Chapter 41
Circling the Wagons
Harper
I need to put a closed for repairs sign around my neck for these guys. I’m definitely sore now. Jack holds my hand as we leave the bathroom. Luke leads the way, giving me a little buffer. I don’t want to meet anyone’s eyes so I stare at the floor.
I can’t handle the knowing looks. The whispered words behind hands. The interested looks from guys.
My face is probably bright red as we walk back to our table and gather our things.
Seriously, how do other girls do this?
Do they come out of the bathroom to some victory music with their fists in the air, taking bows? No one else seems to have used the bathrooms for hookups since we got here. At least I don’t think they have.
Maybe by the next time we come here, I’ll care less about what people think of me. Maybe I’ll hold my hand up for high fives. After all, I just got laid. Snickering, I put my laptop into my bag.
If anyone thought after this weekend’s parties I’d given in, this little study trip definitely provides more gossip fodder. Fuck, I’m one of those girls Kenz and I always talked about on Monday mornings. How long before someone whispers to their friend I lost my virginity to all the horsemen?
Nico slides my bag off my shoulder and throws it over his. His arm wraps around my waist, tugging me into his warmth. I lean my head against his side, grateful to have somewhere to hide as we walk outside.
I can’t even look at Penny’s table and I don’t hear them saying goodbye.
They know this is the deal, right? That I’m nothing more than a pet to the horsemen? To be used whenever they see fit? That’s what it feels like right now. But earlier I was in control, and fuck did it feel good.
Maybe I need some time to figure out what I want from this situation and how I can get it on my terms.
“Where to next?” Nico asks as we head to the back of the lot where we parked. He tosses my bag in the backseat of his car. No one complains about him claiming me for the ride home.
“I need to go home for a while. Have dinner with my mom.” I need time to decompress, to think through everything that’s happened. I’ve spent the whole weekend with them. Fucked all of them. A couple of them twice.
I need a break and time to think.
Caden nods and steps forward. “Come here, little nympho.”
I step toward him hesitantly, but he draws me into his arms and presses my cheek to his chest as he hugs me. His heartbeat is steady under my ear. After a second, I relax into his hug. He really gives the best hugs.
“Behave.” He kisses the top of my head and releases me.
When Caden steps back, Jack takes me into his arms. He rubs his hand down my back before letting me go with a smile. Eli kisses the side of my head before wrapping his arms around me.
“Rest up, kitten.” His voice is low next to my ear and sends a shiver of desire through me.
When Eli walks to his car, I glance at Luke. His light blue eyes search mine. I definitely should have expected him to fuck me. It was almost a challenge after Eli did. Luke wasn’t as rough as I thought he might be.
“Your mom works tonight?” He tips up my chin, forcing me to look him in the eyes. They aren’t icy anymore when he looks at me. They’re like the inner flame on a candle. Intensely hot enough to melt through anything.
“Yes.” It’s also a school night, which means I’ll be sleeping alone.
“Do you want us to come over?” His thumb sweeps over my jaw, sending tiny butterflies soaring through me. My insides soften.
Do I want them? Yes. Do I need a break? Also yes. “I can call Kenz and see if she can stay tonight.”
He nods before pulling me into him. I wrap my arms around his waist and give him a squeeze. He’s still awkward as hell about hugs, but he’ll get better with time. When he releases me, he heads to his car.
Sighing, I watch them all get into their cars. Nico grabs my hand and reels me into his side. I smile up at him. Punishment isn’t really a thing with Nico yet. I mean, yes, he’s taken part in my punishment, but I kind of liked that kind of punishment.
“Come on, sunshine, let’s get you home.”
As soon as I’m in his car, I get my phone out and text Kenz.
Me:
Can you hang out?
Kenz:
OMG yes! I need to hear updates lady
Me:
Be home in fifteen
Kenz:
See you soon
I set my phone on my lap and glance out the window at the houses rushing by.
“Your friend?” Nico asks.
I look at my phone screen and smile. “Yeah.”
I lean my head back on the headrest and study Nico’s features. I can still see the little boy I used to know, but the softness is gone. Masculinity and sharp angles define his features. He’s really fucking gorgeous.
“Do I have something on my face?” He rubs his chin before he glances my way.
I shake my head. “No, just trying to reconcile my best friend growing up to you.”
This weekend has been so different than I thought it would be. Nico surprised me. First by being here. Second by being a horseman. Third…
Fuck, the way he held me against the shower wall and fucked me. I squeeze my thighs together as the memory brings back the aching need. It seems impossible I want more.
“Are you okay with everything that happened?” Nico turns his car onto my block.
“I don’t know yet.” I look down at my phone. “Basically I opened the door and let the horsemen take over my life. They allowed me to hold back my virginity until I was ready. Do you think I gave in too soon? Made the wrong move?”
I lift my gaze as he pulls into my driveway and parks the car.
He leans back against the headrest, and his gaze locks on mine. “This isn’t a chess match, Harper. There are no wrong moves. Only what feels right to you in the moment.”
He reaches over and takes my hand in his, threading our fingers together. Warmth spreads through me like a warm cup of hot cocoa. A rush of sparks dance from his hand to mine.
“Do you regret it?” His dark eyes search mine.
“No.” The word comes out of me without even having to think about it. I don’t regret a moment, but I can’t help but worry… My insides twist a little. “You aren’t mad I didn’t choose you first, are you?”
