Chapter Nineteen
My heart is racing a million miles a minute in my chest. I can barely breathe.
Tonight was going so well. I was having such a great time. Then Troy had to step in and ruin it yet again.
He is always ruining things for me. Has been since I met him. I used to make excuses for him, but not anymore.
I really don’t care that they are beating him to a pulp. Hell, I think Hudson might want to kill him.
That’s not why I want them to stop. I need them to stop.
The panic rises in my chest.
“Please don’t. Stop. Don’t hurt him anymore.”
Walker and Hudson aren’t paying me any mind anymore. They are whispering to each other. Then, as if in a coordinated attack, they begin to throw punches at him.
“No. Stop,” I cry, Levi holding me around the waist to stop me from getting any closer. “Levi, tell them to stop.”
“I can’t. This is our job. We protect you at all costs.”
I shake my head, tears streaming down my face. “You can’t.”
I hear a crunch, and that has me losing it.
“Stop it. Now. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop!” I scream.
That’s enough to get their attention. Hudson and Walker look over at me, blood coating their fists as Levi holds me tighter.
“Tell me, Angel. Why do you want us to stop? Do you have feelings for him still? It’s okay if you do. We can love him right out of you,” Levi promises.
I shake my head. “I don’t love him. I don’t care about him at all. You can’t keep beating him, though.”
“Darlin’.” Hudson looks apologetic. “This is what we do. If we don’t send a message, we look weak. You are ours to protect. We cannot let this go.”
I swallow on a sob, knowing it might already be too late. He will tell his father, and they will go to jail.
“His father is a cop. I don’t want to lose you.”
Understanding flashes in Hudson’s eyes. He was worried, like Levi, that I still wanted Troy. I guess it is still early in our relationship, but I thought I was showing them that I was all in. I need to do better. They do everything they can to reassure me, but I haven’t done that as much for them.
I’ll change that as soon as we leave here.
“Darlin’, I won’t be leaving you anytime soon,” Hudson says as he leaves Walker with Troy to come to stand in front of me.
He goes to caress my cheek, but winces when he sees the blood. I don’t care about it, though, as I try to lean into him.
“No. Nothing of his will touch you again,” he tells me.
I swear my heart melts in my chest. I must be fucked up to find that endearing. Here they are ready to beat my ex to death, and I’m falling deeper for each and every one of them. I’m a fucking wreck, but I want them.
Pushing up on my toes, I wrap my arms around his neck as Levi holds my hips.
“Kiss me,” I demand.
He doesn’t hesitate. He steps into me, pressing me back against Levi as he kisses me deeply. He doesn’t give me a peck and back away. No, he slips his tongue into my mouth, making love to me with it as if to tell me I’m his. I give it back just as passionately, almost forgetting where we are.
When he finally pulls back and presses his forehead to mine, I tell him, “I don’t care about him, but I can’t survive without any of you. Don’t leave me.”
He rubs his cheek against mine. “Never. I’ll never leave you.”
“None of us will,” Levi says, pressing his cheek against my other one.
I take a deep breath before I look over Hudson’s shoulder to Walker.
He’s still holding Troy up as Troy slumps against the wall. He looks like a bloody mess. He moans slightly, but otherwise keeps his mouth shut.
I give Walker a small nod. They can do what they need to do. I will trust them. I have to.
Walker looks warily at me for a moment before his resolve hardens. He turns to Troy, picking his head up. I see the wicked grin right before he delivers one last blow to Troy’s face.
“Pretty boy is a copper’s son, huh?” Walker muses. “I think you should call your father. Tell him all about this. Then ask him about the Devil’s Den and see if he is willing to take us on. In fact, how about I do you a solid? I’ll let him know where to find his piece of shit son.”
Walker lets go of Troy, watching as he falls to the ground. Then he pulls out his phone, dialing a number.
“Yeah, I think your son got a little lost. Thought he could claim what is ours. I left him behind Hangover. Might want to come get him and teach him some manners.”
Walker hangs up before stalking over to me. He leans over Hudson’s shoulder, pressing a kiss to my lips.
“I’m going to wash my hands, then we can go,” he mumbles at me.
I nod.
Hudson backs away, following Walker inside as Levi walks me down the alley and around to the front of the bar where the bikes are parked.
“Let’s get you dressed.” Levi winks at me, helping me back into the pair of riding pants they bought for me.
I love that they thought about it. Knowing I would want to be in a dress and bringing something to protect my legs on the ride. Levi helps me into the leather jacket I wore here as well before placing my helmet on my head.
I smile up at him as he does the strap before pushing my visor down. I push it back up and smile up at him.
“I trust you guys. I have some scars, though. I’m sorry you had to see them tonight.”
He grips my helmet, pulling me until his forehead rests against it.
“Never apologize for that. We want all of you, scars and all. I told you, we would have loved you through it even if you still loved him. I have to admit, I liked hearing that you were worried for us though, even if it was unnecessary.”
“Well, I’m glad one of us enjoyed that,” I mumble.
