Chapter 13 #2
“Thanks for comin’ to get me even after I hung up on you,” I thanked as I avoided eye contact.
“You knew I was comin’ no matter what,” he assured. “I figured that’s why you texted instead of callin’.”
“Maybe,” I chuckled as the mood lighten when he started laughing with me. “What am I supposed to do ‘bout a car? Still can’t believe somebody would do that.”
“That shit is crazy. You know I gotcha. Actually, come on.”
I didn’t protest when he led me by the hand towards his house.
With how lit I was hoping he folded me like a load of laundry.
When we made it towards the door of his garage, I became confused until he opened the door.
The only car inside was a black and mint green Jeep Wrangler with a big white bow on it.
I looked at him and he was holding up the keys as I accepted them happily.
“When the fuck did you get this pretty ass car?” I wondered as I looked over the car. “This is literally my dream fuckin’ car. And I can drive this until I buy me another car?”
“Drive it?” He countered with the tilt of his head. “Nessa, I brought yo’ dream car for you. Damn, how much liq did you have?”
“For me? No, no, no, Nas I can’t accept this. I gotta go,” I shook my head as I tried to leave.
“Nessa, wait a sec,” he reasoned as he grabbed ahold of my hand. “Why you don’t want the car?”
“Because just like the fuckin’ house Nas I have to worry ‘bout it possible being taken away from me.”
“Wait what? Why?”
“‘Cause you’re in the fuckin’ streets. If they ever lock you up again, I’ll lost everything you gave me because it was brought with fuckin’ dope money.”
“Listen to me, the money I used to get the car, the house, and everything else you’ve brought on my dime was washed and legitimized as a payout for an accident. I swea’ on my life that everything will stay includin’ me, Nessa.”
“You can’t make that promise because you’ve already been taken away from me.”
“I can because I’m not so impulsive like I was back then. I have too much out here for me to go back inside. My daughter will not be without a dad unless God takes me off the face of the Earth.”
“I’m scared Nas,” I finally admitted due to the liquid courage.
“Scared of what?”
“Of losing you again. Not only did I lose you to the system, but you put the nail in the coffin when you dumped me. And to do it right after my mama pretty much kicked me out was so fucked up. The two people that I thought I had in this world despite the situation, or their shortcomings tossed me to the side like I was nothing. That shit had me in a very dark head space, but God blessed me with light at the end of the tunnel when I found out I was pregnant. I was feelin’ like fuck life if I was alone, and ready to end it all.
Nyla truly was my savin’ grace in more ways than one that’s why I go so hard for her.
I put her before myself and try to keep her as happy as can be because she saved me. ”
“Damn, I’m sorry Nessa, I didn’t know.”
“Because you were only thinkin’ ‘bout you when you dumped me.”
“Now that’s a fuckin’ lie. Decidin’ to break up with you was the hardest thing I’d ever done in my life even to this day.
Prison was a walk in the park compared to breakin’ yo’ heart.
I didn’t want you to put your life on hold and do the time with me.
I wanted you to live as freely as possible without havin’ to stress ‘bout tryin’ to put money on my books or comin’ so far to see me.
I did that so that you’d live your life instead of doin’ the time with me because you didn’t deserve that.
So, don’t ever think that I did that maliciously at all.
I loved you too much to put you through that. ”
“Really?”
“Yeah. I’ve been wantin’ to have this conversation with you for weeks, but I didn’t want to force it.
The way you held it down for our daughter I owe you this house and car plus so much more.
I’m not gonna overstep anymore because I know you got a nigga and I don’t want to get in the way of you livin’ yo’ life.
It’ll be hard but my only concern will be to keep you and Nyla safe, that’s it. ”
“I’ll accept the car,” I agreed as I wiped the tears from my face. “However, I’m not with Desmond anymore.”
“What happened? Do I need to go put that nigga down?”
“No, you don’t need to do anything to Desmond. Your presence alone did enough.”
“Wait what I did? I was at the dinner to meet the nigga.”
“Be that as it may you were still fuckin’ that nigga girlfriend, buyin’ her gifts and flauntin’ money that he couldn’t.”
“So that nigga got insecure and instead of applyin’ pressure he worried ‘bout me and you. And make this clear I was fuckin’ my baby mama not his girlfriend because you were mine first and forever will be, ain’t that right?”
“See, and that’s where I’ma leave you to enjoy yo’ night,” I deflected as I grabbed the keys from him. “Thanks for the car. Let the garage up for me.”
“You know this conversation ain’t over,” he announced as he flicked the switch for the garage door.
“Uh huh. I hear ya baby daddy. Good night.”