Chapter 24
Love
When I don’t hear any sound but the water for one hour, I decide to come in.
It’s not like I haven’t seen him naked before.
I’m scared he’s hurt and hiding it. “Dom?” I call when I see Dominik stand against the wall of the shower, his fists clenched leaning against the blood-filled wall.
“Dom?” I try again and nothing. I move towards him, my legs shaking, not because I fear him, yet because I fear what he might do to himself in this state.
“Dominik, it’s me, Love. Let’s get you out of here-”
I don’t have time to reply, Dominik holds me lethargically between him and the wall.
“I failed you,” Dominik whispers his eyes fixated on the wall.
He’s about to punch the wall when I put my hand in front of it, Dominik’s hands hit mine, fast but not strongly.
My knuckles hit the wall, and it hurts. “What the hell were you thinking, cherry?” Dominik asks, his eyes full of concern.
He checks my hand for injuries and takes a deep relieved sigh when he sees it intact.
“You’re back,” I try to hug him but he pushes me away. “Dom, I didn’t want you to hurt yourself more,” I say and he looks at his hands.
“Fuck,” he curses under his breath, going out of the shower and grabbing some gauze to clean his half-open skin.
“Fuck indeed,” I say and take my clothes off, not to flood the floor with water, before getting out of the shower cubicle.
I hug Dominik by his side before taking the gauze from his hands and pressing it against his knuckles with some antiseptic.
“You don’t remember it?” I ask Dominik while I’m bandaging his wounds.
I feel a sadistic mixed feeling, when I notice Dominik’s face isn’t hiding the pain. He’s back. The Dominik I love is back.
“I remember feeling angry and getting in the shower. The only thing I remember after is almost hurting you. Never do that again. Let me fucking destroy myself if needed, but don’t come along,” Dominik says and I see he doesn’t get it.
“You don’t get it, do you?” I start and take a deep breath, Dominik looks intently at me as if he’s trying to take the words out of my mind.
“If you hurt yourself, you’re hurting me!
You and me? There’s no difference. If you laugh, I laugh.
If you cry, I cry. If you try to destroy yourself, I’ll come along, I can promise you that. There’s no reason to stay”
“You have your brother, your father, and a group of friends that love you. You’re everything I have and I failed you today,” Dominik says and I clean a tear from his cheek, and kiss the place the tear was at.
“You didn’t fail me. There was nothing you could have done.
Liot has been thinking about this for years, it’s nothing but natural that he has some tricks up his sleeve.
You saved Aiden today, and you kept me safe.
Karl didn’t let anything happen to me,” I state and Dominik sighs in relief.
I’m sure it’s because of what I said but I also finished bandaging his hands and they automatically glued themselves to my back and waist.
“I so fucking love you, ma Vie,” Dominik says and I laugh when he glues our bodies together, his boxers, stretched rock hard.
“Does everything I do turn you on?” I ask, he closes his eyes and nods.
“I love you too, my chaos,” I bring my hands to his neck and kiss him.
When I’m with him nothing seems scary, forced or embarrassing.
Everything feels just right. There’s no space for doubt or shame.
Dominik takes those feelings away, no! He doesn’t just do that, he chases those feelings and destroys them.
He destroys them and leaves, happiness, love, assurance and lust in its place.
Dominik lifts me to the bathroom counter, I lock my legs around his waist, moaning against his lips when he moves his hips in circles against my crotch. “Dom, don’t-”
“Shh,” Dominik tries to shush me and he succeeds I let him. At this point I have no choice, he has a hold on me, always did, always will.
As I feel my body heat up, Dominik’s warmth against me, I’m trying to grab any and every hold of him I can. When I finally get hold of his hair, he lets me.
“Undress,” Dominik commands biting the curve of my neck. I for once give in control. It’s something I really like about Dominik. I can give him total control and he won’t make me feel bad. He makes me feel good. Mental and physically. I think he doesn’t even try, we just click.
I take off my bra first, Dominik basically eating me with his eyes. I almost feel his touch, and it isn’t even near.
I slide my panties down my legs and away from us keeping my eyes locked on Dominik. He slowly takes off his shorts. Not breaking eye contact either, I break it once to look at him. I have said this before but I’ll keep repeating it. Dom is perfect. If perfection were a person, it would be Dominik.
His muscles tense as he looks my way, his hardness swelling has he moves towards me.
“Poor waste of a perfectly fuckable mouth,” he whispers in my ear before dragging me back near the sink and making me sit there.
His lips are always on me. My mouth, my neck, my breasts and back up, in my temples, lingering in my lips.
I never thought I’d be turned on by the words he just said.
But Dominik has that magic on me. Anything and everything he says can be a turn-on, depending on the timing.
“Stop talking, start fuck-ing,” I say a small break when he first enters me.
“Like this?” he asks going slow and tender.
My body grows wild at his touch. “Or more like this?” he asks tuning up the rhythm and strength.
He groans, when I moan. “We have a winner,” he says before lifting me and carrying me to the bed.
Bending me over. “Who said the perfect caring Love likes it rough and painful,” Dominik says before thrusting back inside me.
“Who said you’d settle for me,” that offers me a hard aching slap on my ass. My skin is burning there. And when I look back Dominik seems furious.
“Take that fucking expression off your mouth. I didn’t settle for you. I chose you. I’m irrevocably bound to you. I will, love and own every piece of you. And I’m going to fuck”
Thrust.
“Every doubt you possibly have”
Thrust.
