33- Landon Breaker Mercer
Leaving the gym, I had Titan stop and grab me something quick to eat.
When we pulled up to the food spot, I thought about Ariyah.
We were in a good space, but we weren’t back together.
I could tell she was really trying to fix it, but it wasn’t that simple for me.
As if she could feel me thinking about her, she texted me.
MYAIR: Wyd?
ME: Nothing Blinky, what’s up?
MYAIR: I’m bored now that I don’t have a fight to train for. You need me to come show you a few moves?
ME: You shouldn’t want to see a fight for a year.
MYAIR: Boy fuck you! I
I laughed and thought about what I wanted to say next. This was really all we have been doing since we talked that night. It was cool and all but fuck it. I was about to throw caution to the wind.
ME: If you want some dick just say that.
I nervously watched for the lil bubble to pop up. I was about to give up when I saw them going.
MYAIR: You can bring me some food.
ME: Say less…
Sending Titan a text, I told him to grab her something as well.
While I waited, I thought about where me and her were right now.
If I was being real with myself, I missed her.
Not the sex even though I wouldn’t mind sliding in that shit again, but this.
Talking shit, joking, just able to be with each other.
The problem was, the more we did it, the more we did this, the easier it was to forget why we wasn’t together.
That shit was dangerous. I’ve already forgiven her, trusting her again was where I struggled.
I didn’t know how to be with her without wondering if one wrong move would send her running.
The door opened and Titan got in interrupting my thoughts.
“Damn, what took you so long?”
“Your food was damn near done when you told me to grab your girl something.”
“Man, we just friends. That’s not my girl.”
“Okay.” He said that shit as if he knew I was lying.
“Nigga, drive!” He laughed as he pulled off towards her hotel.
I scrolled my phone trying to think about everything, but Ariyah.
That didn’t work since it didn’t take us long for us to get to her.
Getting out, I grabbed the bags and headed inside.
Titan stayed behind once I got on the elevator.
When I reached the door, I closed my eyes before knocking.
Ariyah opened the door excitedly causing me to smirk.
“You that happy for some food, or you missed me?”
“Maybe it was a little bit of both.” Accepting that answer, I walked inside and sat on the couch. I looked around the room as she began taking our food out of the bags. “I thought you was supposed to be eating healthy?” I shrugged my shoulders.
“I’m always doing something I don’t have no business.” She looked up at me, but she didn’t respond. “So, this is what you’re calling home,” I said hoping to clear the tension in the room.
“For now. I don’t have anywhere else to go.” For some reason, that bothered me hearing that.
“You could’ve-…” I stopped myself from telling her she could’ve stayed with me. That’s exactly where I wasn’t ready to be.
“I could’ve what?”
“Got you a better hotel. You won your fight, Blinky. You not broke no more.”
“Okay.”
“Okay, what?” Now we just sounded dumb. We both were scared to say something not knowing how the other person was going to react.
“Okay, I’m learning to mind my damn business.”
“Since when?”
“Since I started my new ministry.”
“Was this before or after you slapped your lil sister?”
“That was before I was fully ordained.” We both fell out laughing. We both knew if there wasn’t history attached; she would have drug Briana all over that house. We started eating, and I couldn’t help myself. Reaching over, I grabbed a handful of her fries.
“Get your own fat ass. You could have ordered you some.”
“Like you said, I’m not supposed to be eating all that shit. I’m in training.” She looked at me confused.
“You eating it though, your ass just not buying it.”
“Did you give me some money back and I’m not aware?”
“Here, just take a damn fry.” Reaching up, she put one in my mouth, and her finger touched my lip.
Her eyes met mine, so I threw all caution to the wind.
I sucked her finger before pulling away and taking a bite of my burger.
I could feel her looking at me, but I continued to act as if I didn’t see her.
Out of nowhere, she jumped in my lap and began kissing me.
Throwing the burger on the table, I gripped her ass.
My dick bricked up immediately. Ariyah felt that shit too because she began slowly grinding against it.
“Take these fucking clothes off.” Standing up, she did what I asked while I removed mine as well.
Neither of us had time to think properly.
It was too much pent up energy, so we lived in the moment.
Ariyah slid down on my dick and began bouncing hard.
That pussy was juicy and wet as fuck. That bitch was talking like she missed me.
Using her ass for grip, I pounded inside of her because I missed this shit too.
“Fuck, Landon. I’m about to cum.” Snatching her by her hair, I pulled her to me and tongued her down.
“You missed me?” I don’t know why I asked her that.
“Yessss! I missed you so much.” Hearing her say that brought my nut up.
“Can I cum in this pussy?”
“Yes, baby. Cum all in this pussy.” I don’t think she realized I didn’t have on a condom, but either way, I was about to honor her request. Grunting, I let loose all in that pussy.
We both laid there holding each other, neither of us knowing what to do next.
Raising my hand, I ran my fingers along her scars. Her body shivered as if she was cold.
“I really missed you doing that.” I didn’t respond. It was no need for one. I guess she took that as a rejection. Sitting up, she climbed off my lap.
“You don’t have to do that.” Ariyah gave me a half smile.
“I know.”
“Listen, I want us back too, but that looks differently to me than it does for you.”
“How? If we both want each other, why not just be together?” I thought long and hard on how I could answer that question.
“You apologized, and in your newly found ministry, you realized you don’t need anyone to build you up. That started your healing process, and believe me, I’m happy for you. This was what I wanted all along. So, you’re ready to finally see where this goes.”
“But.”
“But I never hurt you. Yeah, you thought so at first, but you know the truth now. You’re not looking at how you hurt me.
When shit got rough, you showed how you would handle it.
You didn’t give me the chance to explain, lie, or deny anything.
Jumping back in headfirst for me doesn’t look the same for you. ”
“I understand. I fucked this up, and I have to wait for you to be ready. If you will ever be ready.”
“Don’t do that. The foundation is already laid. We just have to be willing to do the work. You’re worth it, but I’m not ready to take the risk just yet.”
“What are you scared of?”
“Me giving my all again, and you leaving,” I answered honestly.
“So, where do that leave us?”
“Enjoying the ride.” That was all I had for her right now.
Walking back over to me, she climbed back in my lap and laid her head against my chest. I guess that was enough for her, and that was enough for me.
Her accepting my terms let me know I was in the right place, with the right person.
We were going to enjoy the ride. If I could sit that long without jumping.