Chapter 15
Audrey
The embarrassment lingered, even if Theo had said all the right things to appease me. Sniffles kept returning if I let myself think about the fact Quentin, some girl, and my mom had made plans to have dinner and never once thought to tell me or ask me. She asked for money yesterday. Was the money I worked my butt off for used for dinner with Quentin and some girl? Hell, if my mom said she wanted to take us out to dinner as a family, I would’ve gladly paid for it.
I would’ve loved that. I missed our family dinners so much. We used to have them every Sunday before our dad got sick, and we hadn’t had one since he died.
The absolute betrayal felt like a knife to the stomach. I did so much for both of them all the time. Bills, using my own money, my time getting Quentin to places so my mom could rest… all of it for what? My family to forget me? To use me like a bank?
I rested my head against the window just as Theo opened his door holding to-go boxes. This man…he was too good to be true, and I knew it. This wouldn’t last, but to have his attention and care on me was unlike anything I had ever experienced. The dinner smelled amazing, and I didn’t have to pretend to smile. “Thank you for doing this. Seriously.”
“Of course.” He set the boxes down by my feet and started the truck. “You’ll be proud to know that I did not, in fact, punch your brother or say anything to your mom. I walked by then, ignored Quentin’s jab, and walked straight to you.”
“Quentin’s jab?”
“Auds, do not ask me to talk about your brother.” He pulled onto the main street and shot me a look. “So, where do you want to go?”
“Is it bad I just want to go to my dorm?”
“Not at all. To your dorm, it is.”
It wasn’t a far drive, and Theo spoke about nonsense but was still entertaining. He moved the conversation away from heavy things like my family or hockey or his mom, so the drive felt like two minutes before we were walking toward my dorm with carryout boxes.
“Have you ever had a date like this before? Dressed like a model but about to eat on a ten-dollar carpet from Walmart?”
“I can’t say I have, but that doesn’t mean this isn’t awesome.” He held the door for me as I opened the main doors and led us to my room. I got my key and let us in, suddenly aware how small my dorm was.
Last time he was here, he saw me in my bra.
Last time I was near a bed, he watched me experience my first orgasm.
My skin prickled with heat and excitement as Theo took off his jacket, undid the top button of his shirt, and rolled up his sleeves. The movement was hot. Distracting. My thighs rubbed together, and my lips parted as his thick forearm muscles bulged with every movement. Everything about Theo was so sexy to me, which was dangerous.
Nothing in my life lasted, so I knew this wouldn’t, but that harsh reality didn’t prevent me from enjoying him, from dreaming about another life with him.
“You okay?” he asked, his brows furrowed.
“Oh. Yeah. You’re just… hot.”
He grinned wide. “Oh. I mistook your face for worry, but you were checking me out?”
I nodded, and he swiped his tongue over the side of his mouth. His gaze moved from face to my collarbone, over my chest and down to the slit of my leg. “You’re fucking stunning. Doesn’t matter if we’re in a dorm, outside, or in a fancy restaurant, you look perfect.”
My breathing grew heavier as I fought a blush. The same overwhelming and distracting heat rattled through my core. It was almost uncomfortable how hot and tight my body was, desperate for a release now that it knew the feeling. I swallowed and stared at Theo’s chest, the small portion that was exposed.
“You hungry? Want to eat?” Theo asked, his voice huskier than normal.
“I’m not hungry for our food.” I didn’t mean to say that. It was so forward of me, and I wasn’t forward. I had no experience to practice. But I wasn’t lying. The thought of eating food was the furthest from my mind. I wanted to ease this heat, to forget about the restaurant, and enjoy the limited time I had with Theo. Because it was temporary. I was fully, totally aware of that.
“Do you mean dessert? Cause, Auds, the way you’re looking at me right now… I want to be a gentleman with you.” He moved the boxes of food to my desk and faced me, his hands in his pockets and one leg crossed over the other.
This man was dangerously attractive.
“I want to feel you.” My voice came out just above a whisper.
“Fuck.” He ran a hand over his face. “I had this whole plan with you, you know? I was gonna take you for a walk after dinner, look at stars, then ask to kiss you slowly. It was gonna be romantic as hell.”
“Sounds like it would’ve been, yeah. Well done.” I stepped toward him, and he did the same. My room was too small for the both of us, and I was thankful when Theo’s one step brought him to me.
“All I’ve thought about is kissing you, but I really would be a dick if I didn’t offer to talk. Do you want to talk about what happened tonight, why it hurt? It would feel good to get it off your chest, and I’m a great listener. I’ll keep my hands to myself the entire time. I’ll offer my shoulder to cry on.”
I shook my head, letting my gaze take all of Theo Sanders in. He was better to look at, to think about than what happened. I knew why tonight transpired as it did, even though the reality of it killed me. It was like a breakup with people who I loved. That tether snapped. I’d worry about it tomorrow, preferred that actually. I had this gorgeous man standing in my dorm room, looking like sin and orgasms, and I was the new Audrey. This Audrey asked for wild things. She voiced what she wanted instead of being in the background. The new Audrey would’ve confronted her only two living family members and demanded an explanation instead of hiding out back in pure agony.
