Chapter 12
Raya
I swallow hard as I try to ignore the urge to turn around and throw myself at Venom, the need to be in his arms pulling me hard which isn’t okay that is for sure. He has bigger things to deal with right now than the love I’ve had for him for years that disguised itself as hate.
For two months, I have done everything I can to avoid not just him but also his family, the club, and his sister, so I don’t become a distraction right now.
Angel has claimed she’s pregnant, actually she’s shouted it from the rooftops, ensuring everyone knows it’s Venoms. Showing everyone she’s not lying because no one is stupid enough to claim a brother like the way she has and becoming distant was the best route to go and honestly, I need to concentrate on school and work and to do that.
I’ve cut my friends out, the constant messages asking if I’m okay overwhelming me.
While Ivy, I haven’t spoken to her in two months, not for the lack of trying on her part.
She could have warned me, been the friend I have been to her, but she didn’t because, blood is thicker than water, than us. I get it, I do, but a little heads up so I wasn’t blinded would have been nice.
Sniffling, my emotions all over the place since Psycho called and explained what happened with Lake, a friend I cut out when she needed me the most because I’m so god damn selfish. I walk into the bathroom trying to ignore Venom’s eyes on my back.
Just like his sister, he has also been trying to contact me, expressing that it isn’t what it seems. You know what? It has nothing to do with me because we’re not a couple, and what happened was just emotions boiling over. It won’t happen again.
We need to go back to bickering with hate.
I look up as I enter the bathroom, adamant to find her toiletries but I stop still as my eyes go to the shower and my heart races, the blood coating the floor and shower walls coming into view.
The man’s blood from this morning comes to mind, his pleads to spare him because he’s just joined Hayden’s group making it hard to breathe, the first murder I’ve actually felt bad about.
I take several deep breaths to stop the nausea as his dark brown eyes hit me like a train and I blink several times before looking at the shower again and come back and see it’s not the man’s blood, it’s all Lake’s, my friends.
Oh god…
Sobs climb, and my body trembles as I quickly rush over to the shower, grabbing the towel on the counter on my way, which is also covered in blood, and my tears fall.
I quickly turn on the shower as my body trembles and I begin to wash away the blood on the tiles, and the glass door, splashing the water over it, and my sobs wreck my body before I fall to the floor and begin to wipe the floor to clear the dried blood, all while my guilt eats me alive.
I left her alone. I wasn’t there for her in her time of need.
“Kitten, please tell me you are not having a shower right now?” I hear Venom joke before the door opens, and I look up through my tears, Venom’s blurry figure coming into view as he curses, “Fuck!” before he rushes over to me, and I choke, “She-she can’t come back to this…
” and I continue to scrub the floor, causing him to stop in his tracks.
“Kitten,” he whispers with pain, but I ignore him and scrub harder before something shiny catches my attention.
I pause as my tears fall harder, seeing it’s the blade she used, and without a second thought, I quickly grab it and stumble to stand before I wrap it in toilet paper then throw it in her toilet, then I flush it and watch as it goes.
My whole body trembles as I sob, placing the back of my hand over my mouth before I feel strong arms wrap around me from behind. I fall into Venom, giving him my whole weight, my emotions overwhelming me.
No one, she leaned on no one, and I was too selfish with my own emotions to see that she was struggling.
I sob harder, causing Venom to tighten his hold on me as he places his face into the crook of my neck and chokes, “I’ve got you, kitten,” and I shake my head because I don’t deserve him to catch me, not when no one was there to catch Lake.
I find the strength to stand and move out of his arms to quickly grab Lake’s toiletries. Packing enough to last her at least a month. Venom sighs before I side eye the shower again as the water switches off to see he’s cleared the blood and dark brown eyes hit me again, along with the guilt.
My tears fall yet again, and I quickly leave the bathroom, trying not to trip on my bridesmaid dress.
We’re supposed to be celebrating Skylar and Fury’s wedding, but instead, we’re praying our friend gets through her depression that she’s been diagnosed with.
I quickly put her toiletries in her duffle bag, along with her clothes, before I zip the bag up.
My eyes go to her side table, where pictures of Viper and her grin proudly, and I wipe away another fallen tear as I pick it up just as strong arms wrap around me from behind, and Venom places a kiss on the top of my head.
“She’ll be alright, kitten, Viper will make sure of it,” he whispers, his breath tickling my ear.
I slowly close my eyes and enjoy the tingles for just one moment, only one, before I move out of his comforting embrace and quickly put the frame in Lake’s bag, knowing she’ll want it before I walk to the door.
“Raya,” Venom calls, but I ignore him. My only thought is to get out of his orbit, but of course, he has other ideas.
He latches onto my arm, stopping me in my tracks before he spins me, causing the bag to fall at my feet. I gasp in shock, not expecting it. Ignoring my reaction he slowly pushes me up against the wall as he cups my cheek, his warmth sending sparks throughout my body.
