Chapter 30
Jade’s words ring out in the quiet hall, but that doesn’t matter. I don’t care if she wrote them down and made me read them. I’ll take it. Though hearing them is oh-so-sweet.
She stands still as a board, staring up at me with so many emotions swirling in her eyes, but through it all, I see her uncertainty.
I’m not sure that Jade has ever told anyone she loves them before.
Loving people isn’t easy in the life we live.
It’s why I never told her, and also why she was so careful about the connections she made.
Loving people is dangerous, but it’s also so rewarding.
Loving Jade changed my whole life for the better, and even if I died tomorrow, I’d never regret a single second of it. I’d never planned for this. Despite what I just told her, I never foresaw a time when things would be right.
I’m happy beyond words to be wrong, though. Once upon a time, I thought loving her was enough, being her support, but I was wrong.
This is everything.
Jade is everything, and I’d be nothing without her. I could never go back to a time when she wasn’t. I wouldn’t want to because without her, I was lost, complacent, weak.
Without Jade, the man I am today would never have seen the light of day.
I move forward as she moves away, but I can’t let her go, not now, not ever again.
Cupping her face in my hands, I hold her still, leaning down to press my lips to hers.
The second our lips touch, it’s like something snaps inside of both of us, but it doesn’t break.
No, it’s as if something snaps into place, connecting us in a way I didn’t even know was possible.
Jade’s lips respond to mine the moment they touch, and I can feel the raw emotion just below the surface. She’s in my arms the next second, and I’m not even sure how she got there, but I really don’t care.
Thank fuck, I was smart enough to ask her to come to my room tonight before anyone else got to.
Not that I give a fuck. I would have kept her either way, but at least this way I don’t have to worry about anyone interrupting us.
Technically, we invited Rick to join us, but I’m still unsure whether he will or not.
Besides, that’s not really an interruption.
It’s more like adding another player, and that’s fine with me.
So long as I get to keep Jade with me, I don’t give a shit who else is there.
But it's still early; we’ve got time, and I intend to use every minute of it.
Somehow, we make it into my room, even with our lips still pressed together.
The second the door closes behind us, Jade's tugging on my shirt. I can’t stop the smile that pulls at my lips, but I’m more than happy to help.
Reaching back, I grip the fabric, pulling it up and off with one simple tug.
She moves away long enough for me to get it over my head, but the second it’s off, she’s there again.
Her hands explore my chest, and I hum into her mouth at the feel of her skin against mine.
Her hands dip lower down my chest, resting at the top of my jeans, but with the way her legs wrap around my waist, that's as far as she can get. She seems to realize the same thing and gives an annoyed little huff before pulling back to pout at me as if I’ve done something to stop her.
A second later, she’s wiggling out of my arms, her body sliding down mine in the most deliciously teasing way. As soon as her feet hit the ground, her hands work to unbutton my pants. I intend to stop her, at least long enough for us to get to the bed, but I always forget just how fast she is.
Her lips close around my cock as soon as she frees it. I let out a hissed curse and feel the smile on her lips as she sinks down further.
Fuck, I’d thought about the way her mouth would feel more times than I’d care to admit since the first time I had her, but this is so much better than I ever could have imagined.
She takes a moment to hollow out her cheeks before she swallows me down completely.
My fingers curl into her hair of their own accord, and the happy little hum she gives me in response has me throwing my head back.
The feeling so intense that I could easily cum just from that alone.
The first time we had sex, I wanted it to be perfect, and it had been.
Something we could always look back on and remember.
This isn’t like that, though. I can tell by the way she pushes me, she’s not looking for soft and sweet right now.
No, she wants to be fucked hard and dirty, and I’m more than happy to indulge her.
She pulls back ever so slowly, pressing her tongue flat to the underside of my cock and dragging it up over the bars.
Clearly, Zander’s been giving her pointers.
I’ll have to thank him for that later. She swirls her tongue around the head of my cock, peering up at me through her lashes, and I can see the desire there.
Her pupils are blown wide, but I also see the mischief that flashes a moment before she sinks back down, taking me all the way in one thrust.