I liked this newer version of myself.
It was thrilling.
“Kiss me, Theo, please.”
“Mm.” He smiled and ran his fingers over the slit of my dress, teasing the fabric and causing goose bumps to explode all over my body. He ran one finger up my side, teasing the side of my breast, before grabbing my chin and tilting my face up. “Be more specific, baby, because there’s a lot of places I want to kiss right now.”
“Oh my.” I panted as Theo gently grabbed my hip and walked us back to my bed. He nudged me onto my back, his face right over mine, before he kissed my jawline. My eyes about fluttered to the back of my head. “Oh, wow.”
“I’m just kissing your neck right now. Is this what you meant?”
I clutched at his sides, needing to grab something to prevent myself from thrashing around. My nipples were so tight from the fabric continually brushing over them. Theo’s thick torso felt like a brick, all toned muscles, and I wanted to bite into him. “More,” I begged, not quite sure for what.
He sucked one earlobe into his mouth, and my hips arched off the bed. The wetness from his tongue, the slight sting from his teeth, holy shit. Moisture pooled between my legs, and I needed him to touch me there, or I’d burst into flames. It was just true facts.
“Or did you mean right there?” He kissed my collarbone, sucking the skin a beat before dropping lower to the center of my chest. “You have this mole right here.” He licked the upper part of my left breast. “I’m obsessed with it. I’ve stared at it every time you weren’t looking. Fuck, baby, your tits are driving me wild. Can I feel or kiss them?”
“Kiss?” I foolishly said, my mind not quite working right. The feel of his hard body on top of mine combined with his cologne and kissing my neck, and I was overheated. A mere whisper of his lips on me sent me into hyperdrive.
He lowered onto his knees and cupped my breasts with both hands. “Fuuuuck, baby.” He pushed them together before dropping his head and licking between them. “You’re a dream. I’m such a tit man, Audrey, and yours are… fuck… I’m gonna be obsessed with them. They feel amazing. Can I see them before I taste?”
“See?” Okay, I had to stop repeating his words like a question, but did he want me to take off my whole dress? I wasn’t… “See them?”
His blue eyes were simmering with lust, and he audibly swallowed before asking, “Do I have your permission?”
Did he? Of course, he did. He made me feel like nothing else mattered, and it was addicting. “Yes, Theo.”
He growled in approval. Without undoing any part of my dress, he took my breasts out of the dress so they were right there, in his face. My hard nipples were an inch from his mouth as Theo stared with a slack jaw.
His pupils were dilated, his lips wet as he met my gaze for a beat. “Fucking perfect. Tell me what feels good, okay? Do you like this?”
He pinched each nipple lightly, and I let out a very unattractive groan. Chuckling, he did it again. “As I learn your body, I want concrete answers, alright? Your body might react to my touch, but that doesn’t mean you like it. So please be direct.”
“I like it.” I clutched the sheets this time, his hair and chest too far away. He kept pinching and tickling my nipples, and the heat worsened. “I’m… it’s…”
Then he placed his warm mouth over the bud and sucked and holy shit. I bucked off the bed. “Theo!”
“Mm, yeah, you like this.” He switched between both, sucking lightly, then hard as he continually kneaded the other. Every touch sent a hurricane of sensations to my core, and it wasn’t humanly possible to experience pleasure this fast.
“I’m… I’m…”
“What about this?” He released a nipple and blew his breath over the tip, the contrasting cold to the warmth of his mouth causing trembles throughout my body. “Or this?”
He swirled his tongue around my areola and flicked the beaded point, and heat exploded like a bolt of lightning from my nipples to my pussy. It was like there was an electric current threading between them, and my breath caught in my throat.
“Mm, are you close to coming?” He stared at me with a hint of a smile, his eyes wild and a few shades darker than I was used to. “I really want to watch you fall apart again.”
“I think so,” I whined, grinding my hips against the air in a desperate attempt to feel something. “I just need…” I begged, gripping the sheets so hard they came off the bed.
He hummed against my breasts before leaning back to a crouch. His hands landed on the tops of my thighs. “Do you need me to help you?”
“Y-yes.” The fire was roaring, but the anticipation of orgasming again was painful. It was close, yet not there. The few times I had tried in the past ended like this. “Touch me, Theo. I beg you.”
A low, satisfied rumble escaped his chest as he slid my dress up to my hips. He breathed in deep before grazing his thumb over my panties. The slight pressure was enough for me to arch up again, my pussy a magnet pulled in by him. “Audrey Hawthorne begging me. Never thought I’d see this, but damn, I am a huge fan.”
“Shut up,” I said, snorting before it turned into a moan. He moved the fabric to the side so my pussy was bare to him. Nothing between us now. He slid his fingers through my wet lips, lingering on my clit as I slammed my head onto the bed. “No one… no one has ever touched me there before.”