“Speak to me, kitten,” he commands softly, his eyes racing between mine, and I try to look away, his gaze too intense. He doesn’t allow me and grips my cheek tighter.
“There’s nothing to talk about,” I finally relent, knowing he won’t release me until I speak.
“But there is, there’s so much to fucking speak about. You’re pulling away from everyone that loves you,” he whispers as he presses his body against mine, and suddenly, all I can focus on is his body, which is bad, really, really bad.
I swallow hard and finally say, “Why do you even care, you’ve done nothing but treat me like shit for years and when we did actually sleep together you screwed Angel literally a few hours later!
” He flinches but doesn’t back away and I snap, “We have nothing to talk about, just like distancing myself from everyone is the right path for me to take right now. So back up and let’s take the bag to the hospital and we won’t have to see each other again. ”
His eyes darken the longer I speak and I, I can’t seem to stop myself from purposely pissing him off.
Dammit, what is wrong with me?
Venom growls as he runs a hand into my hair before pulling the hair tie, causing my hair to flow down my back. He grips it tightly, making me gasp, before he pulls it back, forcing me to look at him.
Anger, lust, guilt, and… No, surely not, love, shine back at me.
I have to be seeing things.
Shaking my head, I try to move out of his hold but his grip tightens before he snaps, “One, I won’t allow you to pull away from your friends, from my fucking sister who loves you to pieces.
Two, I won’t allow you to pull yourself out of my life,” but before I can reply, he slams his lips against mine in a hard bruising kiss that send my knees weak and the arm he has around my waist is the only thing keeping me up.
I will my body not to comply, to move and tell him no, but the traitorous bitch melts.
I kiss him back harder, causing him to moan as he lets go of my hair and grips my ass with both his hands.
Without a care in the world where we are, he lifts me, my legs automatically wrapping around his waist as our tongues tangle.
The kiss is hard, fast, and oh so sexy as he sucks my tongue into his mouth, making me squeeze my legs around his waist tighter and my clit throbs, wanting attention, needing it, but only by him, always him.
We shouldn’t be doing this, I shouldn’t be doing this, but as a hand leaves my ass and moves between us and shoves my dress up. When his fingers grip my soaking wet panties, I lose all common sense as he tears them from my body.
I hear a zipper being undone before the presence of his cock is at my entrance, and in one thrust, he bottoms out, my walls squeezing him, my body welcoming him.
Damn…
I break the kiss and throw my head back as I gasp with pleasure and a little bit of pain, and he presses his lips to my neck, gently biting and sucking as he moves his hips back, then thrusts forward slowly to gauge my reaction.
I moan as his pelvis brushes against my clit while his member hits the sweet spot. He takes it as a sign and begins to thrust hard and fast, holding me up against the wall.
It’s not sweet, it’s not innocent, it’s pure need and want. I can’t help my reaction as I move my hips to meet him thrust for thrust as I move my head down and slam my lips against his, kissing him with pure need full of tongue and teeth.
Around him, I was always a mixture of shyness and yearning, causing him to take it as a patch chaser wanting to piss off my daddy, and now, when I’m around him, I want him to hold me, to make me feel like I’m all he sees, which is why I probably haven’t shoved him away.
I feel my stomach begin to tighten as my walls and clit pulse.
I know I’m about to come, I thrust quicker, chasing that need, causing Venom to groan and bite my bottom lip hard.
He tilts his hips, keeping one hand on my ass so I don’t fall while pressing his other against my throat, gently squeezing it, giving me a type of pleasure I never knew I needed.
My orgasm hits me out of nowhere, shocking me.
My walls squeeze him tightly as my eyes go black as he kisses me harder and thrusts quicker and I scream into his mouth.
He moans before thrusting inside me one more time then bottoming out, his seed filling me up which only makes me pulse some more making him groan into my mouth.
He slows the kiss then gently caresses my lips before placing his forehead against mine, our heavy breathing mixing as he squeezes his eyes tight.
“I don’t want to pull out, kitten,” he admits with a whisper, and my heart pounds as I breathe, “Why?”
Venom lifts his head, his dark green eyes locking with mine, showing so many emotions I can’t seem to understand because the one I can see, love, is just part of my imagination, and he admits, “Because then you’ll push me away again.”
Right, yeah, he knocked up Angel after sleeping with me.
I slowly close my eyes before I wrap my arms around Venom’s neck as I place my face into the crook of it, and I hold him tight, causing him to wrap his arms around me, but he squeezes when I whisper, “You’ve got a baby on the way, Cale, and this, this cannot happen again.”
I feel his breath on my neck as he drops his head and I hold him even tighter knowing this is the last time I will feel him like this.
That in the end, he believes I’m a rich bitch patch chaser along with half the club not knowing my past, a past that needs to stay buried, even if it means leaving town so he can focus on his family and being the best dad I know he will be.
Even if it means breaking my heart completely beyond repair.