Chapter 18 #2
WHAT THE HELL
YOU’RE TELLING ME she mentions dancing with Devon but WE NEVER SAW IT????
THE SHOWRUNNERS ARE BIASED
THIS IS SILVERSMITH SLANDER
NOOOO THEY CUT AWAY TO DAXYS. I mean. I know, plot, more important, etc., but!!!! We could have had them DANCING TOGETHER! I needed an entire episode just for the ball!
@runicrascal
I am just catching up on all of this but wow. Wow. Someone’s deeply invested…
@mythicwitch
Someone’s deeply upset and stunned rn that’s for sure
Also, hi. It’s been a while x
@runicrascal
Okay, you finish the episode (there can’t be very long left), I’ll catch up on the 87 messages you’ve sent about it, and then we’ll talk
Also, hi back
I’m a mess. A puddle. Jelly. Totally wrecked.
My whole body is buzzing with adrenaline from the excitement and immediate letdown of the masquerade ball, and it spikes my heart rate all over again when I finally get a response in the Discord—and a promise to talk.
I don’t know if I’m relieved or nervous or what. I also don’t know if my heightened emotions are more down to the show or the chat.
I don’t bother pausing to try and puzzle it out, because there’s only sixteen minutes left in the episode—in the season—and it feels like way too many character arcs and plotlines to try to contend with in such little time.
And no offense to Jake, but if he’s kept me waiting for him to feel like talking for almost two weeks, he can bloody well wait another sixteen minutes for me to focus on something else. Something I only even started watching because of him.
I’m not surprised when, sixteen minutes later, the finale ends and leaves me feeling irked and unsatisfied, and eager to dive straight into the start of season four—which only aired last year and is the most recent.
But season four will have to wait.
@runicrascal
Wow okay so you had a LOT of feelings about s3 haha (and yes, Daxys being persuaded back to the royal guard was…a lot. A moment for Roach getting arrested and sacrificing himself for the rest of the Rascals though! That’s a GREAT scene)
@mythicwitch
A Silversmith dance >>> Roach’s moral quandary, pls
@runicrascal
Haha
It’s a shame we didn’t end up having a watch party for this one
@mythicwitch
Yeah…Where’ve you been lately? You’ve been quiet
@runicrascal
So have you
You never messaged last week, and after Comic Con I thought
Well you just seemed kind of off, when we left
I figured you weren’t very interested in talking much
@mythicwitch
I figured YOU weren’t very interested in talking much
@mythicwitch
To tell you the truth I thought *you* were off with me after Comic Con. I don’t know. Maybe that was all in my head lol. I’m sorry if I did something to upset you, though, and made you feel like I didn’t want to talk
@runicrascal
How come you didn’t end up wearing the costume?
@mythicwitch
Is that what this is about?
@runicrascal
It’s just a question
@runicrascal
You seemed really excited about it. I could tell you were lying when you said it “didn’t work out”
@mythicwitch
The honest truth? No judgment?
@runicrascal
Rascal’s honor
@mythicwitch
I don’t know that I can be the kind of person who makes being a fan of something their whole personality. Or at least, shows so much of it, so openly. It just felt really weird, and I feel icky saying that, and I’m not trying to dunk on the people who do cosplay
@mythicwitch
But it’s still…niche? Weird? Generally very very very far outside of my comfort zone
@mythicwitch
I know that sounds really silly because, if anything, I should be cool with cosplaying so that I fit in better. I basically do that anyway with my friends, matching my style to theirs and trying to just do what everyone else is doing so that I “belong” or whatever, but…
@mythicwitch
Sorry, I think I accidentally turned this into a therapy session. The short answer is, I was too much of a coward to be seen in public like that
@runicrascal
Putting on my best, most amateur therapist hat, sounds like you spend a hell of a lot of time worrying about what other people think
@mythicwitch
Don’t you?
@runicrascal
Why should I?
@mythicwitch
Doesn’t it…I don’t know, narrow the pool for finding friends? Generally make you less respected by others? Make you kind of an outcast? Not YOU personally, obviously, but…in general
@runicrascal
Who cares? If someone’s going to write me off or disown me as a friend for liking something different than them, or wanting to spend my free time doing something they don’t care about, they’re not worth my friendship anyway.
I don’t want to surround myself with people who are going to make my life smaller just so I can say I fit in
@runicrascal
I like the things I like, I have friends who matter to me, and, frankly, idgaf what anyone else thinks of that
Even if sometimes that does make me…defensive
@mythicwitch
Defensive?
@runicrascal
Sometimes I can be on my guard when I think someone’s trying to belittle the stuff I’m into.
Like with OWAR. I know people think it’s just “some stupid fantasy series” but it’s not, it’s so much more than that.
It’s finding characters you relate to and people you connect with and new perspectives. New inspiration for artwork…
@mythicwitch
Yeah, I’m starting to understand that now
So is that why you’ve been off with me? You thought I was belittling your love of OWAR?
@runicrascal
The 87 messages I missed earlier would suggest I was wrong. I’m sorry
@mythicwitch
I’m sorry, too. It’s been sort of an adjustment for me to try to move from “some stupid fantasy series” to “this is becoming part of my personality”
@runicrascal
Truce?
@mythicwitch
Truce!
@runicrascal
And I saw you’ve tracked down another irl OWAR friend! Anissa?
@mythicwitch
Yes! She clocked my Téiglin fanart in class haha
@runicrascal
What’re you working on now?
@mythicwitch sent 3 photos
@runicrascal
Holy shit. That’s AMAZING. Cerys, that’s really beautiful
@mythicwitch
Thanks! I’m really proud of this one. Also, peep the dandelions near the bottom left…Some may say they’re “just dandy” ;)
@runicrascal
Oh, God
…It’s me, I’m some.
Very dandy though haha
So aside from you making new fandom friends and creating magickal artwork, what else have I missed? Things still rough with your parents?
@mythicwitch
UGH don’t even go there. Feels like any day they’re going to turn around and tell me the divorce is off, and I’m dreading it.
I think I almost preferred it when they were fighting compared to this weird truce they’ve got going on…
At least I knew where I stood then. Thanks for asking though, I appreciate it Kinda needed someone to talk to about it lately.
But we can get back to that later lol. How about you?
@runicrascal
Ugh, the usual. Bogged down with coursework, stressing about uni applications and exams even though they’re still ages off. We’re doing well in the local league for soccer though, so that’s something! Got another match on Sunday
@mythicwitch
Oh, good luck!
@runicrascal
Should be a good one!
Worried about my dad. He’s been really focused on me getting into a good uni and stuff, but I think once I’m actually gone, he’s going to find the whole empty nest thing really tough.
My sister was meant to be coming home soon for reading week but she said she might just stay there with some friends, and he was pretty upset
@mythicwitch
Oh no! That must be hard for him—and stressful for you
@runicrascal
Eh, could be worse. Preaching to the choir here
@mythicwitch
Haha, don’t I know it
I’m glad we’re talking again I missed these chats x
@runicrascal
Me too, Cerys x