Chapter 12 Kayla #2
He pushed at my jeans as he moved until he bared all of me to him. “Beautiful,” he murmured, and I squeezed my eyes shut before forcing myself to open them again.
The blankets rustled as he shifted, lying down between my thighs.
“What are you doing?” I sounded a little panicked, even as my hand flew to his head, my fingers tangling into his soft hair.
“This.” His voice was quiet and he dropped a kiss to my inner thigh.
“I remember this…” I spoke breathily and gasped a little as his mouth moved higher.
He probed gently at my opening.
“Sebastian,” I whispered. “I want to touch you too. This can’t be all about me.”
“We have plenty of time.” He shifted again and his mouth was on me, his tongue flicking over my clit, his fingertips pressing into my thighs as he held me in place.
I arched my back and gasped as I pressed closer to his lips. “Yes.” The exclamation escaped me on the quietest of whispers, but Sebastian must have heard because he repeated the same action, and I moaned louder.
But this was wrong. “Not like this.”
He lifted his head. “Hm?”
“I want you inside me.”
He grinned. “This is all preparation.” He sucked on my clit again, and heat spiraled right through me, catching me by surprise.
I sucked in another breath as his tongue danced over me and my hips began to move, setting a rhythm for Sebastian to follow. He seemed to know exactly what I wanted, and he didn’t let up, instead continuing his velvet attack on my body.
My muscles contracted and an orgasm crashed over me, stealing all of my thoughts with its suddenness.
A breath caught in my chest, and I struggled to draw a new one as my mouth opened, and I squeezed my eyes tighter shut, not wanting to know if he was looking at me while I was as vulnerable as I could possibly be in front of him.
This almost seemed too personal to share, and I squirmed as he made me gasp again. “Sebastian.” I breathed his name. “Oh, Sebastian. Please.”
He lifted his head and looked at me before quickly taking off his clothes and sliding up beside me, pressing his warm skin to mine.
I turned to him, my mouth already seeking his, and he answered my silent pleas, kissing me as he positioned his body above mine.
“Are you sure?”
Even now, he gave me the option like I could still change my mind and he would be just fine with that. But I didn’t want him to stop.
I nodded. “Please.” Then I blinked. “But no biting. Please don’t bite me.” I didn’t want my first sexual experience to become something about vampires.
But even then, after my plea, I kept turning my neck to him like I was offering myself. I was so conflicted. My body acted like it was following some sort of primal instinct, and that urge confused my mind.
Then I tensed as he nudged forward, and the head of his cock bumped gently against my entrance.
“It’s okay,” he whispered. “I’ll go slow.”
He pressed gently inside me, and my body stretched to accommodate him.
This was different than anything anyone had done before, and I sighed as he filled me.
He drew out a little then pushed back in and I sighed again.
Each time he pushed back inside me, he went a little farther until he held completely still.
“More.” I pressed my palm to his cheek.
He sucked in a breath and nodded. “You feel incredible. I just needed a moment.” He turned his face from me before burying it against my neck. “You smell incredible too.” His soft breath fanned over my skin as he began to move in and out of me in a more regular rhythm.
I met each of his thrusts, pushing back as he pushed against me, my breath forced from me with each drive forward. Electricity sizzled through me, and I felt truly alive for the first time, like this man had woken me from a long sleep. Like I hadn’t even been present in my own life before.
He changed his angle and I moaned as he touched that same part of me no one had found before. He’d always known where it was. Then he did it again. And again. Until my thoughts spun away, and my insides all coiled tightly.
When everything released, I pulsed around him and he groaned as his cock twitched inside me, filling me with heat.
For a moment, he remained above me, his weight on his forearms before he leaned down and captured my lips again, the kiss this time soft and yearning rather than being demanding and passionate. Then he shifted to his side, gathering me against him as he did.
I snuggled against his warm skin, not the least bit self-conscious as he smoothed his hand over my shoulder and upper arm.
I’d never felt so cherished.
“Thank you,” I whispered.
He shifted to look down at me. I couldn’t see him, and I didn’t look up but I could sense his gaze. “What are you thanking me for?”
I shrugged. “That. Thank you.”
He was quiet for a moment then sucked in a breath, but I didn’t let him say whatever he’d been about to. I just wanted him to let my appreciation stand.
“Was it hard not to bite me?” Even now, there was a degree of tension in his body, like he was holding himself under control, and I’d always connected vampires with biting. Always.
But Sebastian hadn’t done that. Even when he’d pressed his face right to my neck and both a sharp prick of fear and an equal amount of illicit excitement had darted through me, he hadn’t bitten.
“Yes.” His word was a quiet whisper. Almost a confession.
“Not biting you was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do.
I wanted…” He stroked his hand over me again like the movement was a distraction from his thoughts.
“I have an instinctive need to further our mate bond… when you’re ready, I want to turn you. ”
I stilled. It was like someone saying they loved me when I still wasn’t sure. I couldn’t return the sentiment. What Sebastian spoke of was forever.
Only it was really forever. It was immortal… it was vampire…and it wouldn’t end.
I loved the closeness between us. The bond was already something like I’d never felt. Both emotional and physical. I’d never been so close to another person before, never felt so connected.
It was almost otherworldly.
But I didn’t say anything about that. Something about having too many feelings left me raw and exposed. Vulnerable in a way that didn’t sit quite right.
I swallowed as my chest hollowed out. I didn’t want to think about this right now. I couldn’t. My vulnerability disturbed me in a way I hadn’t expected. I was usually so self-assured and so strong, depending only on myself, but here I was actively seeking Sebastian’s approval.
I wanted him to like me the way I liked him, regardless of what he said about all this mate stuff. I wanted his approval and his affection for more than some sort of biological imperative his kind followed.
It was all a bit too much. I couldn’t process it right after…
right after that incredible experience I’d just had with Sebastian.
I needed something normal…Something from the rest of my life to balance me.
And I’d been too self-absorbed since I moved into Sebastian’s home and reclaimed my singing job at the club.
“I need to see my friend Naomi,” I said as I shifted to a more comfortable position in Sebastian’s hold.
“Lettie is still missing, and I haven’t checked in with Naomi in a while.
I don’t want her to think I’m missing too.
It would probably be a good idea to go back to my apartment and collect a few more things.
” I looked up at him so I could see his profile.
His jaw was set, but he nodded. “I have a lot of meetings at the club tomorrow, but I don’t think you should be walking around alone. Not right now, anyway. You should take Kyle with you.”
Having protection with me didn’t seem like any great hardship, and while Kyle wasn’t exactly great company, I didn’t doubt his ability to keep me safe. He was a pretty scary guy. Definitely the strong, silent type, and he always looked like he might know his way around more than one type of weapon.
“I can agree to that.”
Sebastian shot me the kind of look that suggested Kyle would be my companion whether I agreed it or not, but all he said was, “Okay. I’ll talk to him in the morning.”
“Maybe when we’re both done for the day, we can have dinner together again?” I wanted him to know I wasn’t drawing away from him.
I just needed longer to get my head around the idea of forever. It was a foreign concept to me. Humans didn’t live forever. We lived moment to moment, and what Sebastian wanted was so big, so vast that I couldn’t even imagine it.
Not yet anyway.