Maddox Flashback to Juvie #2
‘Holy fuck! Where did all of that come from? I can’t just walk over there and jump him in the middle of the hallway, but damn if I don’t wanna do just that,’ I think, thoughts of climbing this new tall drink of water like a tree running through my head, ‘If I did that, I may as well be saying that I should’ve just let him have his way while I was gone. ’
Watching muscles bunch across that broad back as he walked down the hallway with his arm around Mel and some redhead chick, had me needing to make some adjustments.
‘When the fuck did my little ginger kitten turn into this brawny ginger alley cat? When the fuck did he fill out like that?’ I think, tonguing my cheek, my eyebrow cocked and mouth going dry.
As the group walked by, we locked eyes for a moment, it was only a moment and all Kai did was give me a head nod. ‘What the fuck?’ I thought, confused by Kai all but pretending I don’t exist.
It seemed that the little kid begging me not to end it in the back of a crappy broken down van, the kid who lacked any confidence in himself, was gone.
I couldn’t find a trace of that awkward as fuck kid in that newly aquired confident swagger.
‘But, my God, is that confidence sexy,’ I thought through my confusion.
I tracked Kai’s progress through the hall with my eyes, watching his every move until the trio stopped at a locker. And then, I watched Kai do the unspeakable. ‘No fuckin’ way!’ I thought, watching the scene play out in front of me.
Right in front of me, another kid in uniform walked up to Kai, leaning in, he whispered in his ear.
Kai leans into the kid wrapped around him, he knows how to get to me, and he knows what he’s doing as he keeps his eyes on me the whole time.
I watched Kai nod and lick his lips at whatever the fuckhead was saying, and then, to my horror, I was treated to the unfortunate sight of him discreetly squeezing said fuckhead’s ass.
‘Fuck this shit!’ I think, as I turned around and stormed out the door. Feeling eyes on me I threw a middle finger over my shoulder. ‘And especially fuck you, Sullivan!’
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Later that day, I paced my room, internally ranting, as anger and jealousy flooded my system. Taking a long pull off the bottle of Jameson Whiskey I’d lifted from the liquor store on my way home.
‘Fucking big foot looking asshole,’ I growled, livid at Kai and pissed that I still have feelings for him after spending so much time pushing him away.
‘All the “please don’t go’s” bullshit plus the handful of “I miss you’s” in all the letters Mel sent me, and he does that?
Right in front of me? Looks me right in the eyes and does THAT? The fuck?’
Hurling the bottle at the wall with a yell, I sink down till I’m sitting on the floor with my back to the bed and my knees drawn to my chest. ‘Why is this redhead so far under my skin? Why the fuck did he drag this side of me out?’
The knock on my door pulls me out of the haze slightly.
I yell, “Fuck Off,” and hope that makes whoever it is go away, but Mel, being Mel, just walked in and sat on my bed looking at me with a quirked eyebrow and a sneer.
Sneering right back at her, “The fuck you want?”
Mel shook her head, “Really?”
I looked my twin up and down, wondering what she thought she knew. “Really what? You know this is your fault, right?” I asked, skeptically.
Mel threw a pillow at me and shook her head, scoffing at me as I moved to lay down on the end of the bed grumbling. “How the fuck you figure this my fault…” She began and trailed off when it hit her.
I began, “I was a dumbass. I let him think he was nothing more than a wannabe penpal. I told him to move on, and he really did it. He fuckin’ did it,” I tell her, letting everything rush out. “So much for all that shit he said. I can’t believe that I put everything on the line for a whore.”
Mel turned and sat cross-legged on the bed, staring at me as if I had three heads as I ranted about Kai. “Wait, you let him think you just ignored all of ‘em?” she asked, wide-eyed.
Sitting up and staring at her, “What else was I supposed to do? Tell him you fucked him over and leave him with no one? You could at least say ‘Thank you’, ya brat.”
