Chapter 24
RAELYNN
Warmth spread across her lower half, and she sighed in relief. What was making her even warmer than she already was? And why was it even more soothing than before?
“It’s okay, Little Fairy. Daddy’s right behind you in the tub,” Daddy whispered.
Tub?
The last thing she remembered was getting swaddled in the blanket that Brick had given her. The blanket had been so soft, softer than anything she had ever felt, and it was pastel pink, her favorite color.
“You can open your eyes if you want, or you can relax into me as I clean you,” he said.
“Clean?” she mumbled as she opened her eyes.
Daddy and she were in the tub like he said before. They were both completely naked, and she couldn’t help but feel her cheeks heat at the thought.
It had been years since she had seen him naked.
Even though she had asked several times if they could do things, Daddy always told her no.
First, it was because she was just about to have a procedure, and then after, it was because she was healing, and he didn’t want to hinder that in any way.
Next, it was the activation, and she had been so exhausted, but now…
now they didn’t have a reason not to, but she figured he would come up with another excuse.
It was stressing her out. She didn’t know how to get him to have sex with her. Did he not want her in that way any longer, or was he trying to put a barrier between them so he could and wouldn’t feel any sort of attachment if they split up?
Tears pooled in her eyes, and she quickly blinked them back. Daddy was taking care of her and had been showing that he still loved her. That should have been enough for her right now.
“You had an accident while we were on the rocking chair,” Daddy gently explained. “But don’t worry, I got you in here to clean us up.”
Raelynn looked back at Daddy in shock. “I did what?” she whispered.
“It’s okay, Little Fairy. Daddy forgot to give you a diaper before giving you milk to drink. I didn’t have you go potty before we went outside, so it was all my fault. I didn’t think about it,” Daddy said.
“I wet myself?” she asked. “But I’ve never done that before. Not since I was really young.”
Daddy ran his hands through her hair. “It’s okay that you did. Next time you’ll have a diaper on, so it won’t matter if you pee. Daddy just wasn’t on his game this time, and I’m sorry for that. But now we’re going to get you all cleaned up and everything will be all right.”
“I can’t believe I wet myself,” she mumbled as she looked forward again. “But why are we in a bath and not in a shower? Isn’t it kind of icky that we are just sitting in water that is now dirty because we had my pee on us?”
She shivered at the thought and took a deep breath, trying to stop herself from jumping out of the tub and begging Daddy to allow her to take a shower with him.
“I didn’t have a safe way to hold you and wash you while you were asleep, so a bath was the best bet.
But we can go to a shower if you want to,” he said.
“Daddy also didn’t know if you were going to wake up in big or Little headspace, and I didn’t want to take a chance.
Are you more comfortable with taking a shower? ”
“I would rather take a shower,” Raelynn said.
“Then that’s what we’ll do. Would you ever want to take a bath?”
She shrugged. “Maybe if I had already taken a shower before and there were bubbles in it. I don’t know. I’m a little weird when it comes to cleanliness and how I feel about it and what I want done.”
“Did anything happen to make you that way?” he asked.
She played with her hands. “I thought about it when we were together in high school, but it wasn’t as bad or in my head as much.
It wasn’t until I was with Edmund that he made me sit in bathwater after getting extremely dirty.
I had to use that water to clean myself for the next several days.
I just don’t want to sit in anything that isn’t clean or wash myself with anything that isn’t fresh water. ”
“I’m going to kill him if I ever see him,” Daddy growled as he stood up, pulling Rae up with him. “He doesn’t get to do that to you without any consequences. He’s going to pay for every single thing he did to you, good or bad.”
“There weren’t many good things,” she mumbled.
“Don’t tell me that,” Daddy said. “Don’t tell me that and make me want to go out and find him on my own. Because it’s taking everything in me not to have Reaper watch over you while I go out and do just that.”
Daddy wrapped a towel around her before he unplugged the tub and let all the water drain.
“I don’t know if I want to do this,” she whispered, getting nervous.
“What’s wrong, Little Fairy?” Daddy asked.
“I don’t want to have to take this off,” she whispered as she pointed to her cochlear implant.
“Have you taken it off every time you’ve showered?” He tilted his head.
I thought he said I had to.”
“That’s why your showers have been really fast?” Daddy inquired.