He shakes his head. “We didn’t enjoy that, Angel. No one disrespects you. Ever. I don’t give a fuck who they are or what they used to be to you. You are our woman. We will always defend you.”
I smile up at him. “I want to forget all of that. Take me home?”
He smiles. “Whatever you want.”
The ride back was a tense one. Esme rode with Hudson, claiming she needed to be close to him. I didn’t mind, though. I’m too on edge to be gentle for her. I need to kill something. Or fuck it.
We walk through the door to our suite, Esme at my side.
I want to stay and spend time with her, but I’m volatile right now. I have all of this pent-up energy that needs somewhere to go.
Leaning down, I press a hard kiss to her lips before I stalk off to my bedroom.
I hear her ask what is wrong with me, but I don’t wait for the answer.
I shut my door and start to strip down.
Levi doesn’t disappoint me. Within minutes, he steps into the room, shutting the door as he removes his own clothes.
I grab the lube, knowing there is no going slow right now.
I wanted to kill that man. To bathe in his blood, but for her, I didn’t.
I pulled back the reins of my anger so I wouldn’t scare her.
Now all that anger needs to go somewhere. Unfortunately for Levi, he’s going to take a pounding. Not that he won’t find pleasure in it too, but I can’t be gentle right now.
Levi walks over to me. “Where do you want me?”
I point at the large dresser with the mirror attached to the back. It’s something I bought with hopes to fuck my girl over it one day, but I find myself fucking Levi over it more often.
He bends without question, pushing his ass out at me.
I lube up my fingers and press into his ass with them to prep him.
As angry as I am, I would never want to hurt him like that.
Once I’m sure he’s ready, I slather my cock up before positioning myself at his entrance.
Thrusting inside in one go, I hear him groan.
“Fuck, Walker,” he hisses.
I don’t apologize. I give him a second to adjust before I set a punishing pace. I grab his hips, pistoning my cock into him, giving him everything I have. He pushes back against me, telling me that he’s liking it too.
That’s the positive of fucking your best buddy.
He can take the roughness that you really want to give.
That’s not to say I won’t fuck Esme hard.
I plan to leave bruises on her body for her to remember me by when we are done, but I could never fuck her like I do Levi. I would worry I would break her.
Levi can take it, though. He moans out my name as I grit my teeth.
“Oh my god.” I hear a gasp from the door.
I look up in the mirror to see Esme standing there, Hudson at her back, his hand on her hips.
I want to ask why he brought her in here. She has no idea about this side of me and Levi. What if it turns her off?
“I told you he was okay, darlin’. He needs to burn off some energy. Levi is always willing to offer a helping hand,” Hudson tells her.
I keep my eyes on her as I continue to fuck Levi. Her head falls back onto Hudson’s shoulder.
“Esme,” Levi moans out.
I look down at him in the mirror and see his eyes also on Esme. I look back to her, but she doesn’t look disgusted.
She looks turned on.
“Do you like that? Watching them fuck? Look how Levi takes his cock so perfectly. Are you imagining that it’s you? Do you want Walker to fuck your ass?” Hudson says loud enough for us all to hear.
I groan at the thought. I want to fuck her ass, her pussy, her mouth. Fuck, I would take any part of her.
“Yes,” she lets out breathlessly.
Fuck.
That soft little sound has me remembering how good she tasted on my tongue.
“Watch them. Tell them how much you like it,” Hudson says as his hands slip under her dress, the pants she wore here already gone.
“It’s so hot.” She meets my eyes in the mirror.
I grunt, my rhythm jerking at the words.
“Good. She’s wet for you both. She is enjoying the show. Should I take care of our girl?” Hudson asks.
“Yes,” Levi growls out.
I only grunt.
“See, they like watching you too. Are you going to come for them?” Hudson asks.
She is withering against him now.
“More,” she begs him.
He gives her what she asks for, his hand moving faster.
The only sounds in the room are the slapping of skin from me fucking Levi and the soft little moans Esme lets out. Hudson continues to whisper in her ear, but they don’t reach mine.
When she finally comes, I nearly lose it. I’m not ready for this to be over yet. I want her to come again and again.
I don’t get my wish, though. Instead, I get something almost as good.
Esme turns to Hudson and drops to her knees.
“Are you going to suck me off, darlin’?”
She nods, taking him into her mouth. She wastes no time, sucking him as if it is an Olympic sport and she’s going for gold.
“Oh, fuck. I’m going to come,” Hudson hisses, his hand caressing her face.
She doesn’t slow down. Reaching around Levi, I start to stroke his cock as I find my release inside of him. Seconds later, he leaves a splatter of cum against my dresser while Hudson calls out.
When I pull out of Levi, I turn and stalk over to Esme. I pull her to her feet before kissing her deeply. I can taste Hudson on her tongue, but I don’t care.
I don’t say a word, but I stare into her eyes as my forehead meets hers.
I can see the reflection in her eyes.
Words aren’t necessary when you feel the same thing.
Love.
It might be too soon for some, but I’m sure.
I love this girl.