Chapter 11
Levi
Did he even know what he wanted to ask?
“Hmm…I need to be bribed first, then I’ll answer.” My unexpected response had him jerking before he huffed and glared at me like a pissed-off little Chipmunk. “I’m waiting.”
Willing to play along, he made a thinking sound and kissed my cheek.
“That’s good enough for a short answer…I don’t do random hookups or anything like that. Personal preference, not judging too much.”
He snorted.
“Okay, I don’t judge out loud and I’m not as much of a pain in the ass as that religious guy I dated last year.” He was an odd duck and I could only take so many lectures about weird shit. “I keep my judging to myself.”
Teddy rolled his eyes but didn’t call me an ass…he could keep his judging to himself too, mostly. “I think I need a longer answer.”
Yep.
I shrugged.
“I need a better bribe first.” And it might be the only way to get him back to the limits conversation without him hiding again. “So, we’re both wanting things we might not get.”
I got nothing but sound effects for a couple of long moments, but eventually he stopped being a wiggly drama queen. “Are you green on being grown-up kissed?”
Yes, but was he still a grown-up?
His habit of shifting into little mode when he got stressed was going to be interesting in the long run.
“Yes, I’m going to be very green about getting any and all kisses from you.” Might as well make that very clear to both sides of him. “They’re always good bribes too but sometimes I’m going to need more grown-up kisses than others, depending on what you want.”
His cheeks got pink again but he didn’t hide against me.
No, he was adorably curious and was going to get a satisfactory answer even if it gave him a heart attack or the wiggles.
Oh, that kiss.
He looked half little as he inched closer and slowly brushed his lips against mine, but his moan as we finally kissed was pure grown-up. Just the touch of them together had a shiver racing through him and he let out a pleased sigh when I opened my lips for him.
Chipmunk liked kissing.
Once he crossed that line, it was like being little for him and he threw himself into it, nibbling and licking and rocking against me. He quickly proved he was just as hard as I was and his moans got sexier as he rode me like a champ, even with our clothes still in place.
When he finally pulled back, he looked thoroughly kissed with a confused expression on his face. “That…”
“Was a very good bribe.” And since he didn’t seem to mind my hands on his ass, I kept them there as another bonus bribe. “I technically did stuff with the guys I took lessons from but no penetrative intercourse and just enough impact play on myself to confirm that I don’t like it.”
Teddy blinked a few times but the only thing that actually came out wasn’t nearly as interesting as it should’ve been. “I’m glad you understand that, as long as it wasn’t too traumatic.”
I could see the wheels in his head turning and had to laugh when he leaned in and gave me another quick peck as a bribe.
“It wasn’t.” Kisses meant better answers, so I kept going as I massaged his ass. “They’re both good with people and make you feel comfortable with talking about anything. I just don’t have enough of a sub side to find enjoyment in it, but I don’t have a strong negative reaction toward it.”
I just couldn’t get off on it so there was no reason to keep exploring those things on myself. “So I did enough practice to understand physically how things like floggers and paddles feel, but I don’t have that spark that some people have that shifts it to sexual pleasure.”
“I hadn’t really thought about how a Dom would figure that kind of stuff out.
” Teddy seemed more relaxed with this part of the conversation and his nervous wiggling stopped.
“I guess I just assumed people figured that shit out with one of their partners but both people being uneducated might be dangerous.”
So he wasn’t jealous?
“I had no desire to even accidentally hurt my future partner, but I’m going to reiterate, I did not have sex with that couple and I do not see them as past partners in any way.
” How did he see the situation? “But like I said, the club isn’t some place I go to do scenes with strangers or even look for dates, that’s just not me. ”
More wheels went round and around, but he didn’t make me wait for long.
“So I think you’re saying that it’s not something that you need if it makes me uncomfortable, but I think you’re getting ready to approach keeping the membership for the…
for the educational options?” When he didn’t look like he was going to shake me or tell me it was cheating, I nodded more confidently.
“Yes, it’s something we can talk about as far as limits go, but I like having…backup grown-ups to ask questions to and to get education from if the situation warrants.” When I got to the point where I thought I’d made myself clear, I waited to see how he would respond.