Shaking her head, Mel sat there in shock for a moment before I felt the bed shake from her barely contained giggles, ‘This girl has lost her mind,’ I think, saying, “The fuck you laughin’ at?”
She finally composed herself and looked at me, “Fine, thank you for bein’ a dick,” pausing a moment before she continued, “Also, I’m laughin’ because you’re being played like a fiddle,” she says, sticking her tongue out at me as she finishes talking.
I finally stopped talking, sat up, pinched the bridge of my nose, thoughts of ‘Yup, I’m done,’ running through my head.
Meanwhile, Mel was taking notes of everything. I could see in her eyes that she was up to something when she finally left to head to bed. I watched her leave, grateful that Mack was on these weird night shifts, it made hanging out a little easier.
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I slept in the next day and woke up to the sound of a text coming in on my phone. I rolled over, blindly reaching for my phone with a groan. Squinting at the bright screen, I found a message from Kai.
Whore: Heard you had some shit to say abt me?
Shaking my head, I read it again, unsure that I’m really seeing this in my half-asleep mind.
I wanted to ignore it and him, but I could already feel myself caving.
This new Kai? Yeah, I need a taste of that.
I wanna know what he’d feel like on top of me, I wanna know if he could manhandle me and my God, I wanna know what it’d feel like having to look up to kiss him.
“Dammit!” I groaned, feeling my cock twitch and harden just thinking about it. ‘What’s the harm in just once?’ I thought, biting my lip, ‘just scratch the itch, get the answers I want and let him go.’
After responding I drop my phone on the bed beside me.
As I lay there thinking about how he’ll respond, my hand travelled south into my boxers.
My stroke is rough as I think back to seeing him yesterday, the way that tight blue jacket stretched across Kai’s chest and the smile he shot me as he flirted with that asswipe right in front of me.
‘I wanna make ‘im suffer,’ I think seethingly, ‘but I also wanna make him beg for this ass.’
As that thought ran through my head, I let ideas of payback start to form, feeling my cock twitch for the first time in months.
With Anton hovering and only having shared showers, there had never been any time, let alone desire, for me to practice a little self-care.
Besides, I hate topping, and there’s only ever gonna be one cock for my ass.
Reaching over, I grab the lotion from the nightstand, squirting some into my hand.
Reaching back into my boxers, I mix it with my precum as I move my slicked hand faster on my cock.
Pausing to think about it for a second, I mutter, ‘Fuck It,’ before adding some lotion to my other hand and reach down, teasing my hole.
With two fingers breaching my unused hole I crooked them slightly, brushing against my prostate as my other hand flew over my rigid cock.
As visions of freckles, red hair and moss-green eyes danced through my mind, it didn’t take long before I shot my load so hard there was a line of cum from the headboard, across my chest and down my stomach.
Laying there breathless, limbs like jello and smoking a cigarette as I thought about my answer and hoped that this prep work would be used later.
I typed my response, gripping my phone, I pressed send and almost launch it across the room when the text sent through. Thinking of all those letters that had ended with ‘miss you’ and ‘love you, mean it’ over and over again, I roll my eyes.
‘How did I let this kid play me like that?’ I think.
I couldn’t give him the words, or the public acknowledgment. No one could know. When I uttered the word ‘done’ on the phone it was about self-preservation.
‘How could he not know that?’ I thought, sweating because even having this conversation in text was a level of danger that nearly brought me to my knees. I mean, seriously, I just got home, I wanna stay outta lock-up for a little bit.
Whore: Ya know, don’t think I did. Wanna compare notes?
The text is clearly meant to bait me into meeting up. Caught between wanting to claim what’s mine and saving my life, my frustration grew. Kai didn’t seem to understand that when I say Mack will kill me, I mean that Mack will kill me, in the most literal way possible.
‘Fuck it, I need this, even if it ends in goodbye,’ I think. Rolling my eyes when I realize that Mel was right, I need closure. ‘I need this fuck to get him outta my system once and for all,’ is my only thought as I send a final text before cleaning myself up and getting dressed.