Chapter 31
K issing Sage has never felt as important as in this moment. To have this, just the two of us, when I can try to demonstrate just how deep my feelings for her run.
She really, truly is the one I’m chasing after. The part of my life that feels the most miraculous, and yet she’s also slipping through my fingers at the same time. How am I supposed to show her all the ways she’s important in my life? How could I expect a girl as driven and talented as her to want to throw all of that away?
All I am is the ex-rodeo star, a married man. That can’t possibly be a reason for her to entertain giving up an opportunity like the one she’s been offered.
So, I let my mouth cover hers, slide our tongues together, and surrender to the connection of our bodies. Because maybe that’s all we’ll get for now. Who knows when our time will come back around? Who knows when it might finally align in the skies, the moment I can convince her to take a chance on us? To be mine?
My hands roam everywhere beneath the soft cotton of my t-shirt she wears, and each time I dip lower to squeeze handfuls of her ass, she arches into my hold. Her teeth nip at the corners of my lips, and she lets out the sexiest little moans.
Fuck. I’m entirely gone for her. Swept up and unable to do anything but pray that by the time I’ve sorted my shit out, she might still give me the time of day.
Allowing my fingers to slip beneath her underwear, I fondle her ass and play a little more boldly. Guided by the way her body tells me exactly where she wants my touch, I press and rub against her tight rosebud entrance.
“Please say you’re into that? Please ?” Sage pants against my mouth.
My dick throbs. “Are you?” I say hoarsely. Hardly daring to believe this is where tonight might go from here.
“ Mmmm . Extremely.” Her tongue licks up my throat.
A dark groan rumbles between us. “How are you even real?”
Ever the wild thing sent to torment me, Sage slides a hand down to my groin and cups my erection. “Has it been a while, hot stuff?”
Using her other hand, she keeps on playing with my stubble, dragging her fingernails over my jaw while squeezing my cock. Just to really send my brain flying somewhere up into the sky overhead, she pushes that luscious ass back against my hand.
“How about… it’s been never.” I swallow hastily.
“What?” Sage gasps in horror. “Oh, you poor baby.” Another firm grip of her palm has my stomach knotting with heat and desire and need.
“I—I don’t want to hurt you.” I dig my fingers into her flesh and admit the part I’m most hesitant about. Logically, I know plenty of people enjoy… this… while piercings are involved. But with my girl, the last thing I want to do is risk causing her pain in some way.
“You won’t. Lots of lube. We’ll take it slow.” Her mouth works a line along my jaw. Nipping and sucking on my overheated skin. “You gotta let me give you this.”
“Isn’t this usually the other way around? Pretty sure it’s normally the guy pleading and convincing the girl to give it a try.” My voice is gritty, coarse-edged with the effort of keeping a level head right now.
Sage’s tongue glides over her bottom lip and then leans forward to nibble mine with a sinful little noise.
“Well, luckily for you, I’m not like anyone else you’re gonna meet.”
No, she’s absolutely right there. No one is ever going to come close to matching this woman. There’s no one else except her, and it’s going to be the greatest challenge I’ll ever face to make sure our future looks like thousands more nights with her pressed up against me like this.
“We need my toys.” She sinks her teeth into that plush bottom lip.
My heart feels like it’s about the pump straight out of my chest. Somehow, I find a croaky answer for her. “Ok.”
“Probably that sexy as hell tub as well.” Her little hum is accompanied by rubbing me harder through my sweats.
“Do you want me to wear a condom or something?” My brain is in my dick while simultaneously still struggling to grasp where this is going.
“Always with those cowboy manners.” She giggles. “No. I know you’ll be gentle, and I want you to feel everything right there along with me.”
“Are you sure?” I’m battling to form actual words the more she keeps cupping and squeezing me and determinedly works me into a frenzy.
Sage finally gives my straining cock one last dose of attention, then brings both hands to cradle my jaw, kissing me deeply until both our breathing turns ragged. I feel like I’m floating when she pulls back and gives me a look that could have me handing over my entire soul within a second.
This incredible girl climbs off my lap, swipes up the bottle, and crooks a finger my way.
“You want this ass? You know where to find me.”
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I’m not sure there’s any force in this world powerful enough to prevent me from following my girl.
Standing just beside the outdoor tub, with only the stars and moonlight for company, along with the soft glow of warm light spilling from Sage’s cabin… I’m feeling nervous as all hell.
How is it that she can be so endlessly confident and sure of herself, and right now, I’m second-guessing every move?
Sage stops in front of me, a shimmer to her dark eyes, and has her hands full with items that are beyond anything I might have imagined. The curve gracing her lips is that same look she slayed me with the day on the sidewalk. Daring me to touch, goading me into her game, to see how far I’m willing to dance with her.
That day, I couldn’t do anything. I couldn’t dare step across that line.
Tonight, there’s no hesitation.