Thoughtfully.
It seemed like a good sign, so I kept caressing him and did my best to look relaxed as he considered what I’d said.
“What kind of education would make you want to go back?” Blinking a few times, he frowned. “That didn’t come out right…can you give me an example of what that might look like?”
“Sure.” That was a reasonable request. “I don’t know how to tie you up safely beyond simple cuffs and basic restraints.
We went over positioning and I know how to keep your joints safe, but I don’t know detailed things like Shibari.
If that was something you wanted us to explore down the road, I’d need someone to teach me how to do it. ”
“I don’t think YouTube tutorials are for stuff like that.” The words seemed to come out before he thought about it, making him chuckle. “Someone’s probably tried, though.”
“Yes, they have and it’s really not a good idea…at least I think it’s dangerous to learn that way.” I was on the more severe end of being careful with that kind of stuff, though, so I might not be absolutely correct about the safety issues.
But no matter how safe that was, I needed to learn things through seeing and interacting with it at the same time, so that was going to require live people and not a video.
“Okay, I think that makes sense.” Still processing, he studied me again for a moment. “Is it an acceptable limit to say that I’d like you to tell me if you’re going back before you go? Like we talk about when and where and why kind of stuff first?”
“Yes, but it would also be a reasonable limit to say that I don’t go without you.
” He seemed surprised by that, so I tried to explain it from my point of view.
“If I don’t want you kissing other guys, I think it’s reasonable for you to not want me seeing men in interesting situations like that without you. ”
It wasn’t a strip club or anything like that, but there would be men in various stages of undress and sexual scenes being displayed.
“Oh.” My Chipmunk had to think about that, but it didn’t take long. “I didn’t want to be overbearing, but yes, I’d rather I go with you if that’s something you need to do for education or for exploring different…topics.”
He was adorable.
“Kinks and fetishes and topics like that?” His pink cheeks were back, so I gave one a quick peck as he huffed at me. “There are a lot of interesting things out there that we might want to understand, but yes, we go there together if I go back.”
He seemed relieved enough to have that out of the way that I got another quick kiss. “Not a bribe, but just…”
Shrugging, Teddy looked more at ease. “I like kissing you.”
“I like any and all kisses, bribes or not.” I wasn’t going to discourage him from bribing me, though. “But I’m going to take that one as a bribe anyway because I think you’d like more information on the random people comment.”
Teddy didn’t deny being curious about my background, but he was careful. “Only if you’re comfortable sharing.”
My nosy cutie.
“If I’m not comfortable sharing, I should be keeping my hands off your ass until we’re at that point.” Communication before ass grabbing should be a reasonable limit for any couple. “I’m both, though, so we’re not going to worry.”
His quiet giggle was just distracting enough that it made my imagination try going in a different direction, but I stayed on track.
“The relationships I’ve had were on the more vanilla end of the spectrum and that made it difficult.
I drove them crazy being naturally more controlling and we couldn’t get on the same page with even the most basic limits conversations… even truly nonsexual stuff.”
So most of the relationships had faded fairly quickly.
“I kept the Dom stuff to myself for the most part because I wasn’t going to explain that to someone I knew would judge me negatively for it…and well…I was right about that part.” Teddy winced, and I started telling the story before he could explain I didn’t have to.
I did.
“My mother pushed me to go out with Pallen and at the time it wasn’t worth arguing with her.
I was trying to keep the peace and just survive until I graduated with my bachelor’s.
” Bad decision. “I figured it would be a natural transition so getting some space from them at that point wouldn’t be a big blow up. ”
That hadn’t worked as planned and Teddy’s scrunched-up face said he was sympathetic about that.
“He’s a dick but it felt like there was something nicer under the surface, so we dated longer than I would have otherwise.
” Sometimes I still felt like there was a real person under his facade but I wasn’t going to worry about it.
“I got too comfortable and one night, after we’d been hanging out for a while, he asked if I’d ever been curious about anything kinky…
so I told him about the Dom stuff and hinted around the Daddy side. ”