48. Dani
“Out of curiosity, what did you use for your research?” I ask as Noah climbs on top of me, his body weight feeling so good on top of mine.
I’m going to have to borrow that cologne sometime, so I can douse myself in it. Honestly, I might not have to after we’re done here.
His lips meet mine with a sense of urgency. He kisses me fiercely, pouring all of his emotions into this kiss.
Desire.
Lust.
Desperation.
I gasp as he gently tugs on my lower lip with his teeth.
He takes it as an opportunity to shove his tongue into my mouth, marking his territory inside.
I put my arms around his neck and grab his face.
He pulls away from my mouth, studying me with this intensity that’s making my insides melt like tempered glass.
Amusement is visible in those mesmerizing eyes of his. I can feel his breath as he moves closer, brushing his lips against the tip of my ear. “I think you already know the answer to that question.”
I swallow, hard and deep. “You read spicy romance books,” I blurt out before I can register that those words just escaped my lips.
He stares back at me, amusement taking over his face again. And if I’m not mistaken, hunger.
He read spicy romance books for research. God, I love him even more now.
I stare back at him.
“I can take it from the look on your face you were surprised by that.”
“Uh-huh.” My heartbeats are increasing at a rapid speed.
“Remind me. What’s the name of the book you’re reading? One that has smut in it, perhaps?” His voice and intense gaze are sending shivers down my spine.
I clear my throat, unable to comprehend what he just asked me. I’m smiling up a storm and blushing so hard my cheeks might overheat. “Why?”
“What book is it?”
“Noah.”
“Tell. Me. The. Name,” he commands.
“I’m re-reading one of my favorite romance books right now.”
“Oh?” He peppers kisses along the side of my neck.
I’m officially a mess.
As his kisses deepen on my neck, I delicately run my fingers through his hair while my other hand brushes against his cheek.
His kiss softens, slowly sliding his lips over to mine and brushing them ever so slightly.
“I-I’m in a…r-reading slump,” I stammer, barely a whisper and almost sounding like a cry.
His head lifts, eyes directed towards my face. “Why are you re-reading one of your favorite books?”
“Sometimes it helps me get out of a slump when I re-read my favorite books.”
“What is it called?” He rasps, his voice full of desire.
I squeeze my eyes shut as he bites and tugs on my bottom lip. “Icebreaker,” I say.
My eyes snap open to the realization he’s the only guy I’ve ever allowed to touch me and kiss me. I mean, he’s the first guy I’ve ever kissed. And hell our first kiss was perfect. He’s perfect.
He smirks, his gaze setting my skin on fire.
“Why the hell are you looking at me like that?”
“You want to know the authors I read?” He locks eyes with me.
My breath catches in my throat as I stare into his eyes, drowning in them. It’s as if the planet stopped spinning on its axis and he’s the only thing I see.
My heart is pounding hard inside my chest. All I can feel is his hands on my skin and his breath.
His voice brings me back to reality as a smirk materializes across his lips. “Elsie Silver, Lucy Score, and…” He moves closer to my ear, his hot breaths convulsing off my skin. “Hannah Grace.”
My mouth drops open, my eyes blink rapidly for a few seconds.
Lizzie must have given him a list of my favorite romance books. Maybe that flashlight might come in handy after all.
“Indeed, I did. So…if you ever wanted to test out the waters, I’d be happy to oblige.”
“Test out the waters?” I stifle out a laugh.
“We can make those spicy scenes you read about all the time a reality. I’m going to use every goddamn opportunity to get you to scream my name so fucking loud the neighbors are going to hear you.”
Damn, that was hot.
“Noah, I-I, that was s-so…”
Before my thoughts have the slightest chance of traveling out of my mouth, he crashes his mouth onto mine, ravishing it.
Sucking.
Licking.
Biting my lips.
Just when I think it can’t get any better or worse, he tilts my head so he can deepen our kiss.
I grip onto his shoulders for support since my knees are starting to give out. That’s when he bounces my body up, earning a gasp that escapes my mouth.
I wrap my legs around his thighs, circling my arms around his neck.
I don’t even know what’s right or wrong anymore.
He gently places my body on top of the bedsheet and there’s no space between us.
The way he’s kissing me is enough to send me into overdrive and I believe it’s having the same effect on him. I can feel his groin which is hard as a rock through the thin fabric of my underwear.
He has me under his spell and I can’t help but succumb to it. The moment he starts to grind against my soaked clothed clit, I release a desperate groan and my toes begin to curl.
Meanwhile, he’s still kissing me like I’m the only source of oxygen left for him to breathe out carbon dioxide.
He’s not wasting any time because he moves down to the lower half of my body, taking my underwear off.