Reaching forward, I lift the enormous goddamn tentacle dildo from her hands and hold it up at eye level. Raising one brow, I watch her face split into a broader grin as she shrugs a shoulder innocently while standing there holding lube and another smaller cylinder-looking vibrator.
“Look, sometimes a girl just wants to be extra full. It’ll make it feel even better for you, too.”
“Christ.” The hand not holding the giant sex toy scrubs over my mouth. Sage tilts her head to one side, catches her bottom lip between her teeth, and waits for my brain to get up with the play. My cock is a steel fucking rod, and my thoughts are definitely stuck on the image she just painted of being extra full .
Working down a swallow, my mind finally blinks back online.
I reach for the rest of the items and set them all down beside the tub, quietly studying the way Sage’s chest rises and falls a little faster. Her nipples are hard points poking through the front of her shirt, and I drag a finger over the swell of her breast. She gives me the horniest little noise when I make contact with the tight bud and pinch down.
“The bullet vibe…” she murmurs. “Wanna get that warmed up for me? Setting three is like heaven in a teeny tiny vibrating package.”
There’s no need for a second invitation. I swipe it up, and as soon as the soft buzzing starts, a shudder takes hold of her body. I set about running it across her breasts, moving back and forth, until she’s clawing at my waistband.
“You need to be naked. Like, right this second.” She pants.
“Well… I need you soaked.” I drop my hand down and roam the vibrations over her covered pussy, while dipping my head to start kissing her neck.
Sage starts shoving at my pants, determined in her efforts to move things forward, and I chuckle as I suck down on her earlobe.
“These toys get you all riled up, hmm ?”
“You’d find out if you weren’t taking so goddamn long about it.” Her huffs at me are adorable.
“I already told you, I enjoy being able to take my time with you, baby.” I hook the hem of the t-shirt and drag it up over her head. Once she’s bare, I let the toy play over her budded nipples and drink down every whine of frustrated pleasure she gives in return.
Letting my attention move lower on her body, I crowd her backward to sit on the lip of the tub and get my mouth on her perfect tits. As I do, I rub the toy across the front of her panties. Sage is damn near vibrating herself as she clings to my neck and guides my head to keep sucking and teasing her breasts. My tongue glides over her nipples, swirling and flicking, and I allow my teeth to graze the pebbled, stiffened peaks.
“Want to get wet for me?” I draw her breast into my mouth and damn near groan at the way she sinks her nails into my nape.
“What I want is your dick deep inside me.” She tugs on my hair, then widens her knees as far as possible so I can hold the vibe tight against her core.
“That’s why they call you Sergeant , huh?” I tease, before helping her shift her weight and drag her drenched panties down, tossing them aside. “Gonna show me how demanding you are?”
She swings her legs over and climbs into the water, beautifully naked and oh so soft, hitting me with a flutter of her lashes over one shoulder as her smooth skin dips into the tub. “For that piercing of yours, cowboy? I’m always a good little slut.”
I quickly shove out of my sweats, preparing to clamber straight in after her, when Sage stops me. Kneeling by the edge, the position puts her right at eye level with my leaking dick. From behind that seductive little look she gives me and that position on her knees, I already know she’s got plans forming.
“Let me suck you.” Sage reaches to take the toy out of my fist, and holy shit, I feel a bolt of heat zap along my spine. Since the night in the back of my truck, my girl has been eager to play with my piercing at every opportunity, and well, who the fuck am I to tell her no? Goddamn, her mouth is incredible, and she seems to get off on this just as much as I do.
Her plush lips wrap around me, and I let out a groan as she flattens her tongue to run a wet glide along the underside of my length. As she teases me, lapping and dragging her mouth right back to the tip, she reaches forward to run the vibe gently over my balls.
“Jesus. Baby, you’re trying to kill me.” I stroke her hair and jerk with the intensity of the sensation before I feel her shoving that hand forward the same moment she works my tip. Her tongue slowly pushes my piercing back and forth while encouraging me to widen my stance. The second I follow her silent command, I feel it. Her fingers and the vibrations rub over that stretch of hot, smooth skin behind my balls.
“ Ffffuck , baby.” My cock throbs in her mouth, and I stifle a rough noise in the back of my throat. “That’s too good. Keep that up and you’re gonna make me lose it too quick.”
Sage peers up at me from beneath those thick lashes, hitting me with a mischievous glint in her eyes that tells me she’d definitely do her worst to make me blow right here and now if only she wasn’t so determined to fuck long into the night.
Her tongue laps to flick my piercing one final time, then lets me go on a wet pop. A trail of saliva hangs between her lips and the barbell, which I reach down to swipe with a thumb.
“You’re trouble.” My pulse races as fast as my blood is damn well heating the longer we play this game.
“I think you kinda like my trouble.”
