Chapter 32
Luke
Sloan feels like a brick wall as he slams his body into mine but thankfully the bed is soft as it catches our weight.
The hardness of his muscles along my entire body feels like one of those weighted blankets and I feel myself give in to the pleasure of having him on top of me.
Having never done this, I was afraid I wouldn’t know what to do but it seems my body is already ahead of me.
My knees are opening on their own even as Sloan’s knees push them apart. My body yearns for him to invade me, to fill me in a way I’ve never experienced.
“Have you ever used a butt plug or a dildo or anything?” The question is valid but it makes me give a bark of nervous laughter.
“Can you really see me walking into a sex shop to make that purchase?”
He pulls his head back from my chest to respond. “You can buy that shit off you know.”
“Huh. I never thought about that.”
He rolls his hips into me, making my eyes close. “So that’s a no, then?”
I nod.
“Christ, Luke, I’m going to split you in fucking half.”
“I want you to.”
“You don’t understand. I’m not good at holding back.”
“I trust you can. For me.” I brush his curls out of his eyes.
He only wages war with himself for a second before he chokes out, “The lube. Where is it?”
“Black toiletry bag.”
He hops off the bed and I prop myself up on my elbow to admire him as he moves about the room. Once he has the bottle in hand, he’s back above me, popping the top.
“Are you nervous?” he asks, beginning to coat his fingers.
“Not really. I…well it’s…I love you. And I’ve loved you a long time even if I didn’t call it what it was.”
“I’ve loved you longer, Lucky.” His admission makes me sit up and pull his face to mine. Needing to kiss him and taste that love on his tongue. Finally, he pushes on my chest to get me to lie back down, his fingers now fully coated in the clear gel.
Bracing himself on his forearm, he leans down to kiss me and my entire body tenses when his lubed finger rims my ass. Okay, maybe I’m a little nervous.
He pushes in slowly, watching my face for any sign of discomfort. It burns a little, but not too bad.
“How does that feel?” The strain in his voice makes my dick throb, the vein along my shaft rising angrily.
“Like I want more.”
He slips his index finger out only to push back in with two fingers this time. It’s enough that I have to reach up and grab his wrist to slow him down.
“Give me a second.”
“Fuck, Luke, you’re so tight, I’m gonna blow my load before I’m even all the way inside you.” Everything spasms at Sloan’s words. “You’re gonna have to relax baby. I’m so fucking hard there’s no way I’m getting in like this.”
There it is again. Baby. I’m a grown ass man. An officer in the United States Army for fuck’s sake. I’ve been shot. I’ve watched men die. And I’m fucking melting because another man called me baby.
Not just another man. Sloan Alexander called me baby. He wants to own me and I’m going to let him.
I relax and allow his fingers to slide in further.
“That’s it. Let me in,” he coos. All of a sudden, he strikes something deep inside that has me gasping. He smiles and strokes again with his fingers. “Your prostate. You’re going to come so hard you’ll blackout.”
“Please.” I’m so turned on, I acclimate to the pressure and quickly want more. Need more.
I feel him slip his fingers out of me again and reel at the loss of contact, but he returns with three fingers this time.
“If you can handle this, I’ll know you’re ready.”
Wanting to prove I can handle it, I roll my hips up, trying to give him better access and relax. I’m rewarded with a wicked smile.
“Eager to have my dick inside you, Luke?”
“Yes,” I breathe, trying to pump myself on his fingers. Wanting more. Faster. Deeper.
“Alright. If something hurts, you tell me to stop, got it?”
“Yes. Please, just fuck me already.”
“Fuck I’ve waited a long time to hear you say those words. But I also kind of like watching you beg,” he taunts, sitting between my legs, taking his dick in his own hand, and stroking slowly. He’s driving me insane with need.
“I’m prepared to wrestle you to the ground and impale myself on your cock if that’s what it takes.”
“That sounds like a helluva lot of fun. For your first time though, we need to be careful.”
“Sloan, I swear to God, if you don’t fuck me in the next— Ahh…” He notches the tip of his dick in my ass.
“You were saying?”
“Fuuuuck.” He stills, waiting for me to adjust as I shift my hips trying to get comfortable. “Christ, your cock is huge.”
“It’s nothing you can’t handle. Breathe.”
I try to do as he says but he keeps inching forward stealing every breath I attempt to take.
His hands splay across my hips as he flexes his own hips sharply, making me grunt. “Shit, sorry. God, you feel so fucking good. Two, maybe three pumps and I’m a goner, Lucky.”
Leaving his left hand on my hip, he spits in his right palm and starts jerking me off even as he continues to invade my body.
I feel useless as I watch him do all the work, but fuck if it isn’t the hottest thing I’ve ever seen.
No sex with a woman has ever made me feel this way.
I fist the sheets next to me, not wanting to grab on to him and interrupt his rhythm.
“I’m right there with you,” I pant. As if his hand on my dick wasn’t enough, he’s finally seated all the way in my ass, brushing my prostate with each roll of his hips.
“Fuck, I love you.” I don’t even mean to say it out loud, it just tumbles out like a truth that cannot, and will not, be silenced any longer.
His breathing increases, his chest rising and falling, telling me he’s almost there.
“Say it again,” he demands, his hips picking up speed as they piston forward and back.
“I love you.”
“I’m about to fill your fucking ass with my cum, Luke. That makes you mine. Do you understand? There is no more running from this.”
“Yes…please…Oh…fuck…Sloan…” One syllable words and grunts are all I can offer as the most intense orgasm of my life rips through me, firing my abs, almost folding me in half.
Sensations I have never felt in my life roll through me as I connect with him in this way, feeling every drop pulse out of him.
A reel of all the moments — good and bad — that have led up to this, plays in my head.
Sloan’s fingers dig more firmly into my hips as he finishes spilling himself inside me, holding me flush against his skin. I can easily tell he’s trying hard to show restraint so he doesn’t hurt me and my heart swells even more.
Finally, he comes to a stop.
“I’m going to pull out nice and slow, okay?”
“Mmhmm.” I only wince a little as he leaves my body. My eyes drift close but I feel him plant his forearms on either side of me and lean forward.
“You did good. How do you feel?” His praise shoots me like Cupid’s fucking arrow.
Running my fingers through his hair, I smile. “Like I’m finally where I’m supposed to be.”
Sloan kisses me firmly and begins to get off the bed. “I’ll start the shower.”
Embarrassed, I quickly grab his wrist and reply. “I, um, I’m not ready to wash you away just yet.”
His smile reaches his eyes and lights up his face.
“I could get used to that.” He smirks. “I would love nothing more than to play every concert knowing you’re backstage or back in the hotel with my cum spilling out of you.”
He begins to get off the bed again. “At least let me grab a washcloth. That’s going to go from sexy love liquid to a sticky fucking mess really fast.”
“Sexy love liquid?” I repeat, unable to keep from laughing. “Besides, I can manage grabbing a washcloth,” I chuckle.
“I know you can but I’m going to.”
My head drops back onto the pillow and I stare at the ceiling while Sloan runs the water in the bathroom.
How in the fuck did I get here?
The answer flies into me. Hailey and Grant brought you together.
Suddenly, I feel like the biggest asshole, the worst human, and the shittiest friend on the planet. While I cost Sloan the loves of his life, they both helped push he and I together.
I have to tell him everything when he gets home.
I’ll show him the note. I’m terrified I’ll lose him, but I have no choice.
This is my penance, and if I have to find out what it’s like to lose my career and the love of my life just like Grant did, well, his decision to not pull that cord makes a helluva lot more sense now.