Chapter 48 Theo
Theo
Mercury,
I had a dream last night.
I saw two little boys running through the woods, happy and laughing. Eventually I realized it was because I was chasing them. They seemed familiar the closer I got, but I couldn’t see their faces.
Then I heard your voice. You called out to me. The boys turned around and I thought they were us, but they weren’t. They were different, but I knew them.
They were ours. The best parts of us.
I think I know why I dreamed of them. Yesterday was rough…
the hardest day I’ve had since coming here.
I’m not sure why, but I was hit with so much doubt, wondering if all this was actually worth it, if it was worth putting you through this just for the chance to be with me.
Wondering if I’d only let you down again.
Then I saw them and I remembered what I’m fighting for. Not just a life together, but a life with them…the family we could have. I never saw myself having kids before. It wasn’t even something I thought I wanted, but I think I do. I want it all with you, Dawson.
Everything we could possibly have in this life, I want to give you. A home. A family. A love that never ends.
A life worth living for.