“I do,” I murmur, letting my thumb drag her bottom lip down, utterly caught by how fucking stunning she is. Especially like this, with water lapping at her waist and the moonlight glinting off the rippling surface. The droplets covering her arms look like tiny shimmering stars coating her brown skin.
Sage remains kneeling, but shifts to a spot just beside the table where her other toy waits. Showing off the arch of her spine as she does so.
“You want it like this?” I climb into the tub and position myself behind her, immediately dropping my mouth to kiss a heated trail along the slope of her shoulder. Handing over the bullet vibe, Sage doesn’t waste any time, taking it from my grasp and reaching down to shove one hand between her thighs, she uses it to start circling over her clit.
“God, yes.” Relief coats her voice when the sensations her body has been waiting for start to take hold.
My hands are so damn desperate for her. Roaming to wrap around from behind, I glide gentle palms up her stomach, squeezing her breasts, then pinching her nipples. Each second I get to explore her body feels like another opportunity to memorize every single thing about my girl. Every slight shiver, each response is stored away, even though I can’t be certain that I’ll have enough time to learn every single touch her body craves.
With one hand cupping her breast, I reach between us and fist my cock so that I notch at her entrance, but that’s where I pause. As much as I’m consumed with the need to simply push forward and drive inside her body, I hold it, allowing just the barbell and swollen head of me to stay there.
Sage immediately tries to fuck herself back onto me, and I hum with satisfaction, my lips brushing over her ear.
“Need more?” While continuing to torture her tits, I get lost in the way her pussy keeps squeezing just the sensitive head of my dick. In an effort to latch onto every whine and agonized moan she gives me in return, I keep kissing her neck.
“Do you want just the tip?”
“More. I want more.”
“You want all of me, trouble?”
“Fuck you. Yes, please.” Sage pants. “ I do .”
“Such good manners.” I let my teeth graze the side of her throat, and she’s so unbelievably wet and slippery. “Since you look so pretty when you come…” This time I slip my way inside, and she’s like a silky glove as my cock pushes forward on a slick glide. Fuck my entire life, Sage detonates before I’ve even fully sunk to the hilt.
I simply hold there, buried deep in her pussy, while my hands stroke and tug on her nipples. Teasing in exactly the way I know drives her out of her head with how sensitive her breasts are after she comes. “Fuck, I love how you squeeze me like the tightest fist. My dick just wants to live inside your cunt, pretty girl.”
“Beau.” Her walls keep rippling around me. “Don’t make me wait.”
“Oh, you’re desperate for that monster cock, hmm ?”
She whines and lets her head drop forward between her shoulders. “I want to feel you.”
“You’re the sexiest goddamn thing.” This time I slip out and reach for the massive fucking tentacle. Sliding the length through her arousal, I make sure to rub back and forth a little before wedging it inside her, inch by inch, as Sage moans and bucks into my hold.
“Oh god. Yes. Keep going. More. Push a little further.” Sage whimpers with a series of demands, letting me know exactly what she needs. Each time she does, it sends a thud straight to my balls, hearing her be vocal about how I can best go about making this perfect for her.
“Stay like that… keep working that needy clit, baby.” I kiss her shoulder and reach for the lube this time. Drizzling a generous amount over her ass, the moment I start to spread it around, she immediately pushes back on me.
“Play a little bit first. Your fingers will feel so good.” She gasps as I stroke over her hole, and Jesus, my hands can’t stop kneading, squeezing, grabbing to spread her wide, knowing her pussy is already full.
We’re both desperate as I slowly work over her nerve endings and carefully press forward with one finger until I feel her muscles relax allowing me inside.
“Is that ok?” I stay like that, gently toying with her and already feeling how goddamn tightly she’s going to grip me. “Fuck, you gotta tell me if it’s too much, ok?”
“I’m fine—it’s perfect.” Sage’s words are breathy and pleading.
I gradually build up to adding a second finger and have to squeeze my dick with my other hand to settle down because she’s clenching around me so damn hard. That toy filling her channel makes everything so much more intense, and I can tell by the way her body shudders she’s building toward another release.
“Please. Please. I need you—I need—” Sage’s begging morphs into a cry of pleasure as she falls apart, and I feel every wave as her muscles ripple through her orgasm and then relax even further. Her grip intensifies on my fingers as I sink two fingers up to the knuckle and nearly fucking lose it in anticipation when her ass clenches around me, and her moans keep fluttering softly into the night.
“Christ, you’re so beautiful. You feel incredible.” I croon in her ear as I ease my hand away, and know this next part is gonna ruin me. She’s destroyed everything I thought I knew about myself and put me back together with her fire and spark and passion.
God, how could I not want to give this girl anything but the entire fucking world?
I quickly lube myself up and shift my weight forward. The water sloshes around us and adds to the sensation playing over every nerve ending as I guide my tip against her ass.
