11. Chapter Eleven #3
“Oh,” I cry out, arching my hips into his face. I never knew something like this could feel so good.
Nikolai locks his eyes with mine as he licks my pussy all over. From my nub to my folds to my entrance. My inner walls clench down at the memory of his finger inside of me. I need more.
“Nik,” I whimper.
As if he somehow knows what I need, he plunges his tongue into my entrance. It’s not as filling as his finger but it’s still just as good. Different. More light.
He thrusts his tongue in and out of me. My hips buck into his face with a wild franticness I never knew I had inside of myself.
“Please,” I moan. “I need more. Please!” I sound so desperate and unhinged. I’m scaring myself. For a moment, even Nikolai looks worried but he doesn’t stop this.
He pulls his mouth from my pussy and inserts his finger deep inside of me. My inner walls clamp down hard.
“Oh,” I cry out, bucking my hips hard into his hand.
“You needed this, sweetheart? You needed me to fuck you with my finger?” He thrusts it harder and harder into me. The pain mixed with pleasure is the closest I have ever gotten to heaven.
“Yes,” I sob. “Yes!”
“Then scream for me. Scream my name.” He bends back down and licks me as he inserts his finger deeper and keeps it there. Just there so I can feel all of it.
Nikolai pulls his finger from me in one fast motion, making me moan. I’m a sweaty mess right now and I don’t care. I just need this more than anything. More than I need to breathe even.
He captures my nub with his mouth again and licks it over and over and over. I feel like I’m losing my mind in the best way possible.
My hands tear at my shirt and I practically rip it off me before I get rid of my bra. Clothes feel too restrictive right now. I cup my breasts, squeezing them hard. The pain makes a flare of arousal shoot through me, straight to my toes.
Nikolai eats me out with more intensity as he watches me cup my breasts. “Fuck,” he breathes out before licking me from my entrance to my nub.
My hips have a mind of their own as they thrust into his face. I just need to forget. To forget. Forget.
Nikolai grips my waist tightly with his large hands but I need more.
“Hurt me,” I moan. “Please.”
He flips me onto my stomach and spanks my ass so hard, my scream echoes through the room.
“You want to be treated like a bad girl right now? Is that it?” He spanks me in quick succession over and over again before grabbing my hips and raising them high.
He bends down and licks my pussy from this angle. His fingers stretch my ass wide.
“Nikolai,” I moan and gasp and pant. It’s all too much. What is even happening? Am I really letting him do this to me?
But it all feels too good to care.
He presses his finger into my ass, just barely, but enough so that it hurts. I moan louder. His lips work my nub like magic. Flicking it over and over again. My body feels like it’s a live wire and anything that touches me will light me up with electricity.
Nikolai pulls back and spanks me again.
That makes me collapse on the bed as my orgasm rips its way through my body. He watches me with a dark expression as I shiver and breathe heavily from my release.
Without a word, he rolls me onto my back and gazes down at me. I don’t hide my body. I want him to look at me. All of me.
He bends down and captures one of my nipples in his mouth. I arch into him, needing more despite all that we just did. He kisses up to my neck before his lips find mine. The kiss is passionate and hot and desperate and frantic.
Nikolai pulls back and looks into my eyes. “I’m glad you’re not hurt. I’m so fucking glad I found you.”
“Are you still mad at me?” I hate how pathetic I sound. This is what Nikolai has turned me into. A woman desperate for his attention when I never cared about those things before.
His eyes soften. “I am not mad at you, baby. I’m angry at myself. I didn’t know what Lev was going to do.”
“Are you going to kill him for me?”
He goes still for a long moment. “Is that what you want? For me to kill him?”
“Don’t you want him dead too?”
“Yes,” he admits. “I just didn’t know you would want me to kill anyone. I thought you were against that.”
“I was. You scared me. You still do in some ways. But you also saved my life.”
“I will always save you. You’re my wife.”
I set my hand over his heart. He’s fully clothed while I’m naked. This game Nikolai and I have been playing has been exciting but is also exhausting. “Stop holding back from me. I don’t want that anymore.”
“Are you giving me permission to fully claim you? Because I will, Lana. But you need to know what you’re asking. I won’t just claim your body. I’ll claim all of you. You have to give me all of you and trust me.”
“You’ll take care of me?” I whisper as a tear slips down my eye.
“I’ll take care of you. Just give in to me. I’ll handle it like I always do.”
I shiver. The way Nikolai handles things is terrifying but I need his comfort right now. I need him. All of him.
“I want you to claim all of me,” I answer, sealing my fate.