Chapter Six
My room is quiet and I hate myself for not making sure she got home safely, so here I am. Sitting at my window waiting to see her light come on. I swear to everything fucking holy, that if she finds her way back to Knox, I will kill him.
Her light flicks on and I watch as she just stands there in the doorway, staring at the walls. Her arms hang down to her sides and she looks defeated, like the whole world has beaten her down. I can’t help but think that it’s my fault. Had I shown her how I felt instead of shoving her away, she could have been happy. Instead, she’s taken the darker path, finding herself. I’d say that she’s better off the way she is now, she’s stronger than she realizes. But, I need to know how she broke.
When I watch her rip open a pillow, I watch carefully. To see how far she’ll take it, needing to know just how dark this little princess has gone. When she starts smashing the things on the wall, I realize that she may not stop this time and I don’t need her getting in more trouble. Not so close to graduation, I want to make her mine, even if it’s just for the summer. And I have a feeling that if her parents push too hard, she’ll just leave. Leaving me no chance to ever feel her. I cannot go to college a virgin who never knew the touch of the only person he’s ever loved.
Taking off through the house, I make my way to the back door and right up to her window. In the time it took me to get from my bedroom window to hers, she’s destroyed nearly everything in her room. The shelves are ripped off the wall. Everything is broken and shattered on her floor as she just keeps going. I push the window up and climb into her room. She’s so lost in her own head she doesn’t even know I’m here. “Katherine!” I shout, trying to pull her back, reign her anger in but it doesn’t work.
She lifts her arms to smash something else with her fists but Im quick to wrap my arms around her, pulling her against me as she starts crying, not really fighting me off as she just buckles. What happened to her? How do I fix her?
“This is all your fault.” She cries out, rocking in my arms.
“Then take your anger out on me, not the shit your mom is going to kill you over.”
“Material things have always been more important to her than me.” She replies, pushing away from me. “My dress.” She hits me in the chest with an open palm. The pain is nothing I can’t handle, she needs to let it out, and if I can help her, I will. I’m done hiding behind my insecurities.
“What else?” I ask her.
“Her stupid friends, her fake smile, her lack of love.”
“I caused those too?” I ask as she smacks me in the arm. If I could take it all back I would. Just so she didn’t have to feel this pain. Her hands continue to smack at me, hitting me time and time again, breaking my heart. “Thats all you got Kitty Kat?” I ask, pushing her further.
“Who are you, you’re no one. Just my brothers friend, no one important.” She screams out, stepping away as she lifts a piece of broken picture frame up. “I’m no one. Why are you here?” she breaks the wood, “Why do you keep showing up?”
I close the gap she’s created, “Someone has to show you that you’re not okay.”
“Says you! I’m fucking fine West, I don’t need you in my life.”
“Then what do you need?” I ask, needing to help her. To make her see, make her feel. I want her, exactly how she is but not if she’s going to continue hurting herself. Even if it’s just smashing her room to bits.
“I need.” She growls, a scream quickly following as I watch the veins in her neck bulge. I’ve never seen so much anger in one tiny body. She’s like one of those firecrackers, small packaging, huge explosion. “I need to take it, not let it be taken.”
“Take what?” I ask, completely confused. We’re nearly nose to nose now, her breath is erratic as she breathes with her lips parted. I can feel the warmth against my skin, the hint of alcohol coming from her.
“This.” Suddenly, her arms are around me, her fingers pulling on the hair I have tied up into a bun. Her lips crash against mine and I’m pulled into a whole new kind of feeling.
Take, she needs to take whats been taken from her, her freedom to choose who she’s with. But last I checked, she’s been with Knox for the last year, on and off. Taking and giving.
I break the kiss, hating myself instantly, but I have to be the responsible one, and I can’t let her find out like this, that was my first kiss, or that I’ve never been with anyone. Fuck, of course she chooses now to need this, she wants to use me, just as she’s been used.
“Get out!” She shouts, slamming her hands against my chest, shoving me backwards. “Out, out, out!” she keeps repeating the world, pushing me further and further away until my back is against her bedroom door.
“I’m not going anywhere.” I whisper, sliding my fingers up her neck as my thumbs rest against the bottom of her jaw line. Now that I’ve kissed her, I need more. I stare down into her icy blue eyes, the wide pupils stare back at me, waiting to see what happens next. “Take what you want Kitty.”
My lips hover over hers, hoping she leads this whole thing since I don’t have the fucking slightest clue as to what to do. She pushes up on her toes, letting our lips fuse together. Almost like it was always meant to be like this, as if we were built for each other.
Her hands move down my body until she reaches the edge of my shirt and lifts it up my chest until we have to break the kiss so she can take it off. The second the material is gone though, our lips are right back where they belong. Fuck, my heart is racing and I feel like there’s electricity dancing across my skin. The way her bare hands feel on my skin is like nothing I’ve ever felt before. When her fingers tickle down my stomach, I suck in a breath. The anticipation of where she’s headed is killing me. She’s moving achingly slow as she hooks her fingers into my waistband.
This time she breaks the kiss as she slides my shorts down, bending down with it. I’m not gonna lie, my dick is hard and standing at full attention. It’s not super long, but it’s thick and when she looks up at me through her lashes, I see the smile.
The second her soft hand wraps around my shaft, I suck in another breath as she strokes me. I could melt into a puddle, and I swear the first person to ruin this for me, will fucking die.
As I watch her stroke her hand from the hilt to the tip, she licks her lips, then suddenly I watch the reddening tip of my dick disappear into her mouth.
Holy.
Fucking.
Shit.
I have been missing out, the warmth of her mouth wrapped around me is like nothing Ive ever felt before. Good fucking God, she feels amazing.
