Chapter 42 #3
He let out a deep chortle. “Tell that to Lumosia’s storage closet.” A sweet, dashing smirk covered his lips. “Since we're on the topic, how much experience do you have?”
My eyebrows furrowed. “What?’
“In the bedroom,” he clarified.
“Obviously.” My eyes bobbed as they lost their fight not to roll. “Does it matter?”
“Not at all. Just out of sheer curiosity, tell me.”
“Um…” I chewed on my lower lip. I was having deja vu from my conversation with Pia. “Besides you, there was only one other person.”
“And with that person, did you experiment or try anything outside of the box?”
Was I dreaming? Because surely this conversation was not happening.
“Not really, no. Why?”
“I’m wondering if you think we have boring sex? Because if you do, I’d be more than willing to try out some new things with you.”
My heart started racing, tension making my veins swell and my breathing picking back up. “No. No, that's not what I meant at all. I just wanted to be sure that I was living up to—”
His eyebrow cocked. “Living up to what? My previous partners?”
My awkward shuffle answered for me.
“Gods, Maeve. You have ruined every other woman in the world for me. In more ways than one. Sex, sure. But in every other way possible, too. There is not a single person on the planet who could come close to topping you.”
“Are you sure, because—“
“I wasn’t finished.” He wiped a tear from my face with the pad of his thumb. “I am also in love with you, and that is a feeling I have never even considered for any woman besides you. I only see you. And if you need me to remind you of that every day for the rest of our lives, I happily will.”
He placed a kiss on my temple, but I grabbed his face with my hands, dragging his mouth to mine.
“I’m only asking about your experience because I would understand if you had curiosities. So while we're being honest, tell me. Do you have any fantasies?” he whispered when our lips unglued.
What the fuck is going on?
“I can’t believe we are having this conversation right now,” I stammered, splaying my hands in front of me in disbelief.
“Honestly, not great timing—we have a very important dinner to attend shortly. But everything that is going on outside these four walls can wait. And let’s be honest, we were due to have this conversation.”
“Were we? Were we really? I think I could have lived a long while longer without having this conversation.” I was mortified to say the least.
Sebastian released a throaty chuckle.
In an attempt to resort back to our previous conversation before it went astray, I shuddered in his arms and asked, “Are you positive that you don’t hate me?” needing to hear the confirmation once more.
“You could fuck every man in this castle and I wouldn’t hate you.”
I spat out a genuine laugh at the idea. “I would never do that.”
“I am still yours, and as long as you’ll have me, you’re still mine.”
“I’ll always have you. I’ll always want you, even when you piss me off.” I sniffled, nestling into the crook of his neck.
“Good to hear, because pissing you off is something I seem to be pretty good at.”
“Plus you bought me a beach,” I pointed out with a giggle.
“I would give you the entire universe if I had the means.” Sebastian pulled my face into his, settling his lips upon mine in a sweet, loving kiss, that very quickly turned into one of need and lust.
I grappled at the front of his shirt, pulling him closer to me. His lips dipped to my neck, tearing a soft moan from my throat.
His voice, deep with need, rumbled into me. “So, back to those fantasies. Do you want me to tie your wrists to the headboard? Because I know for a fact that the wardrobe behind us is stuffed with ties.”
I couldn’t get any words out, so he spoke for me. “Do you want it rougher?” His hand squeezed around my throat, just enough to pull a gasp from me as my nipples peaked in anticipation.
Still fighting to find words, I only stuttered, though my heart thudded so hard that I could hear it outside my chest.
“Something a little more risky?” His tongue skimmed my throat before finding its way back to my lips.
“I’d be more than happy to let you suck my cock in their courtyard tonight.
Just pray to the gods that no one catches us.
” His mouth drew mine into another needy, lustful kiss.
“But then again, if they do, we can fuck in the dungeons.”
My stomach did somersaults as he whispered into my flesh. “We could recreate the first time I tasted you in these archives instead of Caelestis’.”
“What is it with you and performing sexual acts in libraries?” I spat out a laugh.
“Why wouldn't I want to combine my two favorite things?”
I had never even thought about half of those things, but they were striking up curiosity within me. He then whispered something so utterly dirty to me, that I lost all of my senses.
He latched onto my shock, using it to his advantage. “Is that one a winner?” His eyes lit up. “We can try that one tonight easily.”
“Kade was right about you constantly being horny.” I forced myself away from him, remembering that I desperately needed a bath.
“If you saw yourself while you were getting fucked, then you would understand.”
Good thing I wasn’t standing, because my legs went weak and limp.
Drawing my attention back to him, he said dead seriously, “When we get back here tonight, don’t expect to be getting any sleep.”
My head shook with my laugh as I made for the washroom, but then I paused, turning back to him. “Wait. Since you asked me, how many people have you been with?”
“Does it matter?” He copied my question with a one-sided smirk.
“No. But you asked me, so it’s only fair.”
He counted on his fingers, then held the number up to me with both hands.
“Sebastian Hawthorne, you slut!” I chirped, the lack of seriousness in my voice plain as day.
He sheepishly shrugged. “I had a lot of time on my hands when I was younger.”
My nose scrunched up.
“You should hear Sawyer’s number,” he added defensively, grabbing my wrist and stopping me as I proceeded my journey to the washroom.
My eyes dipped to where our skin made contact. “Were you planning to come with me?”
“Might as well make use of the tub while we're here.”