Chapter Seven
Kelsey
Well, goddamn it.
Did that really happen last night? Seeing Beck sitting on my couch did things to my body and my mind that I never expected.
There is such a fine line between anger and lust and I pushed it to the limit last night.
I have never wanted him so badly and it took everything in me to turn him away, but the past is not so distant a memory.
It still hurts like hell, and the last thing I want to re-experience is losing him all over again.
Even though every fiber of my being was craving him, needing him, wanting him.
Arguing with him turned me on more than I can even fathom.
My panties were soaked and all my desire pooling in one place, a place that only Beck’s cock could fill.
When he pulled me into his arms, I ground myself against his leg trying to soothe the ache that developed between mine.
His piercing blue eyes connected with mine as images of him bending me over my couch and fucking me, hard and fast flooded my mind.
It was all too much. I knew I needed to push him away; I needed to protect myself.
It’s seven in the morning and I’m awake, I have been for the last three hours. I haven’t slept well in weeks. Ever since this shit went down with Jason, my life has been in disarray. Now coupled with Beck returning, I can’t seem to shut my brain down.
He looked far better than I could have even imagined. The pictures I found on Google did not do him justice. To see that beautiful face and those gorgeous eyes; his body, strong and firm, full of muscle, but somehow still the boy I remember, the body I knew so well.
It was like we hadn’t even missed a day together, him remembering everything about me, everything that turned me on.
The way his hand slipped under my tank, the way his fingers trailed along my skin leaving it hot and burning from his touch.
And when he took my nipple in his mouth it was like a direct line to my already wet center.
To feel him inside me, to have him fuck me and end the need that began to take over was overwhelming, but when I heard his voice, when he called me baby, something in me flipped and all I could remember was him leaving me.
All the pain, the hurt, the tears came back to me, and I knew I needed to stop it before it went any further.
I roll over and groan at the thought of having to get out of bed because I’d honestly love to hide out here until Beck decides to give up and fuck off back to the city. I figure he’ll be gone soon, because he can’t get what he came here for—Me. I’m not his anymore and neither is my body.
After taking far too long to shower and eat breakfast, I’m finally ready to head into work.
I send Finn a text to let him know I’ll be leaving in a few, since we agreed I wouldn’t go anywhere without giving him a heads up.
I get a quick text back telling me to give him ten minutes and he’ll be over.
I give him some time, but grow tired of waiting, so I pack up my things, whistle for Bella, who is still obsessing over that squirrel and we both head out to the car.
Just as I’m stepping out the front door, Beck is climbing out of his truck, which is parked in my driveway.
Of course he looks amazing. That boy could make a fucking snowsuit look hot.
Dressed in an old t-shirt and a pair of well-worn jeans, it’s hard to look away and even harder to tell my body to stop betraying me.
He leans back against the front of the truck, his arms crossed over his chest as he flashes me his cheeky little smile.
It was that one thing, no matter how mad I was, that got me to forgive him.
That fucking smile, those perfect teeth; all of it together with his eyes and that face, I was powerless.
He’d call me ‘baby’ and that would be the end of it.
Something about the way he said it, the tone of his voice, the way he looked at me; it all made me feel like I was the only girl in the world.
The only girl he would ever love. But in the end, it was a lie and I won’t fall for his game again.
“Are you fucking kidding me?” I mumble as I stomp to my car not even acknowledging his presence. Guess he can’t take a hint.
“Kelsey, wait,” he calls as I unlock my car. I’m not sure what I plan to do since he’s blocking me in. Maybe I can just sit in my car and act like he’s not here. I’m being a little childish and I realize that.
I turn to face him just as Finn pulls in behind Beck’s truck.
As he’s walking up the driveway I hear him chuckle as he shakes his head.
He walks right past Beck and greets me with a kiss on the cheek.
But it’s that second when I see something in Beck change.
His jaw tenses and he uncrosses his arms, standing up a little straighter now.
I smirk at him when I realize he’s jealous.
“Morning, Kelsey,” Finn says. “You ready?”
“I would be, but this dick has me blocked in,” I say as I thumb in Beck’s direction. “Maybe you could help me out with that, Chief?”
