Chapter 28 #3
How low was her barometer when doesn’t traumatize me was the marking of an okay partner?
No wonder she didn’t know what to do with Luca. Sarah genuinely loved her, didn’t she? She had been so selfish! Putting Luca through so much… because of how messed up she was…
While Sarah didn’t cry, she did berate herself for focusing so much on herself when she should have focused on the darling woman willing to go through so much for her.
They had met while she was at her lowest, and Luca hadn’t been frightened away.
If anything, she had pursued Sarah until she finally reclaimed her senses that said dating wasn’t such a terrible thing that would cost some sanity.
What had Sarah done to make her feel better? Nothing. Because she was a mess.
She was willing to tell Luca that when she came back, naked and freshly washed.
She had swapped out the strap-on for another one.
The only reason Sarah could tell was because the color was different, and when Luca put it back on, one long leg at a time, while her breasts slightly shook and her stomach wrinkled, Sarah was enthralled.
Whatever Luca’s reasons for showering were, they had nothing to do with not wanting to share intimacy with the woman she proclaimed to love.
“Lu…”
She climbed onto the bed, untying Sarah’s hands and giving both a kiss. “I’m sorry. I needed to sort some of my thoughts out.”
“Hopefully nothing too terrible.”
Luca loomed over her, smelling so good that Sarah was instantly lulled into a strong sense of comfort.
How is it possible for someone to make me feel this good after so long?
She slipped easily into Luca’s embrace, feeling so much better that it was no wonder they started kissing the moment they both fell back to the bed.
“I was thinking about how badly we need to make love.”
“Like this?”
“Like this, Angel. I gave you what you wanted. Now give me what I want.”
“What’s that?”
Luca parted her legs with heavy thighs. “All of you.”
No way did she mean Sarah’s body. She wanted her heart, her mind, and that wounded soul desperate for love.
Sarah was crazy enough to give them to her right now.
“I love you.” Luca said that the moment she entered her. I had already forgotten how nice she feels there. Sarah was so wet and relaxed that Luca could do whatever she wanted to her. “I love you so much that I don’t care who knows it or what it does to my life.”
Sarah kissed her back with such vigor that she barely noticed the way Luca rocked into her.
It wasn’t hurried. It wasn’t desperate. It wasn’t anything like they had experienced when Sarah begged her to use her like so many had used Angel.
Except it was different. She loved me. She never hurt me.
I knew coming out on the other side that she would still be here, wanting to do this with me.
This was raw, intense, and full of need, but it wasn’t anything like the toxic bullshit Sarah suffered with because she didn’t think she deserved any better.
“I…” Her heart was with Luca’s as they made love. Such bliss was foreign to her traumatized brain, but she didn’t care. She would embrace it for the first time in her life.
If only she could say what she knew she now felt.
“It’s okay.” Luca tucked her arms beneath Sarah, lifting her torso and enticing her to wrap both arms tightly around her shoulders.
The intimacy exploding between them was unlike anything Sarah had ever felt in her entire life.
She knew what it was like to love unconditionally.
She loved her mother and her brother unconditionally.
Hell, she had a cat growing up that she loved unconditionally.
She didn’t doubt she would love her children unconditionally.
But this whole loving someone with every fiber of her being thing? Parts of her couldn’t stand it.
Other parts of her were so…
Were so…
“Yes.” Her nails pressed into Luca’s skin every time she thrust into her. While they still made love at a sensual, steady pace, there was renewed desperation to it that claimed them both at the same time. “Yes!”
Sarah was ready to climax again. Yet unlike the orgasms she experienced earlier, this one was destined to crack open her embittered heart and make her feel all sorts of unfortunate emotions again.
And many fortunate ones.
Luca was going to come with her. She knew it like she knew she was beyond the point of no return – sexually, and emotionally.
“Lu…” Her words were smothered by the next kiss. Why? Why did she have to cut her off like that? Didn’t she know that Sarah was on the verge of a breakthrough?
She broke off the kiss the moment she began to come. Skin rubbed against hers. That body overtook hers, pushing, surging, insisting that Sarah raise her hips and meet her rabid thrusts. Sarah cried out. Everything inside of her was nothing but gushing adoration.
“I love you!”
Those words fell so effortlessly from her mouth seconds before she blacked out from orgasm.
She almost didn’t feel Luca on top of her, sharing the intimacy that had held her back their whole relationship.