“Fuck, Audrey.” He rested his forehead on my thigh and groaned. “You have no idea what those words do to me. That I’m the only one who gets to see your pretty pussy like this, dripping and waiting for me.”
I shuddered. “Oh my god.”
“Do you like this?” He swirled his thumb on my clit in a pattern, slow and consistent as the pressure built. Sweat beaded all along my body, and when Theo bit into my thigh, I came apart.
“Theo! Yes, oh my god!” Words flew out of my mouth, none of them making sense as I had the most explosive orgasm of my life. Heat blasted from my pussy to every limb, a magical prickle of pleasure hitting every nerve ending in my body. I forgot to breathe the pleasure was so strong, so after thirty seconds of bliss, I gasped for air.
“Breathe, baby. Breathe for me.”
His breath hit my face, and amusement laced his tone as I panted like I’d run a mile. The first few breaths helped me settle and gave me enough strength to open my eyes. Theo sat next to me on the bed, wearing a huge grin as he stared at me.
“You are exquisite.”
“Stop.” My face flooded with heat. “No, I’m not.”
“You are. You thrashed around the bed like a beautiful maniac. Your hair is everywhere, and I swear I can smell your arousal.”
“Theo, Jesus.” I snorted.
“No, it’s insanely hot. I’m debating if I should I lick my fingers right now or not.”
“Oh my god.” I covered my face with my hands. “You’re so crass.”
“Nah, horny as hell around you.” Using his other hand, he brushed my hair off my face and removed my fingers covering my eyes. “I seemed to have messed up yet again.”
“What?” I frowned. He had to leave. He had to go. He realized I was a dead end. I knew it would happen, but I didn’t think it would happen right now. “You have to go. I get it.”
He recoiled like I slapped him. “What? No. No. Why would you… Audrey.” He chuckled, but there was a little annoyance to it. “I love being around you. I don’t want to leave.”
“Oh.” My throat tightened with emotion. I felt silly for thinking he had to leave. Well, silly for voicing it. The thought wasn’t out of line. “I don’t want you to leave either.”
“Good, cause I’m not.” He grinned, this time kindness radiating from him. “I meant I messed up because I never got to kiss you how I planned.”
My nostrils flared as he cupped my face and stared at me like… like I mattered. He cared for me, sure, but the intensity of his eyes had no business giving me asinine thoughts like this.
He licked his lips and closed the distance between our mouths and then Theo kissed me. It was soft at first, his lips soft and wet and warm against mine. He tasted like mint, and it made my mouth tingle.
“Mm,” he groaned, cupping the back of my head as he moved to straddle me. I’d never, ever in my life, had someone straddle me with their body before, and oh shit.
I liked it. I liked his weight on me, the heat and hardness of his body. “Can, can I touch you too?” I asked between kisses.
“Baby, you can do whatever you want to me.” He played with my hair and tilted my neck back, deepening our kiss as he slid his tongue into my mouth. The minty tingles exploded around my tongue, and the taste, the smell, and the feel of him were too much.
He was perfect.
I never wanted to forget this moment, being the subject of his attention as he kissed me hard, then soft. Delicate, then firm. My vision danced with black spots when he pulled back and frowned. “Auds, breathe, baby.”
I gasped a second time that night. His eyes were heated but also worried as I took a few more breaths. “This is embarrassing.”
“Do you struggle with breathing? Is there something I should know, so I don’t… cause it?” An adorable wrinkle formed between his strong brows.
“No.” I fanned my face, refusing to look at him. “That kiss… it was nice. Made me forget to breathe.”
“Nice? Nah.” He pulled me up, so we were chest to chest, and he forced me to look at him. “It was fucking amazing. I need more.”
He kissed me again, nipping at my lip before he sucked the bottom one into his mouth. I had no idea how sensual a kiss could be, but after a few minutes of making out, I was on fire again. My lips hurt and stung from all the attention, but I didn’t care. I’d missed so many moments like this because of life, so I was gonna soak this all up while I could.
“I love kissing you,” I whispered, hating that I admitted something so dorky. “You probably kissed so many people but this?—”
“Never you though.” He kissed me again and hoisted me up onto his lap. “It feels different when you’re kissing someone who knows the real you.”
“And I… know the real you?” I asked, tense and aware that his hard erection dug into my ass as I sat on him.
He nodded and smiled; this time it was a gentle one. One that spoke of inside jokes. “You’ve met my family. You know my secrets. You’ve seen me freak out and knew how to help. So yes, honey, you know the real me. Don’t think for one second that you aren’t special to me, okay?”
I nodded but couldn’t respond. With us intertwined like this, with the look in his eyes and the way he took care of me, it gave me a glimmer of hope that we could do this. In the short time we’d known each other, he’d changed my life, and I wanted to selfishly hold onto this feeling of bliss. Even if I knew it was temporary, I’d take whatever Theo could give me. I sure as hell knew I’d never meet anyone like him again.