4. Sovereign aka Queen #3
“I can’t do that Queen, I got bills and kids to feed.
If I can, I’ll get back to football soon.
I really want to drop out of school, but I know you ain’t having that so a nigga doing the best that I can.
” He opened his eyes a little and stared up at me.
I said nothing as I continued to work on his face.
We made small talk and when I finished up working on him, I went in my purse and handed him a knot full of money.
At first, he didn’t want to accept it, but I refused to put it back into my Gucci bag.
Once he left, I used that time to clean my private room.
I went to the meeting room and saw that Murk’um cleaned up and put the folding chairs away.
After a long day, I was ready to head straight to the hotel I had reserved.
I wanted my niggas to rub my ass and feet and feast on me until I passed the hell out.
Yes! You heard me very correctly; I had two niggas, and it was truly worth it.
I wouldn’t call them my boyfriends, but they were my friends, and we did freaky shit together.
Aiden and Caiden were fine as fuck and paid.
They took over the modeling industry all throughout Hollywood.
I made a lot of money off of them as well.
I supplied the drugs that they needed, and they brought back the cash.
Half of Hollywood was hooked on drugs, especially the models.
They wanted drugs to curve their appetites.
I met Aiden and Caiden during my teenage years when I was wild and sleeping around to come up out of poverty.
We went to school together and reconnected at a wild college party.
I end up getting drunk, but I never got to faded to not know what the fuck I was doing.
That same night we ended up getting freaky after I told them a wild fantasy of mine.
That fantasy was to have a threesome with twins.
I saw the opportunity afterward when we would just hang out for fun.
They spoke about modeling and the things that went on in that industry and they easily became runners for me.
I stopped dealing with them sexually when I got with Melvin’s bitch ass but never ended my business deal with them.
I really looked at the twins like close friends, we always partied hard and enjoyed each other’s company.
When I didn’t want to be alone and wanted to call them to hang, they always came running.
They didn’t expect much out of me because they still had their own personal lives to live.
People on the outside probably viewed us as weird as fuck.
Probably thought of me as being a hoe. One thing about having good pussy is that you rarely gave a fuck what people thought.
I didn’t suck dick and the twins weren’t that big when it came to the sizes of their dicks. They were just freaky as hell, and we had a crazy sexual chemistry that I rocked hard with. I enjoyed my body being explored by four sets of hands. Call it what the fuck you want!
In my eyes I had to pay the cost for a long time to get and do just what the fuck I wanted to.
I often wondered what my mom and dad would think of me, especially after all the trials and tribulations I went through just to get to where I am now.
I hope they understood that I had no other choice.
My Abuela was not our saving grace and when she finally decided to find us and help.
She had her own personal reasons that I didn’t fuck with.
Here it was years later, and I was left with no choice but to comply with her.
I needed her back up and her help even though it was hard as hell for me to admit to that.
I had demons that kept me up late at night, I fought hard with them and did everything in my power to stay strong.
I wasn’t proud of a lot of things; I didn’t have magic to erase shit that came with the decisions I made along the way in life.
I conditioned my brain and heart a certain way to never feel pain unless it was a bullet to one of my body parts.
Empress was grown now; I did the best I could to raise her in a way to not act as blind as she did now.
She’s the main person along the way that saw how hard we both had it.
She saw me at a young age lay down and take dick after dick until it ruined my fucking uterus all for us to have food on the table.
Sometimes I sat back and wondered if it was all for nothing.
I did a double-check on the clinic to make sure everything was secure and finally walked towards my car enjoying the night air that caressed my face.
My eyes scanned the empty parking lot, I kept my hand inside of my black Nike hoodie and kept checking my surroundings.
Usually, Murk’um and Bundy would stay back and make sure I made it to my car safe.
Since I dismissed them early, they were long gone.
No one was near as far as my eyes could see, but my intuition was telling me that somebody was watching me.