3
Lucas had sent me on my first run to serve up security at the strip club. A nigga was excited because not only was I getting to the money, but I had also never been in a place like this before. The move was to serve and go, but when I saw her, a nigga was stuck in a trance. After sliding them a few extra grams, they let me go fully inside. My eyes remained on her as it felt like a nigga was floating toward the stage. Her slow walk, and dark intense eyes hypnotized me. Like I had been the chosen one. I didn’t even bother to sit down as my eyes were glued to her. Can she see me? Her body move slowly as she moved in a wavelike motion. She held onto the pole as her body rolled down slowly. Her legs bent slightly as she began tapping the top of her pussy. The gold two piece she wore matched her brown skin so lovely. Roll, tap. Roll, tap.
Money flew in the air like confetti as she swiveled down on her knees, crawling to the edge of the stage. She licked her lips as her eyes connected with mine. Shit! I pulled my eyes away for a second. Eyes back on her. She gave the come here motion, so I did.
She had a nigga stuck as I tossed money in the air. She came in front of me, rolling her pussy in my face. I closed my eyes, imagining my mouth on her. Roll, tap. Roll, tap. When I opened my eyes, she was walking off the stage. That was the first night I saw her dance and fell in love.
I often found myself thinking about Asia after what I did. The loud sound of the gun’s bang within the car was still fresh in my ears. A part of me felt bad, but the other part felt as if she deserved it. It was either her or me, and I damn sure wasn’t ready to die. If I had to, I would do it again for any nigga who crossed me. Asia knew the rules of the streets. Hell, her baby daddy was a major player to the game and even then, she still had no loyalty.
Catching my first body wasn’t what I was expecting. It was as if I unleashed a demon. Now the nigga was riding on my back, begging me to do it again. Shit has been sitting on my mind since I did it and I needed to tell somebody. I stared at the ceiling, debating if I wanted to share my demon with Ace. I ran my hand over my face, “I popped Asia,”
I blurted out.
The room fell silent, causing my eyes to land on Ace. While I waited for the nigga to judge me. He shot up from the seat, “Nigga that was you? Dio, what the fuck man, why?”
I closed my eyes, “Man to be honest I-I was pissed. When she went to Lucas telling him we were fucking around and they beat my ass, I wanted to kill her that night, but I talked myself out of it. Then she came calling wanting to talk and the shit she was talking wasn’t what I wanted to hear. She played me and I-I-I fucking snapped.”
“Yeah man that shit they did to you wasn’t cool. I tried telling Lucas you wouldn’t do no shit like that, but the nigga wasn’t hearing me. Dio you know I would never tell anyone, I’ll take it to my grave, but you didn’t have to kill her,”
he said to me.
“Fuck!”
I shouted. “Zeus don’t even know but the nigga trying to send me off. So, I left and I’m here. The nigga been calling me non-stop. I just don’t have it in me to go back.”
“He’s your brother. He is only doing what he feels is right for you.”
I sat up, peering at Ace. He was supposed to be on my side. “Man, fuck Zeus!”
I said aloud as I laid back on Ace’s raggedy-ass bed.
The sound of Ace chuckling only pissed me off more. I knew once we’d gotten back from the cabin, Zeus was ready to send my ass off. I didn’t want to leave. LA is home and all I know. Ace handed the blunt to me as I continued to think about Asia. The shit played in my head repeatedly.
“What you gone do my nigga? You can’t run forever,”
Ace said to me.
I lifted up glaring at him, “Shit you the one need to be on the run. Not too long ago wasn’t it you hanging in the fucking Zoo? I haven’t forgot,”
I told him.
The night my brother and the boys had Ace and some of the other Blaze N Fire niggas in the Zoo, they let Ace go. I don’t know how that happened, but the nigga got lucky and if he was smart, his ass should have left the city. Instead, he ran back to Lucas, crying like a bitch. Ace was a lone soul that walked the city at night. His mom was basin and his sister, well shit, he doesn’t know where she is. He was taken from his family when he was young and has been searching for peace ever since. I took another puff of the blunt as I glanced down at my phone. Zeus had been blowing my shit up so much I had to send his ass straight to voice mail.
I honestly didn’t understand why he was calling me back-to-back. Zeus is my brother, yes, but a part of me feels like he hates me. Since my father passed away, Zeus has never paid me any attention. I felt more of a burden to him than a brother. The sounds of feet shuffling startled Ace and me. The bando Ace stayed in was easy access for anyone to come in, so a nigga had to stay ready. I whipped out my gun, aiming at the dilapidated door that shielded the small space Ace called a bedroom.
It wasn’t until I saw who it was, that I placed the gun on my lap. “Yowaddup!”
Ace dapped one of the Blaze N Fire niggas up.
My eyes stayed glued on his ass because one wrong move and I was going to open his shit up. Only person from the crew I trusted was Ace because he and I were like best friends. I watched the guy as he watched me. The way he zoned in on me while he talked to Ace told me he was up to some shit.
“Yo Ace that nigga Lucas is dead,”
he mumbled.
My ears perked. Somebody had finally caught his ass slipping. Then I thought about Mega. Now he had no mother or father, and the fucked-up part is I knew what that felt like. I glanced up at the nigga. “Who did it?”
He shrugged, “Shit last I heard he was trying to catch that nigga Foe slipping.”
I slowly nodded. I wanted to smile because I knew if he and Foe went head-to-head, there was no way Foe was letting Lucas’ bitch ass walk away breathing. Ace and the nigga chopped it up for a minute before he left.
“Man shit!”
I heard Ace sigh.
“What you crying for now? You free from that nigga Lucas. I see it as a blessing.”
“Yeah, that’s because if you change your mind, you have an actual home to go back to. Me, this is my home and nobody to call my family. I don’t know what’s next for me.”
I sat there thinking about what he said.
“Ayo let me see your phone?”
I said to Ace.
He handed me his phone and continued rolling another blunt. I dialed Zeus number.
I knew I needed my brother, but a part of me felt like I didn’t. I let the phone ring twice before I hung up.
I deleted the number and handed the phone back to Ace. What he said fucked with my head. It was true, but although I had family;
it was like being by myself because the one person who’s supposed to care for me, rather be in bitches’ faces than care about what I needed.