He smiles as he traces patterns on the back of my hand. “I could never be mad at you, sunshine. You have your reasons I’m sure and you don’t have to tell them to me if you don’t want to. Honestly I worried I’d be jealous of the others taking you.”
“Are you?” I straighten. I didn’t even think of that. He said he came back for me. He didn’t know who I’d be when he got here. Probably didn’t expect me to be a virgin. Definitely didn’t expect me to fuck other guys in front of him.
“Watching them fuck you was hot.” His darkened eyes lift to mine. “You took your pleasure from each of them. You took your pleasure from me.”
My heartbeat cranks up a notch, and I wish we weren’t sitting outside my house. Somewhere a little more private would be nice. I can’t believe I want more after today.
“I think I understand your reasoning for choosing Caden.” He slides his seat back and undoes my seatbelt and his own. My pulse throbs a little harder as he tugs on my hand.
“You do?” I climb over the console and straddle his lap.
He cups my jaw and brings my forehead down to rest against his. “You like Caden. The others all have their merits, and so do I, but there’s something genuine about the way Caden watches you. I’m just glad you didn’t choose Luke. He’s a possessive fucker.”
“Yeah, I like Caden,” I admit. I rub my nose against Nico’s as I brush my lips over his. Tingles float through me. “But I like you too.”
His hand cradles the back of my head, and he smiles softly. “I like you too, sunshine. As long as they take care of you, I’m all in. Watching Jack fuck you while you sucked Caden’s cock almost made me come right there.”
I arch an eyebrow and grind down on his growing erection. “Yeah? You enjoy watching me fuck other guys?”
“I can’t wait to take you with someone.” His thumb pulls down on my lip, and I flick my tongue out to lick it. He groans. “Watching you take someone’s cock into your mouth, while I fuck your tight pussy…” He shifts his cock in his pants. “Fuck, sunshine, you’re getting me all worked up.”
He’s not the only one getting worked up. I capture his lips, tasting the caramel coffee he drank, sliding my tongue against his. I grind down on his hard length, rubbing it against my pussy, flooding my body with heat.
His hand tugs me back by my hair. Our eyes lock as we catch our breath.
“When we get you used to anal…” His hand slides up my leg, and he presses his thumb against my clit through my jeans, rubbing against me.
“Tell me, Nico.” Resting my forehead against his, I roll my hips against his hand, chasing the sparks and pleasure. It feels so fucking good.
“Eli can fuck your pussy while I fuck your ass, filling you so full of our cocks you can’t help but come all over us.” Nico’s eyes lock with mine. He unbuttons my pants and draws done the zipper. “You could even take a third in your mouth.”
I glance toward the house. It’s still early. Mom shouldn’t be up for another hour.
His hand slides beneath my panties and over my pussy. “So fucking warm and wet.”
I reach between us for his athletic pants, sliding beneath the elastic waistband and into his boxers, finding his hot, hard cock. When he slips his fingers inside my pussy, my lips part on a breath.
Stroking his cock, I glance around quickly again to make sure no one can see us before I claim his mouth. He fucks his finger in and out of my pussy, rubbing his thumb over my clit. Winding me up as our tongues slide against each other.
He pulls away to watch our hands. “I get why Eli and Luke fucked you at the coffee shop.”
I bite down on my lip as I glance at the house. His tinted windows make it difficult for anyone to see us from the street. His fingers feel good, but now I know his cock feels better. My jeans make this so awkward.
“I definitely need to wear more skirts,” I whisper against his lips as we pant together.
“If you wear more skirts, you won’t get any breaks, sunshine.” He curls his fingers inside me and presses down on my clit.
“Nico,” I cry out and ride his hand through my climax. I tremble when he draws his fingers out of me and holds them against my lips.
“Suck them like you want to suck my cock, sunshine.”
Holding his gaze, I take his fingers into my mouth as far as they’ll go, licking and sucking. My hand works his cock between our legs. He groans low, and his cock jerks in my grip as he spills his cum over my hand.
Pulling his fingers from my mouth, I bring my hand with his cum up to lick it clean. His eyes flare hot.
“Fuck, Harper.” He grabs my neck and crashes our mouths together. His tongue sweeps through my mouth, tasting me and him mixed.
When we come up for air, he smiles. “I can’t wait to get you alone more often.”
“I thought you wanted to watch the others fuck me?” I raise an eyebrow as I fix my pants.
He grabs some tissues and finishes cleaning himself. He opens the door to let me climb out. Following me, he backs me against the car and claims another kiss, stirring the lust all over again.
I break away and laugh. “This is going to be bad if I’m as insatiable as a guy.”
He rubs my lower lip and smirks. “That might come in handy, since you have to keep five guys happy.”
Groaning, I rest my forehead against his chest. “I’m so going to end up knocked up.”
“No, you won’t.” Nico kisses my head and steps away to grab my backpack. “Need me to walk you in?”
I bite my lip. His eyes darken and fall to my mouth. I could bring him up to my room and have his cock buried deep inside me again. My pussy throbs. “That would definitely be a bad idea.”
He catches the back of my neck and draws me in for another lingering kiss. I press against him as I give him everything I have to give in that kiss. When he lifts his head, he brushes my hair behind my ear.
“You need me, I’m here, sunshine.” He kisses my forehead and then smacks my ass.
“Hey!”
He smirks. “Just keeping it real, Harper. See you soon.”
I stand there with a dopey smile on my face and my backpack over my shoulder. His engine roars to life, and he pulls out of the driveway. Fuck, I could feel something real for Nico. This year could be dangerous.
I take a deep breath. I could end up in love.