Chapter 40
Asher
Benji
Dude. Why didn’t you tell us sooner? And why didn’t you ask her to stay???
Me
Because it wouldn’t have been fair to her, and it’s obvious I’m not worth staying for
Benji
FUCK YOU
Me
Excuse me?!
Benji
I said what I said. You’re my best friend (eventually my best man) and I’ve gotta be so for real with you right now. You’re sabotaging yourself. And Bea
Me
Is this you asking me to be your best man?
Benji
Don’t change the subject, asshole. But yes
Zion
Hey! What about us?
Benji
You’re ALL my best men
Raymond changed the name to The Best Men
Zion
Look at Zaddy Ray being all savvy with technology
Raymond
Benji
Enough, fellas. Back to Asher and the giant mistake he’s making
Me
That’s just it. What if us being together is a mistake? What if it doesn’t work out? I can’t do that to Bea
Benji
Are you that dense? She lived with you all summer. Proof that, drumroll please…IT WORKED OUT
Zion
I think he’s ghosting us…
Raymond
Ash, do not make me come over there and bend you over my knee!
Benji
ZAAADDDYYY
Zion
Asher…?
Me
I’m not ghosting. I’m thinking
Benji
What else is there to think about? What can we help you work through?
Me
I just want to be the best parent to Bea. And I’m afraid of what it will do to her
Zion
Take it from me. The best way to be a parent is to be the best possible version of yourself. Full stop. Humans aren’t meant to be alone. Don’t be afraid to show Bea what it means to live. Stop hiding yourself from your daughter. She deserves to see you cry, to love someone…to be human
Benji
Ash…?
Zion
You better not be ghosting us
Raymond
He’s not ghosting us…