52. Naina
Chapter Fifty-Two
NAINA
I would do the fasting ritual for you.
From the movie?
Yes, I want you to live a long life.
I love you.
What was about it about spilling your trauma that made you raw, like a live wire?
I felt like if someone touched me or spoke to me too roughly, I was going to burst into tears.
I hadn’t lied to Kash when I said revealing our traumas wasn’t how I expected our night to go.
I wanted it to be playful, a night he remembered. A night he looked back on when he went on another first date after me, so he knew how he deserved to be treated.
And then I surprised myself when I told him I loved him. It hadn’t been my plan.
But something telling him my trauma and hearing him relieve my guilt made me think that I was doing both of us a disservice if I didn’t tell I was in love with him.
I never in a million years would have expected him to say it back.
I love you, Naina. With a desperation that rivals everything.
He loved me. He loved me!
Something brushed my hair, and I opened my eyes to see Kash sitting on the side of the bed. He was running his fingers through my hair and when he saw my eyes open, he smiled at me. Leaning down, he placed a kiss on my head.
“Good morning.”
“Good morning,” I mumbled. “Why are you dressed?”
He was wearing navy blue pants with a white shirt. No tie though, his gold skin peeking through the open collar.
“It’s a little past ten in the morning. I’ve been up for hours.”
I stretched, pulling the duvet over my head. We got back to the hotel a little past midnight. Did this man even sleep?
Usually, I would have been up early as well, but that when I couldn’t sleep.
Now that I was sleeping soundly, I didn’t want to wake up early and it wasn’t like I had any work to do.
“I ordered you breakfast,” Kash said. “I have meetings, but I’m taking them here.”
I lowered the duvet to just below my eyes.
“You’re going to spend the morning with me?”
“I am.”
I lowered the duvet further.
“Can you say it again?” I asked shyly.
Kash grinned. “I love you.”
A heart went aflutter. He looked at me expectantly.
“I love you, too.”
He smiled with satisfaction.
I scrambled out of bed and rushed into the bathroom to get ready. I wasn’t going to waste a single second of having Kash to myself.
I picked a pink sundress from the closet, completely backless with two strings holding the back together, and I twisted my hair, using a claw clip to hold it up.
Kash was sitting at the dining table, his laptop open in front of him, his tablet next to him as he took notes. He gave me a brief smile when I walked out, his eyes settling on my red lips.
I took the seat across from him, digging into my breakfast.
“Was the contract sent to our lawyers to review?” Kash spoke.
He had his wireless earphones in and I didn’t hear the person reply, only saw Kash’s frustration.
“No, I don’t trust Biederman, Ross, & Biel. Not after the debacle with the lawsuit. Get me Walsh.”
My food turned to ash in my mouth when Kash mentioned my former law firm.
I knew I had to tell him, and I had to do it before our relationship went any further. There never seemed like a good time to tell him because something was always happening.
To be honest, a part of me didn’t want to tell him because I didn’t want our love to turn to hate.
“Better yet, send the contact to me. I have a lawyer who can review it.”
He was looking right at me when he said that, and I shook my head rapidly. I didn’t want to review anything related to SFV. That would be a terrible, horrible thing for me to do.
“It is my wife and obviously, I trust her, or I wouldn’t have her review the contract.”
Just plunge the knife deeper, why don’t you? Maybe I should make him put his meeting on hold and telling him now?
His one meeting rolled over into another one, and whoever was on the other end got Kash really mad.
“You’re giving me excuses I didn’t ask for. All I want to know is if the project will be finished on time. It’s a simple yes or no answer. If you’re not capable of answering it, then find me someone who is, but stop wasting my time.”
Under the table, I crossed my legs, squeezing my thighs together. He was so hot when he was being bossy, how had I not noticed. As I watched him berate someone else, I felt sorry for the poor person. My husband needed to calm down.
Maybe I could help him out.
My napkin fell to the floor and pretending to reach for it, I slid out of my chair and crawled under the table towards him.
Kash stuttered when I reached for his belt.
“Sorry, poor connection. Hang on.”
I heard his keyboard click and he looked down at me, blue eyes questioning.
“What are you doing?”
“Me? It’s a mixture of payback, probably saving someone’s job, but mostly it’s you being unbelievably hot. Do you want me to stop?”
