Chapter 24
Chapter Twenty Four
Brody
Wallowing in my own self-pity was my ultimate low.
I was going to break up with Finn, and it was absolutely killing me.
There was too much attention on us, and I wasn’t sure I could handle everything that came with it.
I had read the comments on social media Finn faced.
Sure, some people were positive and had great things to say, but then there were the others who spewed their hateful, vile words, and I wasn’t sure my skin was thick enough to handle it all.
Pouring myself a glass of wine, I snuggled with Winnie as Jamie walked into my apartment. I had called her earlier, almost in tears, and it took my voice breaking for her to tell me she was coming over.
She showed up with a bottle of wine and chocolates.
“Tell me what happened,” Jamie encouraged, pouring herself a glass of sweet wine.
I take a sip, allowing the sweet and fruity flavors to fill my mouth. “Nothing happened between Finn and me. It’s the attention we are getting that is just too much for me to handle,” I admitted.
Defeat seemed to rip at my heart and soul. I wanted Finn more than anything I had ever wanted in my life, but I didn’t think I was strong enough to be with him.
“I’m so sorry,” Jamie sighs. “I really thought that you would be able to get over all of that.”
She doesn’t have to say what I know she’s thinking: that I’m a wimp.
A coward.
An asshole.
I’m about to break up with Finn, an amazing man, all because I’m too afraid to come to terms with who I really am.
“Jamie, I love him. I really, really do. This is killing me, but I don’t know what to do,” I cry.
Jamie moves over and wraps her arms around me. Winnie grunts as Jamie invades her space. I cry in Jamie’s arms as I realize what all I’m losing.
“I still have faith that everything is going to work out.” She holds me out at arm’s length. “Brody, give yourself a little more time before completely shutting Finn out of your life. You need time to think this over. He deserves that.”
Nodding, I wipe a stray tear away. I know that she’s right, but it still doesn’t make this any easier. I need space, but we work together. How can I figure out what I want to do when I see Finn every day?