She looked down at her feet and nodded. She had been terrified that something was going to happen while she took a shower, so she had made them super quick, never taking her time to enjoy it.
“You don’t have to take it off,” Daddy explained. “The doctor said that since it is the latest model, the external processor is waterproof. I made sure you wouldn’t have to take it off if you didn’t want to in the shower. I wanted you to be comfortable when doing anything.”
Her mouth fell open as she looked at him.
“Did you not hear him say that?” Daddy asked. “I guess that day was really busy and full on. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner. I wish you had also come to me to ask and not made yourself uncomfortable. But don’t worry, Daddy is going to do better.”
“It’s not your fault,” she replied. “It’s mine, and only mine. I didn’t want to ask and hear that I wouldn’t be able to wear it, so I just took it off. I also zoned out any information he gave that, and I have been too lazy to ask you about it.”
She wanted to know what the doctor had said she could or couldn’t do, but every time she thought about it, she got super overwhelmed and chickened out.
“It’s okay, Little Fairy. I bet you were feeling really overwhelmed about it as well, right?
” he asked, and she nodded. “How about this, Daddy is going to tell you something every single day, so you learn something new. And if you have any questions, let me know,” Daddy said. “Does that sound okay?”
“Okay,” she whispered.
Daddy kissed the top of her head. “Such a good girl for Daddy. Now, let’s take a shower and get you all washed up.”
He helped her into the shower, Rae sighing in relief when the hot water hit her skin. Oh, this was glorious.
“Do you want Daddy to wash you?” he asked. “Or do you want to do it?”
“Can I wash you, too?” Raelynn asked, stepping on her tippy-toes to look at him.
“Are you sure you want to do that?”
She quickly nodded. “Yes, I do.”
She wanted to set the tone so it might lead to something else.
“Okay, you can clean Daddy, but not before we get you cleaned up. So, do you want to answer my question now?” He raised an eyebrow.
“I guess you can clean me,” she said, looking away from him.
Maybe she should have offered to clean herself. Raelynn didn’t know how she was going to survive him touching her.
Daddy chuckled. “That didn’t sound so confident. What are you worried about?”
She shook her head. “Nothing.”
Daddy placed his finger under her chin to make her look at him. “Lies. We don’t do that here.”
“Fine. I don’t think I’ll survive with having you touch me,” she mumbled toward the end. “I have so much pent-up frustration that even a single touch from you will make me come. I can’t believe I just said that out loud. Can the ground just swallow me up, so I don’t have to face you any longer?”
Raelynn covered her face with her hands and took several deep breaths. She wanted to hop out of the shower right now, but she didn’t want to get out while she was still dirty.
“And you think I won’t be able to survive when you’re touching me?” Daddy asked.
“You seem pretty composed,” she muttered. “Always telling me no whenever I wanted pleasure, so yeah, I think you are going to survive when I clean you.”
Though thinking about it, Raelynn didn’t know whether she was going to be able to survive that. To feel him in her hands and try to have some self-control and not touch herself… yeah, that wasn’t going to happen. She was going to be a big turned-on mess, and she didn’t know what to do.
Just the thought of touching him was doing things to her.
She groaned and closed her eyes.
“I’m not. I’m holding on by a thread right now.” Daddy’s voice dropped an octave. “You don’t think that the past several months haven’t been hard on me?”
“It doesn’t seem to have been,” she replied.
“It’s been hard. Do you want to know how many cold showers I’ve taken? Too many to fucking count. You have me so wired that I’m worried my dick is going to fall off with how many times I’ve had to jack off. You are doing this to me. I’m always hard around you,” Daddy said.
Raelynn looked at Daddy in shock. She had thought he was the most well-composed person who didn’t want her at all. She thought he didn’t find her attractive and only wanted her Little side.
“After I put you to bed, sometimes I have to sneak off in the middle of the night because I’m so hard it hurts, and I need to take care of myself.
Having you sleep next to me is the best thing, but also absolute torture when you snuggle up to me, putting your ass right on my cock. ” Daddy took a step toward her.
Her cheeks turned bright red as she looked at his cock.
She couldn’t lie. When she was about to fall asleep, she moved her body so she was pressed up against it.
It helped her feel safe and reminded her that he was there to protect her, but she also loved feeling his body against hers, even if it turned her on.
“Let’s get to washing each other, then,” Daddy said.