37. Chapter 37 #4
Months had flown by, and I was convinced that my mother and I were going to settle.
That we’d found our forever home…but much like you witnessed first-hand, Joan Walters dropped a bombshell.
Without warning, we’d left in the middle of the night whilst Mario went to visit his brother in the next town over.
We were long gone by the time he returned home, and no matter how much I kicked, screamed, and cried.
My mother had a member of her camera crew shove me into the getaway car and onto the plane, with no remorse for how I felt.
She told me she had to do what was best for her, that I was her son, and to do as she said, and that was the last we ever spoke of it.
No matter how much I wanted to know where or why it all went wrong, I was forbidden to ask.
If I tried to bring it up, my mother would scream at me or act like I didn’t exist…
sound familiar? My therapist said it’s a trauma response, repeating what I was put through as a result of running away from my feelings.
But you know, oddly, I didn’t care what my mother did, who she slept with or what made her run away… I just wanted to see Mario again, to know how he’s doing. I never knew what happened to him after that night, but before revealing this to you, my therapist and I agreed it’s about time I find out.
What do you say, il mio tutto?
P.S. ‘il mio tutto’ is a saying Mario taught me, words I never thought I’d ever use, and yet there isn’t a more fitting way to describe you, though I won’t tell you the meaning of it just yet.
Fun Fact - I’m deadly allergic to cats; however, if you see cats in our future, I’m willing to risk it all.
Love Oliver
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Subject: Week 23
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
My Dearest Luna,
I would give anything to hear your voice right now. I know you’re probably still furious with me, but I need you today more than ever.
I’m about to do something utterly terrifying, and the only thing keeping me calm is the words you wished me countless times, and I hope that today will be a good day.
P.S. Fun Fact - my greatest weakness is talking about my emotions, something I’ve really been trying to work on, and aside from professional help, you’re the only one I want to share them with.
Love Oliver
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DECEMBER
Subject: Week 24
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
LUNAAA,
THANK YOU FOR MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT. I love you to the moon and back. I wish you were here on my birthday, but I have a wish stored, and I plan to cash it in soon. I miss you lots and loads.
(See Photo Attached) Caption: You are my Rosalina. - Love Theo
If there is one thing I love about you, Luna, it’s your selflessness, your ability to put aside your feelings for others and how much you love.
I know this doesn’t need to be said, but thank you for sending Theo his gift.
You brought back a smile I haven’t seen in months, and his day wouldn’t have been the same without the essence of you in it.
P.S. Fun Fact - I have a sense of humour equivalent to the Sahara Desert, as Min-Joon likes to say. HE says I rarely laugh; however, you never failed to make me laugh sincerely, it bursts out without me being able to control it, like a volcano erupting, much like it did the night we slept together.
Love, Oliver
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Subject: Week 25
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
My Dearest Luna,
An early Merry Christmas from Theo and me to you. We hope you and your family celebrate the day filled with joy and Christmas cheer.
Sorry, we can’t give you your presents just yet, but know that we both miss you terribly. With the help of a Christmas miracle and one very big, powerful, anticipated seven-year-old’s wish, we will be reunited soon.
The time has come, Luna, for me to face my many demons. To accept my shortcomings like you pointed out, and finally make my way back to you, so you better watch out, you better not cry, you better not pout, I’m telling you why - ‘Cause the Walter brothers are coming back to town.
P.S. Fun Fact - Korean Buddhists believe that when someone dies, their soul is held for 49 days between death and rebirth. I believe that if I’m unable to be with you in this life, I will spend the entirety walking through the afterlife to be with you in the next.
Love Oliver
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Subject: Week 26
To: LooneyLuna@
From: TheOliverwalters@
My Dearest Luna,
I finally learnt the meaning of love.
An emotion I never thought I was capable of, a concept I originally vowed would never tie me down the same way it did my mother. That companionship was nothing but temporary, although now that has all changed.
I’ve changed - and it’s all thanks to you. I have spent the last agonising six months breaking myself down and rebuilding myself back up, turning myself into the man you need me to be.
I will never stop apologising and trying to make up for the way I treated you in the past because I’m in love with you, Luna Yeon Jackson. And I cannot wait to hold you and tell you about those words in person.
P.S. Fun Fact - If I could have any superpower, it’d be the ability to be by your side whenever you desire. Then I’d be able to be there whenever you needed me, so you know that no matter how far I go, I’ll always make my way back to you.
Love Your Surly Bastard, aka Oliver.