Chapter Seven
“HOW MUCH DO YOU KNOW ?” It was minutes later when MJ finally managed to speak. Helios’ revelation had so shocked her that she had been left immobile and speechless, and she had not resisted when Helios guided her to the couch and had her drink a glass of water.
Helios knelt down on the floor in front of her. “Everything.” He took her hands in his, and the cold clammy feel of her palms made him curse silently. When she tried to pull her hands away, he held on to it more tightly. “Look at me.”
She shook her head.
He said in a commanding voice this time, “Look at me.”
Slowly, she lifted her gaze to his, a part of her helplessly answering his command.
“When I found out about your past, I wanted to kill myself.”
Her eyes widened.
He smiled humorlessly. “What else could I feel? It was then I understood your fear of bikes, and that was when I realized how much you chose to suffer in choosing to love me.”
“Is that why you’re doing all these things to get me back?” she muttered. “Because you feel guilty—”
“No!” He squeezed her hands. “I won’t deny that I feel guilty. I do, and I don’t think I’ll ever stop feeling damn guilty about what I put you through. But more than that, you made me...” He swallowed. “You made me want to change. You made me want to be like my old self again. Someone...who didn’t have any trouble smiling. Someone who didn’t distrust people at first sight. Someone who could love you the way you deserve to be loved. I want to be that person for you because I can’t imagine spending another day of my life without you.”
He released her hands to cup her cheeks. “I tried, MJ. For your sake, I tried to live without you. But it didn’t work.” He paused. “I also asked a really smart person about the best thing I can do for you, and you know what she said?”
“No,” MJ whispered, mesmerized by the rare look of tenderness on Helios’ face. “What did she say?”
“Basically, she told me to fight for you. To do everything I could to make you love me even if you could never love me back. Because I owe you that – for every fucking time I hurt you, for every fucking time I made you cry and made you feel like shit. I’ll do everything you want. Make me beg, make me work hard for it, make me swear and curse you in frustration – I’ll take it all, brat. Because if there’s at least one thing I want to do for you...it’s not for you to fall in love with me again.”
MJ started crying. She had never imagined Helios could be this open about his feelings. She had never imagined Helios could say this many words in one sitting, actually.
Helios straightened up to kiss her on the forehead. “I just want you to believe that you’re someone anyone can easily love, and that you never have to feel like you need to earn another person’s love again.”
At his last words, MJ threw her arms around him. “I’ll do what you want,” she whispered.
After a heartbeat, Helios’ arms wrapped around her frail form as he was unable to resist holding her close again. His eyes closed at the feel of her body in his arms. When he raised his hand to touch her hair, he wasn’t surprised to find it shaking. For so long, he had thought he would never have a chance to hold her once more. Now that she was in his arms, he was sorely tempted to lock her in it.
“I’ll make you beg. I’ll make you work hard for it. I’ll make you swear and wish I had never been born,” she sobbed.
He smiled at her fervent tone. It was as if MJ was swearing an oath of fealty just before going into battle. “But?” He had a feeling there was a ‘but’.
She didn’t care if she was playing the fool or the idiot again. She had loved Helios Andreadis far too long to be immune to his pain. Had she really thought she could stay away from the sun god? Silly her for thinking something like that was possible when deep in her heart, she hadn’t even wanted it.
Pulling back, she wriggled her arms free from his iron-like hold so she could cup his face. For a moment, all she could do was touch his cheeks, marveling at the knowledge that she had the freedom and right to touch him like this once more.
“Before I do all that,” she whispered shakily, “do you think...” She swallowed. “Do you think we could make love just once?”
One moment she was still on the couch, and the next thing she knew, Helios had scooped her up in his arms and was striding swiftly into his bedroom.
Of all the things she would have asked for, he had never imagined she would ask for that , Helios thought. But then, MJ had always been unpredictable and that was one of the things he loved most about her. Her spontaneous ways might have a tendency to drive him crazy, but he wouldn’t change it for the world.
When MJ started to speak, Helios kissed her hard, enough to have her toes curl. When he lifted his head, he glared at her and said shortly, “You cannot change your mind now.”
“I wasn’t going to,” she said weakly.
