37. Chapter 37 #2
That you’re still visiting all the children at the care home, and giving it your all to make sure they never stop feeling loved, that you’re not struggling job-wise and are still working on your dream.
I’ve been thinking about that lately, about how you told me you aren’t sure what your dream is yet, but I think you do.
I think you’ve been forming pieces of a large puzzle, but you just need that extra push to find and complete the last piece.
In the very same way, you are the final piece that completes my unfinished puzzle.
P.S. Fun Fact - my favourite colour is baby pink for the blouse you wore the day we met, your fuzzy house slippers, the matching set with the polar bears on it, you wore the first time we slept together, and for the shade only I can make appear on your cheeks.
Sincerely,
Oliver
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AUGUST
Subject: Week 12 – Part 1
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
Hey Lulu,
I’ve been whining non-stop all day because I can’t stop thinking about you, and I’ve transformed into a fully grown Surly Bastard because I miss you like crazy, and I had a nightmare that you already moved on with someone else.
So, I yelled at Min-Joon to fuck off when he pointed out that you’re way too good for me, which is true, but painful to hear. However, it was wrong to yell at him because he is the bestest brother/best friend in the whole wide world, and being mean to him is wrong.
P.S. Fun Fact - When I was in university, my hair was longer than it is now, and I straightened it EMO style and went out with a goth chick, who’d only sleep with me if I wore a black condom.
XOXO,
Gossip Girl
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Subject: Week 12 - Part 2
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
Dear Luna,
If you wonder why it’s taking me so long to find my way back to you, but if you receive a letter in the post, it’s because you’re formally invited to Min-Joon’s funeral.
This will occur after I murder the bastard for hacking my email and for possibly making you laugh by referencing a show I have never even heard of.
The bond the two of you built, the week he stayed with us, is still a sore spot for me - well, that and the fact that I didn’t have a childhood that entailed watching iconic TV series growing up.
Did you know that I was scared to introduce you to Min-Joon at first? I put it off for as long as I could because I was worried that once the two of you hit it off, he would take you away from me - though you weren’t mine to begin with.
It’s stupid, I’m aware, but I didn’t want you to see how different he and I are. What makes him perfect and me flawed in every way? I was scared that you would prefer the handsome relationship type instead of the grumpy bear with commitment issues.
Min-Joon and I vowed we would never fight over a girl again after what happened with Chae Eun-Sang, as you heard, but in case Min-Joon never told you the full story.
It resulted in cuts, bruises and aching, as we still had to participate in the local Taekwondo competition, which we’d signed up for before our fight.
But had no choice but to soldier through the pain of fighting over a girl who didn’t even want either of us anyway.
So, I can’t believe I’m saying this, but if Min-Joon is what you would prefer, I permit you. However…just don’t question how slowly his hair will mysteriously fall out.
P.S. Fun Fact - One time when Min Joon was visiting me at University, he bet me that I couldn’t grow my hair longer than his at the time; the reason for his unnecessary fun fact in the previous email but regardless, I won the bet and Min-Joon had to walk around my Campus for two days in a crop top, a mini skirt, and high heels. I’ll forward a photo once I find it.
Sincerely,
Oliver
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Subject: Week 13
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
Dear Lulu,
You are a beautiful young woman, and even though I am flattered if you ever found me attractive, I would never steal you from Oliver because he’s my best friend, and he’s definitely not watching over my shoulder as I type all of this to you before I press send.
P.S. If you choose to give Oliver a second chance, I’ll always be your number one outlet when he’s being an unbearable little shit, as I’ve had years of dealing with the grump and am willing to sacrifice my limbs to steal you away for another Oh My Venus rewatch or a Gossip Girl binge.
Fun Fact - When Oliver and I were in school together, he’d give me his lunch on the days my mum couldn’t afford it.
Little does he know, I knew he lied every time about having a big breakfast and was grateful to have finally found a friend who cared for me in his own way (typing this, as he stepped away from the computer)
XOXO,
Min-Joon Oppa ;)
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Subject: Week 14
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
My Dearest Luna,
I have a confession to make,
Though it’s a confession I won’t seek forgiveness for, nor do I regret doing it, since it’s tied to a disgusting excuse of a man.