Before Finn can respond Beck is jumping down his throat.
“What the fuck’s going on here? You trying to steal my girl?” he accuses and I laugh, but Finn’s face is stoic.
“Your girl?” I question as I roll my eyes and let out a huff. “Please.”
Finn doesn’t seem to see the humor in it and something about Beck’s comment pisses him off.
“Listen asshole. Life goes on. You think when you left that we all stood around waiting for you to make your triumphant return? Well, fuck you and have a little more respect for me than that. Kelsey’s always been your girl, but you hurt us both and we found a friendship in hating your ass. Get over yourself.”
Finn storms back to his car, leaving both Beck and me standing somewhat dumbfounded in my driveway.
“Did you really think I’d hook up with your brother?” I ask incredulously as Beck looks me up and down.
“No,” he says sheepishly and I finally think I’ve gotten to him, but I should know better. “Finn’s a dick, who knows what he’d try without me around.”
“Oh, for fuck’s sake, Beck, stop making this a pissing contest. You fucking win.
You’re the big city detective and he got the life you never wanted anyway.
Grow up.” My hands go up in the air out of frustration and the ridiculousness of all of this.
I can’t keep going round and round with him; fighting over every petty thing he finds fault in.
“Beck, I gotta get to work,” I say and I can hear the exhaustion in my voice.
“I know. I’m taking you to work today.” He stops and fumbles over his words slightly and I wait, but what he says next shocks the shit out of me. “I’m sorry,” he utters awkwardly.
“What?”
“I’m sorry.”
“Sorry for what?” I demand, suddenly angry again. “Sorry, you left me ten years ago? Sorry you missed both my mom and dad’s funerals? Sorry you fucked up my life? Tell me, I’d love to know.” By now my voice has risen to a near yell and Beck is standing directly in front of me.
“Can you give me ten minutes?” he asks, reaching for me just like he did last night. I back away. He can’t touch me. If he does, I know it’s over.
“No. I have to get to work.”
“Then I’m coming with you. I didn’t come back here to fight with you. I came back to make sure nothing happens to you and right now, leaving you alone isn’t something I’m comfortable with.”
“Fine.” Since Beck’s arrival I haven’t given much thought to this whole situation with Jason, but it just became real all over again. He’s the reason Beck is here and I’d be lying if I said that Beck didn’t make me feel safer.
I park my car around back and Beck does the same, but it takes him a few seconds longer to follow me in through the door. When I look back over my shoulder, he’s taking the place in. He looks around with a look in his eyes that almost breaks my heart, but it’s what he says next that actually does.
“The place looks great, Kels. Your dad would be really proud of you.” I swallow hard and choke back the feeling of tears, but there’s no stopping them when his voice turns quiet and he says, “I’m really proud of you.”
I can’t look at him, so I head through the door putting on a straight face, ready to start my day. Bella trots in ahead of me and goes right for her usual spot behind the desk.
As soon as I enter the lobby, there’s Erin in that stupid chair, scowling at me. I forgot I was supposed to meet her this morning for coffee.
“Sorry,” I say, and she’s anything but forgiving.
“Nope, not today, girly. You know what today was?” she demands. “I’ll tell you. It’s the day that the bakery starts making those cream cheese filled muffins and I missed it. I missed it because of your ass.”
“I know, I’m so sorry. I swear I’ll make it up to you. I’ll have a dozen delivered tomorrow morning and you and I can chat and you can eat till your heart’s content.”
She begins to cave a little and I smile at her.
“Fine,” she concedes. “But you have to promise—” Erin stops suddenly and her eyes grow wide.
When I turn around Beck is standing behind me and he closes the distance between us and puts his hand on the small of my back.
I can feel the warmth through my shirt and when he slips his fingers under my shirt and trails them against my bare skin, I feel like I’m on fire.
“Erin,” I manage to choke out. “You remember Beck, right?”
Before I know it, Erin is yanking me by the wrist, away from Beck’s hand and away from the overwhelming feeling that has taken over. She pulls me into my office and slams the door.
“Fuck the cream cheese muffins!” she shouts. “Tell me you fucked him!”
“Erin!”