Lillian
We walk back to Mary and Liz, and they both seem to be caught off guard when I walk up with Adonis.
“Lilly, who's your friend?” Liz says, looking Adonis up and down like she will bury him just for breathing on me.
“Adonis, I wanted to see if I could steal Ghostie away for a bit?” he suddenly asked. I could see Liz wanted to say no, but Mary happily nodded and let him whisk me off.
“Why do you want to dance with me?”
I ask him not sure why he has even approached me, out of all the girls here, he sought me out. Why?
“I Wanted to dance with you ghostie. Is that wrong?”
I snort and can’t help but sigh.
“Fine, just for a bit then I have to go back to my friends.”
He smiles Triumphantly.
“Rules are you can’t touch me deal?”
I tell him and he cocks his head but nods in agreement.
Even though he saw me earlier, I was in baggy clothes, if he were to touch me now, he would realize how fat I truly am. I think to myself, sighing a bit.
The music starts to play, and I get lost in it; I must look like a floating ghost under this sheet, but I don't care. I let go and let the music take me.
I look over, and Adonis is watching me hungrily; it makes me shudder under his gaze, but it pains me a bit because he doesn't know what I look like under this sheet. If he did, would he still look at me with those hungry, dark emerald eyes.
I shake my head, letting myself get lost in the next song. Suddenly, I feel two strong hands on me, but I'm too lost in the music to realize what Adonis is doing. I turned to him and started to dance with him. We had fun and laughed.
And just as I am letting loose, he reaches to go further up my body, and I freeze if he goes any further, he will realize how big I am. Suddenly my ex’s voice rings in my ear,
“No one will like the way you look, only I will ever love you, if anyone ever tries to love you it's only because they want to embarrass you. No guy would ever like you; they would only use you for a bet.”
I hear him in my head and become more panicked.
I step away from him and say,
“What are you doing?! I said no touching!”
He looks at me confused.
“I'm sorry, ghostie, I just wanted-”
I cut him off.
“I said the one rule was not to touch me...So why did you?”
His eyes are still dark with hunger, and he comes closer again. Leaning into my ear so only I can hear what he says.
“I wanted to get closer to you because all I could think about was holding you against myself. I wanted to feel your body on mine and-”
I push him away, feeling he’s toying with me. I slap him and start to walk away.
“Hey wait Lilly.”
“Don’t call me that, I told you only my friends call me that!”
I say, realizing I yelled a bit too loudly.
“Are you enjoying this game?”
I ask him and he looks taken aback.
“Game?”
“Yes game, who’d you make a bet with? What’s the bet this time? See if you can get the virgin pig to fuck you?”
“There is no-”
“Oh, save it, you guys are all the same. I already know I’m pretty enough to fuck but that’s it.”
I feel my blood beginning to boil, and tears begin to form but I won’t allow them to fall.
“Hey, wait, ghostie, no, you got it all wrong.”
He takes a step forward, and I take two steps back.
“Don't,”
I tell him, and before I know it, I feel my legs move on their own, where are they taking me? I don't know, but I want to get far away from here.
I finally come to a stop; I notice I'm by the lake near my home, slumping on the ground near the water, I take my sheet off. I look at my reflection in the water and see myself for what I am—the fat, funny, unlovable friend.
I feel the tears come down my face, and I cry; I cry because I hate the girl staring back at me, I hate the body she has, I hate the wavy brown hair and the dimples she has. I hate the shit brown eyes and the faint freckles on her nose.
I sob and sob until my tears run dry. I breathe in, look at myself again, and reach out to the water to wash my face when I suddenly hear a twig snap behind me.
“Who's there?”
I say but get no response in return. I wash my face in the lake and sit back.
I look up at the sky, the moon shining and the stars twinkling in the night sky; I sigh because I left my friends at the party and knowing them, they are probably worried to death. I pull out my phone and see 15 missed calls and nearly 50 text messages, suddenly a chill runs down my spine and I can feel Liz ready to kill me. I dial Mary knowing she won’t bite my head off.
“LILLIAN, WHERE ARE YOU?! YOU JUST RAN OUT OF THE PARTY!”
Liz yells at me. So much for calling Mary.
“I'm sorry; I just needed space. I'm okay; I just decided to go home.”
Liz stays silent for a moment than said,
“Lilly, just call us when you’re home, okay?”
I hear the worry in her voice.
“Of course.”
I sigh and hang up the call, feeling another tear roll down my cheek.
God, I am a joke; I look at myself again in the water.
“How hideous,”
I say, and I stand up. I brush the dirt off of me and look around. I feel uneasy like someone, or something is staring at me, watching me like I am its prey. I shake my head, take my shoes off, and step into the water. I sigh heavily and relax; the water has always felt like a home to me; it calms me. I start to relax and splash a little bit, I giggle to myself, kick the water again, and spin around this time; I take my hair down and spin again, letting myself get lost in nature's embrace.
I have always felt free and happy out here in the woods. I feel at ease. I started to sing, just a song I remember from early childhood. I sing and hear my echoes, and it's almost like a melody just by myself. I smile and sing more and make myself feel at ease. Suddenly I hear another twig snap sending chills down my spine again.
“Hello? Is someone out there?”
I don’t get an answer. I continue to dance in the water.
I stop moving and look up at the sky again, and this time, I smile; I reach into the water and let myself get lost again. I stand up and get out of the water as it gets colder. I picked up my shoes and started to walk home.
I get home and plop on my bed with a big thud. I turned onto my back and looked up at my ceiling, I lay there thinking about Adonis, how he looked hurt when I had suggested there was a bet, he looked taken aback as if I just misjudged him completely.
I started to think about the way his hands felt on my hips, they were strong and firm, I feel myself starting to get flustered.
“Ugh this is so wrong.”
I say to myself but then I start to imagine Adonis, shirtless in front of me on his knees, I pull my pants off and push my panties to the side. I start to imagine him spreading my legs slowly open.
“Tell me what you want princess.”
“Mm Adonis I need you please.”
I watch as he kisses my inner thighs and removes my underwear. He licks my slick wet folds, and I arch my back.
“Fuck, Adonis”
I moan his name, and he smiles, he starts to suck on my clit, and I moan even louder, I fist my hand in his hair encouraging him to suck harder. He growls in my pussy, and I jump from the electricity it sends through my body. Suddenly I felt him put a finger in me and I gasp.
“Shh princess you can do it.”
I ache to feel him inside me, but he moves the finger in and out slowly while he sucks my clit, and I start to become a mess.
“Adonis, oh god-”
I can’t finish my sentence as he inserts another finger into me. I can feel myself tightening around them feeling my release is near.
“Adonis please I- I’m about to.’
“Cum for me .”
I cum on my fingers Imagining all those things. This was wrong. I shouldn't have.
“Whatever it's not like I’ll see him again.”