Chapter 14 #2
“It’s not even like that, Raven. Jahrein told me about the girl when she was pregnant.
He didn’t think that the baby was his so I told him to get a paternity test. The baby turned out to be his but he didn’t know how to tell you.
So, he has just been taking care of his responsibility.
He don’t want that girl. All he takes care of is his son.
She live in a apartment on the southwest side and drives a Taurus, for God’s sake.
He don’t do the things for her that he does for you. ”
“Is any of that supposed to make this better? He still cheated. He made another child. He created a situation for himself that I want no parts of. He was out here fucking raw and could’ve brought me and my babies back anything. I don’t want him no more.”
“I didn’t fuck her raw.”
I rolled my eyes.
“We can make this work, baby. We made a vow of better or for worse, remember?” Jahrein had the nerve to ask me.
“How can you fix your mouth to throw vows in this? You wasn’t thinking about no vows when you made that bastard child! I don’t want that little boy anywhere near my kids. Go start a new family with his mama.” I spat. “Opps! I forgot, you already did!”
“Raven, don’t say that.” Red said.
“No, fuck that. I mean that shit. I hate you, Jahrein. If you were on fire I wouldn’t even piss on you.
I don’t want shit to do with you. I can’t stand to look at your ugly ass face.
You make me sick to my stomach. Just leave me and my kids alone and go on with your life.
Let me clean up the years of damage that you’ve put on me. ”
“That’s how you feel?” Jahrein asked me as if his feelings were hurt.
“Yes, that’s exactly how I feel.” I rolled my eyes at him.
“She saying that out of hurt, Jahrein.” Red told him.
“No I’m not. I mean it.” I alleged. I don’t know why Red insisted on keeping us together. And why in the hell was she trying to spare his feelings?
“You can honestly sit there and say that you don’t love me?” Jahrein asked me with the most pitiful look on his face.
“Pretty much.” I shrugged nonchalantly. “I don’t think that I ever really loved you. You just put me in a fucked up position, and I was never able to recover. Until now. Eyes wide open on your ass.”
“So all these years have been a lie?”
“Now you know how it feels, huh?” I smiled trying to crush his very being. I wanted him to feel low just how he’d made me feel.
“Alright. It’s all good.” he chuckled deviously as he nodded his head. “Okay, bitch, so you never loved me, huh?” he asked as he stormed out the front door. I got up to see what he was trying to do.
Jahrein opened the tail of the Escalade and pulled out a steal bat. He then walked over to the Benz and stood in batting position.
“You better not!” I shouted.
He spat on the ground, and then began smashing my windows out.
“What’s the matter? Huh, Raven? I don’t hear you talking.
” he gritted as he swung the bat. One by one he broke each window out as I cringed.
Me and the kids just stood and watched their daddy tare my vehicle up.
After he was done breaking out all the windows he started slashing my tires with a pocket knife.
“You won’t be driving in shit that I paid for!” he huffed as his chest heaved up and down.
The handle bars had a hold on me and I wasn’t thinking rationally. I should’ve at least parked my car a few blocks away before I started talking shit.
After Jahrein ruined my ride he started grabbing my kids and placing them in his truck. I was trying to stop him but I didn’t put up a huge fight because I saw something real evil in his eyes. I think that he was ready to murder me at that point.
When it got down to the baby he had me fucked up. “Give me the baby.” he demanded.
“No.” I held on tightly to my son.
“Give me the baby.” he said more aggressively. That was when I realized that he was going to take my kids away from me to hurt me. That was the only angle he had. Right then, I knew that if I let him leave with my kids that it would be a while before I saw them again.
“No.” I cried, feeling helpless. You’d think that somebody would’ve called the police in such a nice neighborhood. Red’s ass could have tried to stop him.
“I aint leaving without my son.”
“Well, I aint letting him go.” I trembled.
I didn’t know what to do. Somehow, my dumb ass ended up riding home with him.
Even though he had ruined my truck I couldn’t stand to see my kids ride off without me, so I was left with no choice.
When he pulled into the garage of his home I was even more confused.
I hadn’t imagined giving in to him so easily.
“Come on y’all.” he said as he opened the door for the kids. They all climbed down and went inside the house. I was still sitting in the truck with Jahlero. He came around and opened my door. “Come on, main. Get out.” he took the baby out of my arms.
I finally decided to go inside his home. I really did feel like a visitor because I had every intention of going back to my own apartment.
“Look mommy! I got a new doll.” Jhyrah announced, as she waved a Barbie doll.
“Oh, let me see.” She came and brought her doll to me.
Jahrein was sitting there and studying me like a science project. I sat and interacted with my children for hours. I was trying to think of a way to get all five of my kids out of that house. My Honda was still in the garage and I had the keys but Jahrein was watching me like a hawk.
His cell phone started ringing and I was waiting on him to answer. He took a glance at the screen and ignored it. I didn’t know why he did that because he was no longer my concern.
“Why didn’t you answer that?” I asked him.