If you haven’t guessed, I’m talking about your ex, whose name I refuse to type.
Otherwise, I’d have to throw my keyboard through the window after being tainted with such trash.
But my confession is why you haven’t had the misfortune of crossing paths with him again, because he’s currently rotting in jail.
Back in May, I had a lot of pent-up anger when you left, and although I flew to South Korea the night after, the anger wouldn’t go away, so I unleashed it on someone deserving of my fury.
After some digging, it turned out that you sadly weren’t the last to be gaslighted and emotionally abused by that piece of trash.
He’d done it to several girls, including getting physical with one of them, whom I can’t name for privacy purposes, but after getting him fired and blacklisted from ever working with children again, I stood beside the victim and had a personal hand in his incarceration.
I hope this brings you some peace that the man who dimmed your sunshine is currently living in temporary hell, before he gets dragged down to the real one.
He’s probably regretting his life choices and those he hurt, and I want you to know that I didn’t just do this for you, but for all the others who deserved justice because no man, not even me, should ever be the reason you dim the ray of sunshine you were born to be.
P.S. Fun Fact - My favourite animal is a dog, which apparently means you are a loyal and protective individual who will do anything for your loved ones, a statement I believe to be true when it comes to the people I care about, including you.
Love Oliver
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SEPTEMBER
Subject: Week 15
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
My Dearest Luna,
It’s been over three months since I started therapy, and not only have I learnt a thing or two about myself, but I’ve also become aware of how much it hurts to be away from you.
I know what we had wasn’t for long, but just like Theo, I’ve grown very attached to you, formed a bond so strong, even I can’t understand how it works.
I regret what I said to you more and more each day, and I will do anything to make sure you never shed tears in front of me or because of me, ever again.
Not unless they’re tears of joy…or in the form of receiving an orgasm.
I am making my way back to you, no matter what.
I just hope you’re willing to wait for me until then.
P.S. I yearn for you, il mio tutto.
Fun Fact - Although I can speak many languages, my three preferred are English, Italian, and Korean.
Love Oliver
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Subject: Week 16
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
My Dearest Luna,
My inability to stop thinking about you has become this week’s subject during Therapy. As much as I hated telling someone my inner thoughts, I told her everything, and I’d love to have the chance to tell you too, someday - if that’s what you want.
We haven’t quite gotten to how you and I left things, but she did tell me to create a list of all the reasons why I miss you, because she thinks it will help me come to terms with my feelings - whatever that means.
I scanned it and uploaded it to this email. In case you were curious, which, because I know you like the back of my hand, I know you are.
P.S. Fun Fact - I love your laugh, especially when you laugh during sex. It fills my stomach with butterflies, and to me, there is no better sound in the world.
Love Oliver
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Subject: Week 17
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
My Dearest Luna,
I met a man named Garret yesterday on the subway.
For the past few weeks, I’ve been taking your advice on living as others live by taking public transport to and from Therapy.
The man I met is someone I’ve seen almost every week, catching the same train.
He was full of life despite being eighty-nine years old, having lost his wife two years ago to cancer and moved here to be closer to his grandkids.
Despite all of this, his determination to live his life to the fullest until he reunited with his wife again is admirable.
He reminded me of your Gran. Maybe I should fly us both back to London, and we can set them up?
That’s something to think about. I have also been thinking about what your Gran, LJ or Macy will do once they get hold of me, but like my new friend.
I’ve never been so determined to have you back in my life, so I’m ready and willing to take whatever punishment they throw at me, even if it’s a piano or two.
P.S. Fun Fact - After trying to come up with the worst-case scenario of what your family will do when I come back, I’ve found that through extensive research, living with one testicle won’t affect my ability to be a father someday, if that’s something you want in the future ;)
Love Oliver
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OCTOBER
Subject: Week 18
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
My Dearest Luna,