18. Tanner
TANNER
ABOUT THREE YEARS AGO
Fallon and Otto are having a baby. I knew it’d happen eventually, but sometimes I feel like I haven’t had enough time to get used to her being married to someone else.
Even writing that seems ridiculous but it’s true.
Briggs and Otto delivered the news and I couldn’t wrap my head around being so genuinely excited for them and so lost.
And then Otto shocked the hell out of me.
He gave me a shirt that says Bonus Dad-ish because they want me to be as much a part of the baby’s life as I want to be. It was humbling and I love that they want to include me—and I know it’s not just for Briggs’s sake. And I love babies so I’m excited they want me involved.
But now I have to wonder if I’m always going to be the pseudo uncle.
Is that my role now? Lord knows I’m not ready to date anyone let alone create a new family.
What if I never find someone? Briggs will grow up and have his own life and I’ll be the reliable babysitter while everyone else is on their date nights.
Maybe it won’t be so bad.
Or maybe I’ve used up my chance at happiness.
Right now, I just pray it’s not the latter.