so roughly I'm almost scared to lose a few strands.
"You want to know what the reviews about this thing said?" I grin up at her and rub my stubble against her inner thigh. "They said it made their women squirt."
I grin and run my finger through her folds. I think we’re on a good track here, because she’s wetter than I've ever seen her. "I want to know if it's true."
"I've never squirted," she moans when I move it into the other direction. “I can’t.”
“We’ll see about that.” I pull it out, only a few centimeters, but pushing it back in is enough to make her back arch off the mattress. “They also said that it's supposed to go right to the G-spot,” I also let her know as I move it again.
"It's going there alright." She moans and I grin against her pussy when I start to feel her whole body tense up. Mission almost accomplished.
"Ah! Adam, I’m coming."
“Give it to me, Gorgeous.”
And with that, she comes, fingers digging into my scalp, her back flying off the sheets as she shouts my name over and over again.
"Fuck," I groan and lean my cheek against her thigh. That almost had me there as well.
"Come on, Beautiful." I don't stop moving the toy. Instead, I reach for the remote to max out the nipple toys and double my efforts on the dildo.
"Come on, Gorgeous. Do it again."
"I can’t, I - Ahh." The dildo hits just the right spots, making her interrupt herself. Damn, it's fun to shut herself up. Her muscles never relax as her orgasm rolls right over into the next one, and when I see her hands clutching the sheets so tightly they become the same color, I know she's there.
"What the?" she curses, then screams, and there it is, liquid spurting out of her in a burst as another shudder runs through her body like a wave.
"Ha!" I exclaim, grinning at her proudly.
"What the?" Her eyes are wide and her cheeks even redder. "Did I just… pee? Oh God, just let me disappear." She hides her face behind her hands, but I peel them off her face, grinning uncontrollably .
"That, Gorgeous, was you squirting. And now that I know you can,” I capture her lips for a quick kiss, “I can't wait to do it again."
She looks at me with wide eyes, her face still tinted in embarrassment, mouth agape. Then she shakes her head.
"I’ll need like two weeks to recover from that, so no."
She moans when I reach for the remote and change the settings on her nipple vibrators. "For now, can you please just fuck me? I need you."
"That can be arranged." I pull the toy out of her and throw it aside, lining myself up to her entrance. "I feel like I've got to preface this and tell you that I'm absolutely not gonna last long," I admit, and she shoots me a smile, her eyebrows creasing when I enter her in one swift move.
“Don’t care,” she says breathily and closes her eyes as I start fucking her, her fingers digging into my ass as she urges me deeper inside. "Give it to me, Adam. Hard and fast. I'm almost there again."
"Fuck," I groan and lean my forehead against hers as I bring the both of us closer to our releases.
This is not a glamorous fuck. This is both of us chasing our release, chasing our pleasure. And this is when I make up my mind. One day, I will make love to her, but today is not that day.
I’m not letting her go. I don’t know how yet, but the knowledge settles in my gut like snow melting into the ground: She’s mine.
For now, I’m driving the both of us higher on pleasure, closer to our release, until she explodes with need for the third time tonight.
And holy fuck, three times is definitely the charm. It’s even more intense than the first two, her entire body shuddering and her mouth agape in a silent ‘o,’ and her nails digging into my shoulders. I clench my teeth as I feel her contract around me; it's not taking me very long to get there as well.
I move inside her until my last spurt, relishing the feeling of her channel contracting around me, then collapse on her, feeling her chuckle as she catches her breath.
"That thing is amazing," she finally says, her voice hoarse and a happy smile on her face as she reaches for it, turning it in her hand again. I reach between the two of us and peel the star-shaped toys off her nipples, pressing a quick kiss to them but she pushes my face away.
“Hurts.”
“Sorry.”
“Don’t be.” She stretches like a cat and purses her lips to demand another kiss.
"What do you want to try next?" I raise my eyebrow at her after she breaks the kiss and she starts giggling, tapping her lip as she pretends to think about it.
"The corn-shaped one. It might look ridiculous, but who knows? Maybe it’ll blow me away.” She shoots me a wink and I chuckle, hiding my face in the crook of her neck .
She could ask me for anything she wants if it means I can hear her scream my name in pleasure.
And I wonder how many orgasms I'm going to get out of her tonight.