“Tell me if you need to stop.” I stroke her skin and wait a moment because I don’t even know if Sage is back in her body yet.
But she nods and gives me a dreamy little glance, looking back at me over her shoulder. “Just take it nice and slow.” She moves back against me. “Since you love going slow, hot stuff.” Those long eyelashes drop to form a hooded gaze over her flushed cheeks.
I grip my cock and push against her, taking my time to ease forward until I feel the tip and my piercing slip inside and nearly choke with how unbelievably tight she is.
“Goddamn, you’re gonna squeeze me to death. Relax for me.” My girl makes a soft little noise, and I can feel the vibrations playing through the water and her body as she keeps using the bullet. She bears down ever so lightly, and I press a little further forward.
The more I gradually, ever so slowly, fight my way inside, the more I nearly fucking die. She’s the hottest, tightest furnace wrapped around me, and she was goddamn right. I can feel the toy stuffed inside her pussy, and I don’t know how long I’m gonna last like this.
Sage moans and shivers beneath me, keeping the vibe working over her clit. It’s all I can do to grit my teeth and curse softly as we keep slowly moving together, allowing me to sink forward a tiny fraction at a time.
“Baby, you feel so fucking good.” I try to remember to talk to her, to check in. “You’re gripping me so hard. Just ease back for me.” I’m damn near done for. I’ve never experienced anything like this, and Sage trembles with beautiful noises, letting me know exactly how good it feels for her.
My grip against her soft flesh tightens, bruising her hips, but the more I do it, the louder Sage gets, and the more she pushes against me, begging.
With a long groan and panting breaths, my hips sink forward to meet hers. My length pulses as I’m finally there, fully seated inside her, and a roaring fills my ears. I’m barely hanging on, my brain hardly functioning when all I can think of is how hot her tight little hole is. And Sage is a vision, a limp-boned, blissed-out thing of beauty beneath me.
Leaning over her back, I tilt her head to let me kiss her, to take her mouth until she sobs into me.
“Beau… fuck me… let me feel you.” Her murmured words are ragged, just like my own breathing. And she outright pleads for me to move.
I slowly slide back, then carefully shift my hips forward, and all I can do is drink down every clench and shudder and whimpering sound of pleasure beneath me.
We shift together, and the heat and slickness and intensity of how full she is—how the ridges and ripples of that fat toy rub against me through her inner wall—it all leaves me spun out of my head.
My dick thickens. My balls ache with a desperate, coiled desire to unload into her.
“I can’t hold it, baby. You’re so tight. I’m so close.” With each measured thrust forward, that pressure continues to build at the base of my spine.
“Please. Oh fuck. I need you.” My girl lets out a shuddering moan, and her body starts to convulse as her orgasm sweeps through. Every wave, long and undulating, is heaven as she contracts and clamps down around me.
“Christ, baby. That’s it. God fucking damn. Unghhh .” I pulse my hips with shallow thrusts forward until I lose all rhythm, and the blinding sensation hooks in place right there behind my eyes as my climax bursts, so heated and slick between us. I’m gasping for breath as my length keeps throbbing, and cum pumps in thick spurts, filling and marking her while branding me all at the same time.
“Oh god. Ffffuck . I can feel it. I feel you .” She sobs out the words before slumping beneath me, and I fumble to take the vibe out of her grasp. Turning it off and tossing it aside, I then band her against my front. My dick feels like it’s being wrapped inside the tightest fist and squeezed relentlessly.
My mouth is everywhere I can reach, kissing every inch of damp skin possible to trace with my lips. I’m pretty sure I tell her I’m obsessed with her. That I can’t lose her. I don’t even know what I’m saying.
Keeping myself seated inside her, I reach down to slip the dildo out gently. My girl trembles at the feeling, and I ease it from her body as slowly as I can.
“I just want it to be me and you, baby. I need it to just be the two of us.” I nibble over her ear and neck and hang on tight to her softness, holding her fiercely against my chest.
There’s a raging torrent, a flood of confessions I want to whisper in her ear. A dam strains to hold back the words, waiting to explode beneath the weight of my need to let her know exactly what she means to me.
I’m so overwhelmed by it all, so compelled to tell her how I feel. Except, that’s the most irrational thing I could do. A confession drenched in sex, shared during the aftermath of a mind-altering climax? This beautiful creature would undoubtedly laugh in my face and roll her eyes.
If I’m going to share anything so deeply important with her, it’s not going to be in the heat of the moment. Certainly not as a direct result of this being the first time I’ve experienced anything even approaching this level of intimacy and trust before.
Sage doesn’t need me to unload a waterfall of emotions, to complicate this more than it already is. Anything my foolish damn heart wants to shout from the rooftops has to stay locked away.
My girl just needs me to hold her and take care of her.
That’s what she needs. So that’s what I give over.
Along with my entire goddamn heart, in secret.