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Dexter
I like sleeping beside Tilly.
I like how she folds into my arms when I invite her to cuddle, and when she stays on her own side, hand reaching out close enough to touch, when I don’t.
When I wake up Friday morning and find myself beside her, it makes me smile.
It also makes me smile that my cock in her mouth, so warm and wet, but that’s beside the point.
I don’t let myself sleep over with women too often. If it’s a one-night thing, I’m usually gone before she falls asleep, which is why I rarely invite women back to my place. It’s easier to leave than to push out. My apartment is close to the university, and I’ve seen enough of my students around it to steer clear.
I’m always conscious of others watching when I’m at my place.
Tilly lives in a new building with bigger apartments. Families live in the building, and it’s in a nicer area. There won’t be a lot of students around.
I hate that I have to worry about people seeing us.
Is it worth it? Are a few hours with this woman worth the possibility of me losing my job? My career?
Because I like her ass and how easily I can make her come? It’s more than that. I don’t understand why and how can it be this special so soon, but Tilly already matters to me.
We’re going to make this work.
B ut it’s a very long weekend because I don’t see Tilly until Monday night.
I try to understand Tilly’s reasoning why we can’t see each other when she has her daughters, but it’s hard because she’s all I think about. I’ve never dated a woman with children, so it’s new for me. I find myself wondering about them, asking Tilly questions when I text her, and when I FaceTime late Saturday night after the girls go to bed.
For the rest of the weekend, I try to keep busy.
Max and I drag Nick out for a drink, alarmed that our good-natured friend has sunk into a funk after his injury. His surgery went well, and the doctors seem hopeful that there won’t be any lasting damage that will prevent him from playing next season, but Nick doesn’t seem positive.
I know he’s bored, at a loss without the sport that takes up so much of his time.
I get us tickets to a basketball game on Friday night, and we go to a movie and have dinner on Saturday.
It’s like we’re dating.
On Sunday, I play basketball and mark essays.
It’s a very long weekend because I can’t stop thinking about her.
And that makes me smile. Thoughts of Tilly make me smile. One night with her has made me the happiness I’ve been in a long time.
It’s still a long weekend.