Chapter 17 Tumy
Pressure on my chest forced my eyes to open.
“Hey, buddy. Are you hungry?” I rubbed the top of Sparrow’s head. He pushed his head toward my chin. “Give me a minute.” I tried to whisper because I didn’t want to wake Major.
Sparrow jumped down, and when I looked to the side of me, Major wasn’t there. I stretched and felt that his side of the bed was cold and looked like it hadn’t even been touched.
The last thing I remembered was Major telling me he would come to bed later, but I guess he never did.
I didn’t want to read too much into it, because maybe he fell asleep on the couch.
Deep down inside, I knew that wasn’t the case.
Major had acted weird toward me the night before.
We didn’t cuddle while we watched movies like we had any other night.
Hell, we hardly even talked. The vibes were just off between us, but neither of us bothered to address it.
I wanted to ask him for his phone number to see if we could talk once we left, but I was too afraid he would reject me. If he wanted to communicate, he would have asked to.
I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. The living room was quiet, so I wasn’t sure if Major was still even here or not.
When I reached the bathroom, I noticed his toothbrush on the counter, so I figured maybe he hadn’t left. I wasn’t prepared to face him, because who knew how things would turn out.
It was my last day in the cabin, but I planned on staying inside the room until it was time to go.
“Maybe I can go out back and take some pictures.”
I did what I needed to do in the bathroom, then went into the kitchen to feed Sparrow and find myself something quick to eat.
I peeked at the couch and found Major sleeping with one hand behind his head and the other inside his pants.
A shiver ran up my spine when I thought about the things he did to me with the weapon in his pants.
Major was going to make it hard for me to have sex with anyone else.
I didn’t even want to think about meeting someone else, let alone have sex with them.
I refused to have disappointing sex again. I’d rather be celibate.
In the kitchen, I quietly fed Sparrow, then made myself a quick bowl of oatmeal. It felt weird not fixing breakfast for Major and me or finding him in the kitchen cooking for us.
As I stood against the counter, waiting for the microwave to finish, I had a flashback of Major eating me out while I tried to make the food. His appetite was insatiable, and I never had sex as many times as I had in the last few days. I was surprised I was able to still able to walk straight.
Major was still asleep when I finished in the kitchen, so I quietly walked back to the bedroom and pushed the door almost closed.
I needed to leave a little bit of space in case Sparrow came back in.
I last saw him on the couch with Major, but that didn’t mean he would stay there long. My boy hated closed doors.
In the bedroom, I turned the TV on at a low volume and sat in the middle of the bed. With my bowl of oatmeal, I watched a few episodes of Hoarders.
The whole time, I couldn’t get Major out of my head.
This man came and wrecked me for a few days, then treated me like I wasn’t shit.
That might have been a little extreme, but he didn’t treat me the same.
I felt more from him the first day than I did the night before.
I didn’t like that shit, and I had every thought to march into the living room and give him a piece of my mind.
“He’s not worth it, Tumy.”
“But the dick is.”
I resorted to having a conversation with myself.
I wanted to call Mariah, but I knew she and her husband had plans.
I didn’t want to bother her with my troubles.
I needed to suck it up and realize that it was fun while it lasted.
Maybe it was just a way for me to finally get rid of Daniel.
If Major hadn’t come alone, I probably still would have made myself available for whenever Daniel came around.
He was comfortable and, in a way, safe because I knew what I was getting with Daniel.
I got up from the bed and put some clothes on to go outside.
When I came out of the bedroom, I almost bumped into Major.
“Good morning,” I said.
I wasn’t sure if he even responded because I moved so fast. I didn’t want to hear anything he had to say.
After I was dressed in my boots and coat, I opened the front door.
The sun was out, so the snow had melted some more.
It was safe enough to walk outside. With my camera in hand, I walked to the back of the cabin and took pictures of the leftover snow.
There was snow covering the trees, so I took a few pictures of those.
I even took a few pictures of the back of the cabin.
I could have sworn I spotted Major in the window, but when I looked again, he wasn’t there.
“Maybe he had someone this whole time.”
I walked the path behind the cabin and took more pictures. A few birds were flying around, so I took pictures of them whenever they landed on the tree branches.
Normally, taking pictures and being outside would help clear my mind.
Unfortunately, Major still occupied my thoughts.
I felt used. It had only been a few days, but I felt like we had a real connection, and now I was stuck wondering if I was just another notch under his belt.
Was I just something to do for the weekend? The thought made my stomach hurt.
I stayed outside a little longer until my hands got cold.
Major wasn’t in the living room when I got back in, and I wasn’t trying to look for him. I shed my outside gear, then headed straight for the bedroom.
Sparrow was resting on the bed, so I closed the door and sat on the bed. I had a few hours left, so I lay down and tried to relax until it was time to go.
Hopefully Major would be gone by the time I left.