Chapter 35
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
Finn
The sound of the shower door sliding open triggers her to spin around fast, almost losing her footing.
“What are you doing?”
“Trying to make you forget all about our fight.” I move in closer to her, resting my hand on her hip.
“It wasn’t a fight. It’s not a fight,” she says, looking away from me. “It’s a weird thing that I’m sure you will never understand.”
“I understand,” I assure her after just being reminded of her ex. “And I’m sorry that your salon got ruined over something I did when I was young.”
“That’s just it, you didn’t do anything wrong. This is crazy, I feel crazy.”
Cupping her jaw, I lean in and kiss her softly.
“What you should be telling yourself is none of this actually matters. I don’t think the subject will ever come up.
But if it does, then you need to remind yourself that a three minute experience from a fumbling teenage boy is a much different experience than what you and I have shared.
I promise you, what we have, there is no comparison. ”
“I know,” she confesses and she lifts her chin, looking me directly in the eyes. “I’ve never had this,” she whispers. “This pull, this connection.” Sophie takes a deep breath. “I’ve also never had a relationship where I wasn’t unknowingly sharing the guy with someone else.”
My heart breaks for her as she battles with her thoughts.
“I’ve had three boyfriends in my life, all three of which weren’t exclusive even though they played as if they were.
The first guy dumped me because I wouldn’t have sex with him.
It took me awhile to give another guy a chance and I thought that two year relationship was everything it was supposed to be.
Turns out I was number three in that scenario. Then you know about Ryan.”
“There is no sharing here,” I tell her, hoping that she already knew that.
“Yeah, I know,” she says. “Which is why I’d love to share that. I want to talk about how you make me feel and how I can finally stop worrying.”
“How do I make you feel?” I trace over her jaw with my thumb.
“Like the world stops,” she says and I notice how glossy her eyes appear. “Like I can finally breathe and I don’t have to go to bed wondering if tomorrow will be the day when it all comes to an end.”
Resting my forehead to hers, the warm water from the shower pelts against our skin as we stand there giving ourselves a moment to regroup.
“You have one huge thing that no one before you has ever had.”
“What’s that?”
“All of me,” I confess. “You have my entire heart Sophie, I never want you to question that.” I need to make sure she has no doubts.
“I love you.” I dip my chin, slouching enough to ensure she is eye level when I repeat my words to her.
“I am in love with you. I love everything about you, your kindness, your compassion. How you feel everything so deeply, and every day, every moment I spend with you, I fall a little more. You are so much more than I bargained for and now that I have you there is no way I am ever letting you go.”
I notice the way her chest rises when she takes a calming breath before releasing it.
“I hope not, because losing you would be so much worse than anything else in my past.”
Sophie’s fingers are threaded with mine as I hold them out, giving her the support she needs. She moves above me, taking me inside of her over and over. I watch as she rides out the pleasure, her body tightening around me as her lips part.
I let her have control.
What started out in the shower led us to her room where I gave her the reins. Giving her whatever it was she needed.
I immediately got lost in her as she explored and drove me wild with need. Her mouth, kissing all over me, her tongue tasting me. It was without a doubt one of the most erotic moments I’ve ever experienced as she lowered her mouth over my hardness, her eyes closed as she moaned.
But when she climbed over me, straddling me and she positioned my cock before lowering herself, I knew I was wrong. This, seeing her fall apart again and again as she takes what she needs without pause, it’s the absolute most pleasurable experience I’ve ever encountered.
Her movements pick up and my toes curl as I fight the release building. I want to hold out, want to keep this moment for as long as I can. I need more, need to feel her.
“Yes.” She shifts and I know she is so close herself. Gripping her hips I lift my own and she gasps at the fullness. Thrusting over and over I watch as she squeezes her eyes shut tightly and her fingernails dig into my chest.
“Let go, baby,” I tell her, knowing that I can’t hold out much longer. The moment I feel her, the way she pulses around me I give in, and together we reach the fucking stars.