He travels back up my body, kissing every inch of bare skin. Leaning back on his knees and feet, his blue eyes darken as he looks up at me. “Can I touch you?”
I nod. “Yes.”
Noah takes a deep breath as he reaches out to touch me.
The initial contact of his skin in between my thighs sends shockwaves all throughout my body.
After he moves his way up towards my clit, I release a spontaneous moan.
He lifts his head up to meet my gaze, smirking. “God, Dani. You’re fucking soaked for me.”
I roll my eyes, licking the inside of my cheek. “Oh, shut up.” Extending my arm to open the drawer of my night table, I pull out a condom.
He licks his lips, smirking. “And how long has that been in there?”
“Do you really want to know?”
He runs his fingers through his hair. “Just wondering if it’s going to be able to do its job.”
“It will.” Giving him a fake laugh, I narrow my eyes as he ditches his boxers.
I glance at the ceiling with my fist resting on my lips before my eyes gravitate in Noah’s direction.
My mouth hangs open when I see his dick.
How the hell is that going to fit inside me?
I distract myself by watching him as he rips open one of the packets with his teeth.
“Are you a dog?” I cover my mouth in an attempt to contain my laughter.
“You think you’re so funny, don’t you?”
“I think I’m hilarious actually.”
His mouth makes a home on mine.
Heat floods all over my body, especially in between my thighs.
“Who’s laughing now, huh?” He rasps.
I swallow, my anxiety escalating at an insanely quick rate. My shoulders are tightening. I close my eyes, exhaling a few times in a row.
Back in high school, I remember when Bella told me about her first time.
The first time can hurt. Like fucking hell. But then it gets better.
As if sensing my anxious thoughts, Noah cups my face and gives me a passionate kiss. He pushes me down onto the bed again with him on top of me. He pulls his lips away from mine, staring at me in a way that makes my heart triple in size.
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah. I’m just preparing myself. That’s all,” I breathe out.
“If it’s uncomfortable or painful, tell me. Promise?”
I nod, giving him a silent answer that I’m going to be okay.
Somehow, I know I will be. Because I’m with him.
Looking up at the ceiling, I begin to dwell on the fact that I’ve never had sex before. Noah and I have already established this, but I’m so fucking nervous.
My chest is rising and falling really fast.
Calm down, Dani. Just breathe.
He wraps his arms around me and I hug his back, feeling how rock-hard he is against me, so I swallow hard.
I pull my head back down. “I don’t know if you’re going to fit, Noah.”
He looks at me, studying my face. “Is there anything I can do to make sure it doesn’t hurt?”
“Yeah, I’ve used a vibrator before. Just go slow.”
He blinks his eyes, looking around the room before meeting my gaze. “Fuck, don’t say shit like that to me.”
A smile tugs on the corners of my mouth. “Why?”
“I’m going to come and I’m not even inside of you yet.”
A wicked smile grows on my face.
He’s talking dirty to me and making sure I’m taken care of at the same time. Yeah, this man has been reading too many spicy romance books.
“Ready?” He studies me, starting at my face and making his way down to my ankles.
“Yeah, I’m ready.”
He positions himself in between my legs.
I start to breathe like a normal person.
“I’m going to need you to relax for me. It’s going to be okay. I got you.”
I let the tightness in my shoulders roll off my back, loosening up as best as I can.
He slowly guides his dick in, allowing me to adjust to the size of him with each push until he’s fully seated inside of me.
“Are you okay?”
I nod, staring at him and taking a deep breath. “Yeah, I’m okay.”
He continues, pushing in and out.
Oh my God.
This is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. It’s weird and different experiencing sex in real life than experiencing it through romance books.
I mean, duh, of course it is.
Romance books are fictional.
This is happening right now.
Holy shit, this is so much better than books.
Sweat trickles down the temples on his head as I watch him attempt to control himself, so he doesn’t thrust all the way inside of me. It appears it’s as hard for him as it is for me. And I find the sight oddly comforting.
I’m exhaling so much that I might lose the ability to breathe properly. I’m rolling my eyes so hard they’re starting to feel nonexistent.
A tear streams out of my eye and down my face.
Instead of whispering soothing words into my ear to calm me down, Noah kisses away my tears. A simple but effective gesture.
He continues his thrusts before he peppers soft kisses on my cheeks, lips, and neck.
Our gasps mingle with each other, becoming one. It’s like we were always meant to fit together.
His tongue touches his top lip, pulling it back into his mouth. “Is this okay?”
I want him to hear all the dirty thoughts that are running rampant in my mind right now. Like how much I want him deeper inside me or how I’m about to lose all my self-control.
“God, yes,” I whisper.
His thrusts get deeper and harder.
A little moan escapes my mouth before his lips slam into mine.
“Fuck, Dani. You’re taking me so well.”