Theres no way anything could ever feel this marvelous, then it hits me. I could have sex with her, I wonder how that feels in comparison.
Ive dreamt of being with her for so long, to know what its like to have her all to myself, to hold her through the night. To wake up with her next to me. “Katherine.” Her name is a whisper on my lips as my head falls back, eyes fluttering shut as she continues to lick and suck on my cock. Lucky for me, Ive seen enough movies where the guy blows his load too quickly and Ive trained myself to last longer. Granted it never felt like this when I touched myself.
The warmth is gone and when I open my eyes and look down at her, shes looking up at me with her round eyes. She pulls her shirt over her head and drops it to the floor. I watch as she pushes her skirt down, kicking it and her boots off quickly. Her height changes, making her shorter than I remember. Ive gotten used to her in those platform boots.
Im naked, and shes standing here nearly naked. I keep watching her, my heart in my throat as she hooks her fingers into her underwear and fishnets. She turns to the side and when they move down and over her ass, I cant help but lick my lips as I watch. Good fucking lawd.
She steps out of them, standing back up, her fingers dancing up her body until they stop. Right at her breasts and thats when I see the tattoos. She has tattoos? How did I miss those? Ive seen her naked, even though I tried to avoid looking out of respect. The ivy branches are curved up beautifully under her breasts, not quite meeting in the middle.
“Like what you see?” My eyes jump to her face, shes raising an eyebrow and smiling cockily at me.
“Yes.” I suck in a breath as I step towards her. She shakes her head and I stop.
“This is going to go my way, either keep up or get out. Understand?” I nod, “Im feeling a little frisky, do you want a safe word?”
“Safe word, Kitty theres nothing you could do to me that would ever make me stop you.” I tell her with extreme confidence.
“Remember you said that.” She says, holding a hand out for me to take. The second our hands touch she literally flings me to the bed. Not in a super masculine way, she just pulls me until I crash down on the bed, flat on my back. I look up at her as she climbs over me. Her head dips down, biting at me, pulling my skin through her teeth. I hiss out, but not from pain, its exhilarating to feel it. The pain wasnt something I was expecting, but oddly enough its turning me on, sending a shock wave through my body as she does it again and again. Marking my skin with teeth marks until she reaches my nipple.
I push up into my elbows, but before I can get up, her hand is wrapped around my throat, slamming me back to the mattress. “Stay down. Eyes on me.” She commands.
She keeps her hand in place as she moves to straddle me, her warm center hovering over my pulsing dick.
One hand around my throat she looks down at me, “Watch as I take you in.” I lift my head just enough to not be choked by her and watch as she lowers herself down. When the tip enters her it takes all I have to not blow my load. All that training for nothing. My hand could have never prepared me for this. When she sinks down on me, her tight pussy enveloping me, I drop my head back and let out a moan.
Thank fuck, it was her, the first pussy Ive ever felt, and I personally never want to feel any other. Of their own accord my hands go to her waist as she begins to move, the feeling of her walls clenching and unclenching as I slide in and out of her.
“Fuck.” She moans. Shes so tight, each pass into her feels like Im pushing into something too small. “Youre so fucking thick.” She moans again, lifting her hips and then slams herself down on me. “Eyes on me.” She says as I realize I had them closed. Her cornflower eyes stare down at me, theres a haze on her face, like shes enjoying this.
I feel the blood flow cutting off, the pulse in my eyes as she squeezes my throat, riding me harder and harder. She’s fucking me, hard and she needs this.
Ive watched porn, some girls want to take charge, but they always want to be fucked into submission. Moving my hand, I wrap my fingers around her wrist and pull her off my throat. Im not sure what I was expecting, but the rush of blood back to my brain gave me a euphoric feeling, forcing a moan through my lips as she slides back and forth on top of me.
Sex.
This is next level, and now I see why its treated so high above other things. Ive been left behind for others to do this, and no I dont blame them. If Katherine asked me to leave whatever, to do this, Id never say no.
She leans down, pressing her lips to mine as I wrap my arms around her waist, thrusting up into her. Understanding what she wants. She shoves my head to the side and bites the muscle between my neck and shoulder, sinking her teeth in as I pick up speed.
I hiss, feeling the need to release, but Im not ready for that, so I flip us, moving her underneath me, still thrusting, just at a different angle to help prolong the inevitable.
“Fuck me West, show me why I shouldn’t hate you.” I look down at her, accepting the challenge. Each thrust is hard enough that her tits bounce. She pushes her head back, arching up as I drop to one elbow, biting at her flesh.
“Turn over.” I tell her as I pull out, grabbing her knees to flip her body. With her ass in the air, I shove back into her. Thank fuck for pornos. Im not sure how virgins did this before. Probably sloppily without anyone actually getting off. Her dark hair is still in those cute as fuck space buns.
I reach under her and lift her up, holding her against me as I keep thrusting. She leans back on my shoulder, giving me the opening to bite down on her neck.
My heart is full and my body is barely hanging on.
Biting into her muscle she moans, “harder.” Her hand snakes up my shoulder to the back of my head, pushing me down. Sucking and biting as we fuck, I finally understand what it means to when people say you never forget your first. Even if this is not how everyone has sex the first time, the connection is unreal.
“Fuck. West. Im -” she cries out, falling forward as her body jerks. Her pussy clamping down around me pushes me over the edge. Grabbing her hips, I thrust again and again, until my entire body freezes, a grunt escaping me as I fill her tight pussy with my cum.
Together we collapse onto the bed, breathing heavily while Im still buried deep inside her. My arms are still around her waist, and I pull her body flush against mine, kissing her shoulder. “Thank you Kitty Kat.”
“For?” She asks, letting out a few quick breaths.
“Being my first.” I whisper against her ear, I kiss her cheek and snuggle in behind her, falling asleep.