“Cause that wasn’t anybody important. The most important things in my life are you and my kids, so all other shit can wait.” he claimed. I just rolled my eyes at him.
His phone just kept on ringing. I could tell by the different ring tones that the callers were different.
I knew for a fact that a few of them were business associates.
He was ignoring them all. I knew that I was going to have trouble leaving if he was willing to sit there and miss money just to keep me there.
“Answer your phone.” I teased. “I aint going nowhere.”
“I’m good.” he bit his bottom lip, as he openly stared at me.
The day grew old and it became obvious that Jahrein was not going to let me out of his eye sight. He was literally following me from room to room. I was busy trying to nurture my baby. Around midnight Jahlero fell asleep. I laid him in his crib.
“He aint gon stay sleep for long.” Jahrein told me as if I didn’t know my own baby anymore.
“I know.” I sighed as I stood over the baby’s crib. I was trying to think of my next move. I didn’t come there to stay, but I couldn’t see myself leaving my kids again.
“You look tired.” he acknowledged, as I took a seat on the edge of his bed.
“I am.” I sighed, feeling at little awkward.
He decided to bring his friendly ass over to me and massage my shoulders. He was acting as if he hadn’t just smashed my truck up. But I can’t front… it did feel heavenly. I was sleepy, but I didn’t want to fall asleep around him. I didn’t know if it was him, or me that I didn’t trust.
My body was so relaxed that I almost didn’t feel him slide his hand down to my breast. Almost. He was stroking my nipple softly. His touch was still so familiar to me.
“Umm.” escaped my lips, and I guess that gave him the green light to proceed.
He stuck his hand down my shirt and in my bra.
He palmed my breast and gently squeezed my nipple just like I loved it.
Since I had just had a baby there was still some breast milk in my breasts, and he purposely squeezed some out.
Before I could make any objections he had my shirt lifted up and was sucking my titties.
I was extremely turned on, since I hadn’t had sex in a month, which was the longest time that I’d ever gone without it.
Jahrein undressed me and I willingly allowed him to.
He was rubbing my clit causing me to become wetter.
Then he buried his head between my legs.
His tongue gently stroked my pearl tongue.
I wrapped my legs around his neck and started fucking his face.
It was feeling soo good. I started holding his head as I swerved my pussy all over his face.
I had to spread my legs wider so that he could eat that pussy right.
Right when I was about to explode Jahrein stopped.
“Why you stopped?” I whined.
“So, you don’t love me?” he asked, face still greasy.
“What are you talking about?” I tried to play crazy.
“You said that you didn’t love me, remember?”
“I was just saying that.” I told him. Hell, at that moment I would have told him anything, so that he could finish what he’d started. But really his ass knew better. Me not loving him after just a month. Yeah right.
“Okay then, tell me you love me.”
“I love you.” I told him with no hesitation because we both knew that I still did.
Jahrein smiled as he climbed back in bed. Instead of going back down he pulled out his dick.
“Um um. You need a condom.” I shook my head.
“Okay. Just let me rub the tip against it first.” he breathed, as he lied between my legs.
He was rubbing the head against my clit and then slid inside of me. He shuttered as our bodies met. “Damn you tight. You aint been giving nobody my pussy, huh?”
I ignored him then said, “I told you to use a condom.”
“I will. Just hold up.” he moaned as he kept on stroking inside of me.
He was trying to bamboozle my ass and I knew it. But he was feeling so good inside of me that I couldn’t stop him. He placed his hands under my ass and pulled me even closer. “Um shit, baby I love you so much.” he whispered. “We’re going to make this right. Cause I can’t live without you.”
I continued to work this pussy on him but refused to talk.
“Oh Raven, you working that pussy, huh? You working that pussy for daddy? Cum for daddy, baby.” he moaned. It always turned me on when he talked to me.
I was winding those hips for him. He must’ve been enjoying it because he bit my neck hard.
“Umm.” I moaned loving every second.
After pushing and shoving for over an hour we came together. “Oh shit! Oh shit! I’m cumming!” he screamed as he held onto me tightly. I tried to squirm away. He didn’t release his grip until he’d completely emptied his seed inside of me.
That nigga was trying to trap me. He had me fucked up!
“I told you to wear a condom. You could’ve at least pulled out.” I complained as he lay between my legs, still knee deep in pussy.
“Why would I do that?” he asked me as his lips brushed against mine.
“Why wouldn’t you?” I shot back.
“Because I was making love to my wife so there was no reason for me to do anything other than what I’m doing right now.”
“What? You really think that you own me or something, huh?” I laughed.
“No, it’s not about owning. You belong to me and I belong to you.”
“Oh, okay. So, I guess that I just let those other broads borrow you, right?” I laughed. I wanted to let him know that the moment that we’d just shared was a joke, just like our marriage.
“Why do you have to say dumb shit like that? Those bitches never even got a glimpse of what you’ve seen. You got me in ways that they could never even imagine.”
As I listened to him I found myself wanting to believe him, but I just couldn’t.
That night I made love to my husband four more times and then promised myself that it would be the last night that we’d share together.