36. Lucy
CHAPTER 36
Lucy
It would never be enough.
This heat was nothing like anything I’d ever experienced before. I had no idea if this was what it was like for all omegas, or just me, but it felt like my brain was literally melting along with my body.
I was aware of what was happening, and I could feel every tiny thing as if someone had slipped me ecstasy, but there was a strange detachment too. It was as if the logical, rational side of my brain had been ejected from my body and forced to watch as I sucked Cassius down while Liam rammed into me from behind.
But it felt so fucking good I didn’t even care.
That awful fucking pain was gone and I didn’t feel empty the way I had before. My body was finally clenching around something it desperately needed instead of nothing, and the fact that something happened to be attached to Liam was just a bonus.
His pheromones were better than ecstasy. They set every nerve ending on fire and pushed me to orgasm over and over. I’d never had so many before, or so close together. Fuck, just his tongue penetrating me had been enough for that first one. Almost like my body had been waiting for the smallest excuse to orgasm.
And now I had the taste of Cassius’s cum on my tongue. It tasted like green apples, making my mouth water even more. Liam’s orange and vanilla filled my nose, and the scent changed slightly the more Cassius let his pheromones out.
Together, they were the most decadent dessert and my throat felt gloriously used.
When Cassius looked down at me like this, I couldn’t help but think how beautifully cruel he looked – like the god of war himself. My very own Ares and Adonis. Would they kill each other for me just like the myth, or would they find a way to make this work?
I may be fucking gone – all hopped up on the pheromones and pleasure, but a small part of me knew they were barely holding on to whatever was keeping them from slaughtering each other.
But the sensation of Liam’s knot was quickly erasing that tiny voice in my head warning me this was going to be a problem until all I could think about was how good it felt to be fucked by a legacy alpha. Two knots? I’d always known it was a thing, but Jesus. Experiencing it was ruining me.
Even though I was so full I felt like I could burst, I needed more and somehow…
Somehow, Cassius knew.
“It’s not enough,” I confessed, almost afraid to tell him the truth, but the hunger in his eyes gave me hope .
Hope that maybe these two could actually make this insatiable heat finally stop. Maybe they really could give me what I so desperately needed without killing each other – without treating me like I was glass.
It just didn’t feel the same when they were gentle.
“Do you understand what more means?” Cassius asked, his grip on my chin tightening enough I winced. There’d definitely be bruises later, but I wanted those bruises .
I wanted them to break me until there was nothing left other than the pieces they wanted for themselves. I wanted their teeth to tear into me until even I could taste the blood on the air.
For the first time since I perfumed, I felt like I understood what it was to be an omega.
I wasn’t born to stand on my own. A solitary life was slowly killing me, but up until now, there hadn’t been a single person who could give me the more I needed so badly. I’d been starving my whole fucking life, and maybe – just maybe these two could feed me until I was satiated.
Being an omega meant I was made to be this way for an alpha – that I was made to handle someone like Liam when he needed me most – I could calm him in ways no one else could. I was made to turn this cruel, blue-eyed monster into my very own guard dog because he was looking at me like he desperately needed me to hold on to him.
Cassius was starving just like I was – desperate to be loved for what he was, not what he pretended to be.
“ Lucy .” My name in that deep growl of his made me shiver and Liam groaned against my neck, making me press back into him again. “I asked you a question.”
“Knot me,” I practically begged, reaching for Cas’s delicious waist.
Would the rest of him feel just as good as his cock? Would it taste just as sweet and tart? How would I even fit that monstrous thing inside me when Liam was already stretching me so far I was pretty sure there was no going back? They would carve their bodies into mine and my flesh would never forget what they’d made me into.
Was it going to change me forever, or just for tonight?
“You’re going to break,” Liam warned, grabbing my throat to yank me up against his chest, exposing me to Cassius. “Do you see how big he is? You swallowed him down and yet it’s still so hard, isn’t it?”
Now the only thing I could think about was tasting that sweet tartness again, swallowing down more of him so he would fill me up in one way or another. How much would I have to swallow before it leaked out of my mouth the same way it would leak out of my pussy when Liam’s knot finally loosened enough to release me?
I wanted more – wanted to feel it pressing into the back of my throat again until I choked. That sticky sweet precum that was like icing was just too delicious to resist and I reached for him, half out of my mind again with this need that just wouldn’t stop.
“Jesus, Lucy.” Cassius still sounded like the god of war even with his voice strained like that, as if he were holding himself back, but that was the last thing I wanted.
I needed more .
“I want you to break me,” I tried to tell him. Maybe if they understood that I didn’t mind, they’d give it to me. Maybe if they understood that’s what I wanted more than anything , they’d stop worrying so much.