I unzipped his pants, arching a brow in question.
He gripped my chin, tilting my head up a little, his thumb caressing my bottom lip.
“I’ve been dreaming about fucking your mouth, having those red lips wrapped around my cock.”
“Good. Now, go back to your meeting and let me do my work.”
I palmed his cock through the cotton of his underwear, and he hissed. Reaching for his waistband, I pulled at it and he lifted his hips, helping me lower his pants and underwear.
His cock bobbed free, thick, hard, and intimidating, veins running up the side.
I’d seen it on screen, touched it before, and felt it inside me numerous times, but this was my first time getting up close and personal with it.
“Sorry about that, everything’s good now. Let’s proceed.”
Leaning forward, I licked him, root to tip, wrapping my mouth around his head and hollowing out my cheeks in a sucking motion. I tongued his slit, tasting his salty pre-cum.
From the corner of my eye, I saw Kash ball his hand into a fist.
Above me, I heard a crackling noise and then, “Great, as I was saying, the only hold up here is from finance.”
That wasn’t Kash’s voice.
I looked up, my eyes wide. Kash glanced down briefly, his mouth lifting into a smirk. Alright, I could play this game. Hell, he was playing this game because I liked it.
I swallowed him, taking him all the way to the back of my throat. What I couldn’t swallow, I wrapped my hand around.
I took my time with him, running my tongue up and around his shaft. Licking and sucking him like he was my favorite lollipop.
He was hot and heavy in my mouth.
The meeting continued above me. With my other hand, I cupped Kash’s balls, massaging them.
Kash coughed above me, and I popped off to catch my breath, running my hand up and down his shaft.
“Are you trying to kill me?”
I grinned, kissing the tip of his cock. Kash watched me with half-lidded eyes.
“Put it back in your mouth.”
I did, swallowing him a little deeper this time. Kash removed the clip from my hair, letting it fall around me.
But no, he fisted it in his hand, using it to guide me up and down his cock.
“Yes, just like that. You’re doing so good, baby.”
I pulled off again, tracing my tongue over the veins. Kash hissed, exhaling loudly.
Someone asked him a question and just as he started to answer, I put him back in my mouth, all the way to the back of my throat.
Kash’s voice faltered a little, and I would have grinned if my mouth wasn’t full.
“That wasn’t nice,” he said to me. I shifted my eyes to him and I hoped he got the message that I wasn’t playing to be nice. I massaged his balls again, tugging on them, hollowing out my cheeks.
“I’m going to come, baby. Swallow my come like a good girl.”
I eased off him a little, circling my tongue over his head before swallowing him all the way down.
His cock pulsed in my mouth as he came, biting of his groan, and I swallowed it all down, every last drop.
Kash sat back against the chair, trailing his hand over my head to my face and swiping his thumb across my bottom lip.
I slipped out from under the table and reached for a water bottle, cracking it open.
Kash watched me, his eyes heavy-lidded with lust, the blue completely gone.
“Naina, I need to fuck you, but I can’t leave this meeting.”
“What—”
I stood up, out of sight of the laptop.
I watched him hit a button on his laptop and he pushed it to the side of the table. There were faces on the screens I didn’t recognize, but Kash’s camera and audio was off.
He stood up.
“I love when you wear dresses because then I can do this.”
He grabbed my arm, pulling me towards him and pushing our bodies down on to the table, my skirt thrown up around my waist.
He slipped his hand up my thigh, pulling my panties down and off.
Next to me, the meeting continued, their voices filling the room and their faces filling the screen.
“Do you like that?” Kash whispered. “It’s almost like they can watch us. They can watch me sink my cock into you, watch how eager you are for it.”
He entered me in one swift thrust and I cried out, my back arching off the table.
“I will never get over how fucking wet you get for me,” he said. “Did you like sucking my cock? Is that what got you so wet.”
“Yes,” I hissed, as he thrust particularly hard. I reached down, gripping his hard ass to urge him deeper.
“Mr. Sutherland, is everything okay on your end?”
My eyes widened.
“Don’t make a noise. Those pretty sounds you make when I fuck you are just for me.”