“About how much I care for you”
Thrust.
“Out of your system,” Dominik ends and I’m squirming for a release that comes when he brushes his hands against my hips, grasping and pulling me closer and closer.
Going further in, and hitting spots I didn’t know I had.
“You’re not supposed to be enjoying it, this much.
Or do you like being called off? Is that a new kink? ” Dominik asks between breaths.
I can feel him getting closer and closer, and when I think he’s going to fill me, he pushes through and endures, thrusting like a madman and grasping my hair back in a position I’m obliged to look at him. And what a damned vision. The devil to my angel. My perdition and obsession.
“I’m going to break you,” Dominik says and starts to slow down.
“Don’t stop,” at this point I have to deem myself insane. Every breath, every kiss, every touch, is just like I’ve reached my own perfectly twisted heaven. If my father ever hears us, we’re dead. Well Dominik is. I’m just going to be a nun from then on.
“Do not say that to me,” he whispers against my ear before biting leaving a hickey on my neck, another one. He likes me all painted in his favourite style, him. His marks, they’re not just for the others, they’re a constant reminder of him, a reminder to me I’m his. As if that was needed.
Dominik slows down his pace and I pick it up for him. In his eyes, vicious energy that wants to bite all of me. So I kiss him and bite his lip as hard as he usually bites me, as provocatively as I can be.
I don’t need to say a word, or do anything else, Dominik pulls me on top of him, “Dom,” we’ve never done this position. He’s always in control. Now the control is mine.
“Breathe, Vie,” he says genuinely concerned.
Did I stop breathing? Am I that awful in fucking terms?
“I’ll guide you,” Dominik whispers and I hear his phone ring, or mine, or maybe both.
Yet I can’t even think about it or anyone else.
Dominik’s hands grab my hips, and I start picking up the pace, bouncing up and down alongside his erection.
When I slightly bend forward, Dominik grunts and for a second I think I hurt him, but no, it’s pleasure. “You’re a natural, Vie”
Vie. My name in his mouth sounds different, sounds right.
“Say that again,” I say, my breathing erratic, Dominik is holding onto my thigh so hard I know it will leave a mark, but I don’t care. The tingling of his touch, the way it lingers, makes it worth it, makes it feel good. Good, what an understatement.
“Ma Vie,” Dominik moans out and this time we come together, his sex drive is insane, but our energies match, we always end together. Dominik gently gets me to his side. “Never put yourself in danger for me or anyone else again,” he asks and I shake my head.
“Never put yourself in danger again and I won’t have to,” I tell him and kiss the tip of his nose as he does countless times to me. “Are we going back to safe times? Peace times?”
“I’m working on it. I promise you, the world will be safe for you and our family in the future. No fucker will mess with them”
“Oh, I’m sure of that. Do you ever think of it?” I ask Dominik unsure if he even wants kids. They seem to annoy him on the streets all the time.
“It? Family? Children? With you? All the time,” Dominik says and I bring my hands to his face.
“I know you’re a family person but you don’t even seem to like kids”
“I’ll love ours. They’re a piece of you,” Dominik says and I seal our lips.
“And you,” I whisper against his minty-tasting lips.
“I hope they take after you, they’ll suffer less,” I laugh, hard.
“Not sure. They’ll be emotionally unstable,” I say and pinch my nose, Dominik bites me.
“They’ll be human and not me. That’s something I’m excited about. Making the world perfect for them so they can have a life different from what mine was if they choose to. And you’re perfect the way you are, stop focusing on the one thing you think is a flaw. It’s your greatest advantage-”
“I don’t see it that way,” I interrupt.
“Do you want to know how I see it?” Dominik asks and I nod.
“I see it as every person or animal connecting to you, not because you’re nice or tiny, but because you have this loving energy that flows from you and is contagious to everyone and everything around you.
That’s also part of the reason sometimes I’d rather keep you in this room-”
“You want to lock me here?-”
“Not the point. Your emotions are contagious, you’re all light. And all I’ve ever seen is darkness. It’s like I’ve been blind all this time, and now I can finally see something other than pain and death,” I healed him?
“Dominik, are you confirming I healed you?” I question and Dominik nods.
“I am,” Dominik says and it’s definite, more than a marriage proposal or holy binding.
“We’ve healed each other!” I sooth, and there’s a knock on the door.
“Are you decent?” Josh asks from behind the closed door.
“What do you want?” Dominik asks moving from beneath me, kissing my cheek and putting his boxers back on.
“I need to talk to Love,” me?
I put on my night robe, slippers, and move towards the door, Dominik stays seated on the bed, giving me space. “What’s up- Josh?”
“Dad’s gone,” no. “The hit in the head caused internal bleeding, he’s alive but he’s brain dead. I won’t extend his suffering,” I killed my father.
“I killed dad?” I exclaim in question form. Josh hugs me immediately and I thank him. My legs give in. “I thought I was protecting him-”
“I know Love. He knows it too,” Josh says and I look behind him and see everyone gathered. “Dominik can you help-”
“Yes, I got her. We’ll be in the infirmary in ten,” Dominik says and I let go of Josh, my hands freeze in the air midway to Dominik.
“I killed him. I killed my-my- m- fa-ther,” I say and the sobbing is too much to talk or control, or breathe. Dominik just holds me for five minutes, on his lap, seated on the bed. On the sheets I lied while my father was fighting for his life.
I get up and dress myself. Dominik tries to help but I can’t touch him, or anyone. I break people. I kill everyone I love the most.