“Please.” I reached for Cassius again, but this time my hand was stretched towards his face. Were there any traces of his cum left on his lips from when he’d kissed me? Could I taste it if he slid his tongue into my mouth again?
I watched as too many emotions to identify warred in those beautiful, blue eyes until finally something else rose up to overtake them all. Something I recognized.
Relief.
I’d seen the same look on Liam’s face when I’d kissed him, easing his internal struggle with something so simple I still couldn’t really believe it, but he was inside me now like I’d hoped he would be.
Maybe with Cas filling up the rest of me, it would be enough.
Pressing his cheek to my palm, Cas looked at me with half-lidded eyes, still so skittish despite the hard cock in his hand with the knot at the base already swelling .
I pulled him toward me, shivering when Liam’s hand slid down my stomach toward my clit, so slow and gentle I almost screamed in frustration.
Then his nails dug into my flesh, creating red lines and I gasped at the sensation, my pussy pulsing in response. Green apples settled on my tongue from the air I breathed in and time slowed as Cas got closer and closer.
“I want you to knot me, Cas. Knot me at the same time Liam does. Fill me up until I break. Maybe then I’ll bleed.” All I could see was blue and it was too much. My gaze dropped to those perfect lips. Not too big or too small. They were a dark red that always caught my attention – complementing his dark hair. “Tear me apart, if you can. I need it to hurt.”
“You’re killing me, sweetheart,” Cas growled, his lips finally meeting mine just as Liam’s fingers found my clit and a broken moan escaped me.
The way Cas grabbed my throat in response to that sound had tears pricking my eyes from the pressure. His hand was so big I could feel his fingertips pressing into the back of my neck as he squeezed, reducing my air supply and blood flow while still being extremely careful of my trachea.
Sharp teeth pricked at my lips, his tongue sliding into my mouth in a way that made me feel like he was stealing this kiss from me, but he didn’t have to do that. He could just take it.
“Take whatever you want,” I whispered, my thoughts turning to words as I wrapped my arms around his neck to pull him even closer.
When his bare chest pressed against mine, all the tension left my body. No matter how good Liam made me feel, it just hadn’t been enough to make my body relax until now. Two different sets of very strong alpha pheromones swirled around me, their scents evolving now that they’d been exposed to mine, but it didn’t feel like two.
It felt like one.
Oranges and apples blended together, their tartness eased only slightly by the vanilla, and then the sandalwood and cedar deepened them, but it was my own pheromones that created this chemical reaction.
Two alphas pressed against me, surrounding me completely – with their bodies, their pheromones…they were suffocating me, but it felt like I could finally breathe.
Just like that moment in the restaurant, I could breathe and it was my turn to steal Cas’s air as Liam’s fingers brought me right to the edge, making my body tremble as it tightened all over again – like he knew exactly what to do despite this being our first time together.
Cas’s massive cock pressed against my stomach, teasing me just as much as Liam’s fingers. It flexed against my skin in a pulsing rhythm that made me desperate to have it inside, but for whatever reason he was taking his time and it was driving me insane .
When he pulled back, I made this embarrassing little sound of protest, but Cas rubbed his thumb across my bottom lip in reassurance, looking at me like I was somehow precious to him.
I was never going to be able to come back from this.
They were going to ruin me, and even when the haze of this overwhelming heat faded, I would never be able to forget this moment or the way he was looking at me right now – the way Liam had looked at me when I’d kissed him first.
As if I’d given him something he thought he’d never get to have and it held so much meaning he might even cry, but Liam would never cry.
Maybe he would if it was raining.
Just like that boy.
“Every time I look at you, I want to hold you close,” Cas growled, gripping my ass hard to make his point. “I want to make you feel safe as I tear you apart, Lucy. Is that even possible?”
I wrapped a hand around his cock and pressed it to my clit, forcing Liam’s fingers to brush against that delicious piercing at the tip. “I feel safe now . So, break me already. I can’t fucking take it anymore.”
Liam slid out of me as his knots deflated, the sounds obscene as he literally popped out of my pussy, making me cry out at the excruciating emptiness.
“Shh, it’s okay,” Liam reassured, his fingers replacing his cock to keep everything inside and to give me something to fill the emptiness, even if it was only temporary. “Let us prove to you we can do this right, baby. I need you to want this again and again, okay? So, let’s do this right.”
I nodded, trusting them completely despite how little I knew about them. Maybe I shouldn’t, but my omega instincts were finally, finally talking to me in a way I could understand, and they were telling me these two were it. These two alphas would take care of me in the way I needed.
They would make me cry and bleed, and I knew that no matter how many times they did, it would never be enough.