He unmuted the meeting as he continued fucking me, his hips moving slowly, and I buried my face his neck, sinking my teeth into his skin.
He didn’t even falter as he told them to continue the meeting, that he was still there.
“Fuck, baby, are you going to mark me?”
“Kash, this is so depraved.”
His mouth brushed over mine. “Is that why your cunt is gripping my cock so tightly? Imagine if they knew how eager I was for your cunt. That I couldn’t even wait for the meeting to finish before I had to fuck you.”
My pussy clenched around him tightly.
“Naina?” There was a knock on the door.
“Fuck,” I breathed.
Kat was here. We were supposed to go for a picnic.
“Hello?” She knocked again.
“Faster, faster, Kash, please.”
Kash went faster, the table shifting beneath our weight, scraping across the floor. I buried my moan into his neck as he hit a particularly deep spot inside me.
“Anyone home?” Kat called.
“Do you like this, baby? Do you like knowing that if they could see us right now, they would know that you belong to me?”
I shook my head, looking him in the eyes.
“I like them knowing that you belong to me .”
“Fuck!” Kash growled.
He reached a hand between us, using two fingers to rub tight circles on my clit.
“Come for me and mark me as yours, then.”
I clamped around him painfully, my mouth opening in a silent scream as I came and came. Kash buried his groan into my neck as his cock pulsed inside me, filling me with his come.
He placed small kisses across my neck and chest and up to my lips, kissing my softly.
“I love you.”
“I love you, too,” I whispered.
There was a tentative knock on the door.
“Mr. Sutherland?” Grayson called.
I couldn’t help it, I burst out laughing.
“We’ll be right there,” Kash called, laughing along with me.
I was lying on my front on the picnic blanket, the sun warming my back. Next to me, Sami lounged with her e-reader, holding the leashes she had tied to Lucy and Jo.
The cats were surprisingly okay in their leashes. They were walking around our blanket, going as far as the leash allowed.
Kat was lying perpendicular to us, her head resting on the small of my back.
Grayson sat on a chair a few feet away.
Now seemed as good a time to tell them as any.
“I’m in love with Kash.”
Sami’s head whipped up from her e-reader and she lowered her sunglasses to look at me.
“What do you mean?”
“I told him I love him and he said it back.”
Sami squealed, falling over on top of me and hugging me tightly.
“I know I’m upset with him right now, but I’m so happy!”
Kat sat up, and I rolled over to sit up as well.
“What does it mean? Are you two a thing now?”
“Technically, yes. We are still married. But we didn’t really talk about the rest of it.”
There were so many things we needed to discuss. We only had a couple more days here and then we would be back in California.
I figured we could discuss everything then. Lay down our cards. Discussing our future with his family around would just cause everything to explode.
“I’m with Sami. I hate the guy, but I’m happy. I know he loves you,” Kat said.
“The Sutherlands are not going to be happy,” I said.
“That family wouldn’t know the meaning of happiness if it smacked them in the face.”
I laughed at that because Kat was probably right.
“See now, if I hadn’t wished for you to marry a billionaire, none of this would be happening,” Sami said.
Kat sighed, twisting her mouth to the side as she looked down at the blanket. Jo crawled into my lap.
“Just be careful, okay?” Kat said. “Being in love is great and all, but this is the Sutherlands. Their expectation will always be for Kash to marry someone like Leslie or Crystal.”
“I know that.”
I was well aware of that. It was the whole reason Kash and I got to this point.
Kat looked up at me, her eyes troubled.
“You’ve met Ava, and you’ve seen Diana. Do you see how different they are from one another? Vera’s father is apparently a retired police officer in San Diego. Her parents are divorced, and her mother married the perfect man to fit the Sutherland image. Kash’s grandfather was married twice as well, and his first wife became his mistress because she was pregnant with their child when they divorced. He gave money to raise the child, but not his name. Image is everything.”
Her words chilled me despite the warmth.
What was it that Kash’s father said in his speech?
Despite the obstacles thrown our way, we are standing in front of you because we aim for the best. For perfection. Nothing less will do.
I knew Kat had my best interest at heart. But I couldn’t pull back from Kash now, not now when I kept telling him I didn’t see Edward in him. Not when we said we loved each other.
I just had to trust my instincts and hope they didn’t lead me astray.