He reaches down right above where we’re joined and my grip on him grows tighter. His finger circles my clit, my nails scraping his back.
Moans escape my lips as I cling to him.
He kisses me on the mouth like a man who’s starved. It’s as if he hasn’t eaten in weeks, possibly months.
He’s peppering more kisses starting on my cheek, and working his way down my body.
Jaw.
Neck.
Collarbone.
My toes curl in anticipation of what’s about to escape out of Noah’s dirty mouth next.
“Fuck,” he says. “Do you think you can come for me, Sweet Peach?”
I can’t answer him.
My body is floating in the stars of the night sky because of the way he feels inside me like he belongs there. He has always belonged there.
He doesn’t force me to answer him.
Instead, his thrusts get even rougher and more profound, causing me to let out the biggest moan that’s ever come out of my mouth.
I’m sweating like crazy.
To my surprise, he straightens up and lifts my legs. He puts them on his shoulders. The new position allows him to enter me deeper as he continues fucking me, rubbing my clit.
My orgasm is on the brink of a sweet release.
Shit, shit, shit.
“That’s my good fucking girl.”
For a man who I described as sweet, Noah’s not so sweet in bed. He’s the complete opposite, actually. He’s confident and straightforward. But most importantly, he’s so fucking hot.
Moaning from the base of my throat, I roll my eyes. “N-Noah.” The biggest smile grows on my face.
He leans closer to me, capturing my lips in a messy and passionate kiss as he takes everything I can give him.
He collapses on top of me before he rolls off to the side, landing beside me. We’re panting and attempting to catch our breaths and compose ourselves before either of us speaks.
I’m trying to slow my intense, rapid heartbeats while my interlocked hands are resting on my stomach. “Fuck me.”
Shit, did I just say that out loud?
He turns his head toward me. “I just did, but we can go for round two if you want.” He pulls me closer to him, our noses barely grazing each other. His eyes are full of contentment as a tender smile spreads across his lips. “Thank you, Dani,” he whispers. “For giving yourself to me.”
He gives me a sweet peck on the lips.
“What?” His lips twitch before they break out into a gorgeous smile.
I bite down on my bottom lip, sucking it in.
I have to say I thought I’d be freaking out over his dick more, but here I am about to pass out from his round, tight, and muscular bare ass.
I gulp down on some residual saliva sitting at the base of my throat.
“Do you do ass workouts or something? Because…holy shit!” I fold my arms, raising one of the covers over my breasts.
He puts his boxers back on, turning around to face me. “You like my ass?” He’s back on the bed, planting a wet kiss on my forehead.
“Uh-huh.”
“Want to know a secret?”
I nod, smiling so big my face might freeze like this forever.
“I love your ass.” He cups my face with both of his hands.
His lips cover mine hungrily, sucking all the air out of my lungs.
“You haven’t even seen my bare ass though,” I say.
“It’s only a matter of time, baby.” He winks at me, smirking before he wets his lips with his tongue.
I get out of bed to put my underwear and bra back on. Grabbing a pajama shirt and bottoms out of one of the drawers in my dresser, I slip them on.
“So much for not being allowed in your bed, huh?” he asks, doing his best to hold in a smile.
“You planned this, you sneaky little shit. You purposely chose to sleep in the guest room because you knew this was going to happen.”
“Like you said. We were inevitable. It was going to happen sooner or later.” he smirks at me.
We’re in bed together. My bed.
This is wild.
“Dani, that was fucking mind-blowing. Best sex I’ve ever had.”
“You mean the only sex you’ve ever had.”
“Oh, shut up.” He rolls his eyes. “You know what I mean.”
“Make me.”
He places his hand on my cheek, pulling his body closer to mine.
I love the way he kisses me. The way he praises my body. The way he makes me feel. He makes me feel like I’m the most beautiful woman on the planet.
His lips let go of mine. “Oh, shit.”
“What?”
“How could I forget about Lizzie? I’m such a shitty brother. Why out of all the nights we’ve been together did we decide to have sex the night before she’s getting released from the hospital?”
Shit, he’s right.
“I guess we just needed to be a little selfish tonight.”
“You guess?” He breathes into my neck.
“Noah, there honestly wouldn’t have been a proper time for us to do this. Tell each other how we really feel about each other. See each other naked for the first time. Have sex for the first time. I guess that brings me to ask you this question. And I’m honestly terrified to ask it…” I trail off. “Do you regret it?”
“Why the hell would you even ask me that? Of course, I don’t regret it. I would do it all over again. And again and again. Tonight was the first night I didn’t feel alone. I didn’t feel like the world was crashing down around me. Because you’re here with me. Dani, you make me the happiest guy in the entire fucking world.”
A sigh of relief washes over me.
I never want him to leave.