Fine, if she wants to play this game, we can play. I grip her hair tighter, using it to pull her back once again before I thrust forward, fucking into her mouth, and her eyes fall closed. Watching Jade give me control like this is almost as hot as watching her swallow my dick so well.
Almost, but not quite.
I fuck her mouth for a moment longer before I pull her off of me completely.
Her lips come off my cock with a pop, a string of drool connects us, and all I can think about is cumming down her beautiful throat.
Seeing her swallow it down, the way I know she will.
She’s such a good girl that I’m sure she’ll do just about whatever I tell her to, but for now, that can wait.
Right now, I want to feel the way her pussy will convulse around my cock when I push her over the edge.
“Let’s go, Killer,” I tell her, using my hold on her hair to help pull her up to her feet.
“Yes, Daddy,” she purrs, and goddamn her and that nickname. Every time she says it, it’s as if it goes right to my cock.
I drop my hold on her hair in favor of scooping her up and tossing her over my shoulder, slapping my palm to her ass.
The squeal that leaves her lips is a mix of shock and pleasure, and I can’t stop myself from doing it again, if only to hear that sound.
With large strides, I make it across the room in just three steps, tossing her down onto the mattress.
“Be a good girl and take your clothes off for Daddy,” I tell her, crossing my arms as I stand over her, waiting. My cock throbs as I watch her, even just sitting on my bed, and I know this woman has ruined me in the best way possible.
She doesn’t miss it. A wicked smile turns her lips as she looks up at me with half-lidded eyes before she pushes herself up, standing in the middle of my mattress. Her hands caress her body slowly, starting at her stomach and working her way up to knead her breasts through her shirt.
A low growl slips past my lips as I watch her, which only makes her smile wider.
Brat.
Jade might have hated her time in the rings. We all did, but in order to keep the girls safe, she played a part, and she played it well. The little peek the guys had of her on the pole a few months ago was nothing. She has many faces and many talents, and teasing just happens to be one of them.
Lucky me.
I stand with my feet planted on the ground as I watch her drag her shirt up over her head, letting it fall to the bed.
Her hips move to a beat only she can hear, but I don’t need to hear it to be intoxicated by it.
Jade does that all by herself. She cups her breasts through her bra, pushing them up so high that they almost spill out, before continuing until her hands circle her throat.
I can’t look away as she throws her head back, her mouth falling open with a needy little moan that has my cock leaking, begging me to go to her.
Not yet.
I’m all for giving Jade whatever power she wants; she was made to lead.
I saw it that first night we had together, but this isn’t like that.
This is a game, and I intend to win and then fuck her until she can’t walk as my reward.
She seems to enjoy pushing us to our limits.
She did it to Rick, Spencer, and even Zan.
Something about it thrills her, and I can’t say I don’t see the appeal.
She works her pants down her legs before dropping back down on the bed, her legs spread wide as she reaches back to unhook her bra.
I’ve never been so torn in my life, wanting to look up and admire her now bare chest, yet unable to force my eyes away from the clear wet spot on her underwear.
Remembering the taste of her has my mouth watering, knowing she’s right there, mine for the taking.
Her hand comes down, blocking my view and snapping my attention back to her face, and I see the challenge in her eyes as her fingers press to her pussy through her underwear. Her eyes fall closed as her breathing hitches at the contact she’s no doubt dying for.
I can feel my resolve melting by the second. The need for her to lose herself to me outweighs the need to win this silly game. Even if I lose, I still win. The second her fingers disappear beneath the thin fabric, something inside of me snaps.
I’m on the bed a second later. My fingers close around her wrist as I pull her hand back, but she doesn’t flinch away. Her gaze burns into mine as her teeth sink into her lower lip. Her eyes shine, knowing she’s won, but we’ll see about that.
“Did I say you could touch?” I ask, and her eyes widen slightly at my tone before she shudders, and I feel the goosebumps rise on her skin. I don’t let her go, waiting for an answer, and after a moment, she shakes her head.