“Good.” He laid her carefully on the bed, doing his best to control the urge to pounce on her.
“I just wanted to say thank you for coming after me.”
Her sweet words had him groaning, and Helios couldn’t get rid of his clothes fast enough. He was naked in seconds, but MJ only had a short moment to appreciate his body before he was on top of her. “I’m sorry, brat, but I don’t think I can manage any kind of finesse right now.” It was the only warning she had before he literally ripped her clothes away from her body. She gasped at suddenly finding herself naked, and then she gasped again when Helios settled his lean hard body over hers.
“I’ve missed you so much,” Helios groaned just before showering her face with sexy tender kisses.
She wrapped her arms around his neck when his mouth found hers, and eventually her legs found its way around his waist when his tongue sank into her mouth and played havoc with her senses. Even this early, her body was already on fire, the rekindled memories of Helios’ passionate lovemaking enough to make her feel so close to coming.
Thoughts of this not being the right thing to do flittered in her mind, but she pushed them all away. She had survived this long and this far by letting her heart rule her mind and not by letting what other people thought sway her.
MJ writhed under Helios as he explored her body with his mouth and hands. He spent what seemed like an eternity caressing and kissing her breasts, his tongue expertly teasing her nipples into an aroused state before he sucked on them one at a time.
She tried to stop him when his mouth began to trail further down her body, but Helios wasn’t to be stopped. Soon, he was forcing her legs to spread wide open before him. A moan broke out of her as he teased her folds. By the time he had sunk one finger inside her, she was already soaking wet. By the time he started sucking on her clit, he had reduced her into a whimpering mess.
“Please,” MJ gasped as the passion he had unfurled inside her body began to spiral out of control. Her nails dug deeper into his shoulders. “Please...”
“Let me see you come, sweetheart.”
The hoarse plea was all she needed to break down, her pleasure reaching its peak, and she screamed as she came.
The moment she did, Helios rose up to sink his already engorged cock into her, and his harsh groan mingled with her cries of pleasure. The feeling of having his cock surrounded by MJ’s warmth was indescribable, and he knew it would only take a few moments before he would also come.
MJ’s eyes rolled back when she felt Helios start to move, his thrusts relentless as he fucked her long and hard. She wasn’t stunned when she felt her body start to tense and tremble, a second orgasm about to reach its peak.
Helios slipped a hand under her body to grab one round cheek, squeezing it hard as he used it to anchor MJ under him while he fucked her faster and harder. The erotic sounds of their sweaty bodies slapping against each other filled the room, mingling with MJ’s breathless whimpers.
Looking down at her, he said rawly, “I love you.”
Tears formed in her eyes. A moment later, she was pulling his head down for a kiss, telling him without words what he wanted to hear but she couldn’t say.
More tears tracked down his neck, and Helios knew that MJ felt guilty for her rejection even though both of them knew he had more than deserved it.
When she felt Helios’ cock withdrawing from her body, she tensed in protest, her fingers gripping his shoulders. Was he mad that she hadn’t returned his words?
Easily reading the emotions on her face, Helios managed a smile. “I’m not angry, sweetheart.” He reached down between their bodies for her clit. “Once you fall in love with me again, I can always make you pay then.”
“Helios!”
Triumph flashed in his eyes. “You said my name.”
MJ was equally stunned, but for a different reason. She had never thought Helios would notice she hadn’t been using his name. The realization brought tears to her eyes because it was yet another proof that Helios really did love her.
She might not be able to tell her she loved him right now, but at least she could do this.
MJ lifted her head to take his lower lip between her teeth. “Helios.” She whispered his name again just before sucking hard on his lower lip.
Helios’ entire body froze above her and then with a growl, he took over completely, with so much heat and passion it had MJ dazed and wondering if he had been holding back all the while. His cock plunged into her with such immense force she was reduced to clinging to him helplessly like a ragdoll, unable to do anything but to follow his movements.
Each thrust had her eyes rolling back, and when he told her to come, she did so easily, crying out his name while he roared out hers as his seed spilled into her.
When she surfaced back into consciousness, it was to find Helios looking at her with rampant hunger in his leonine gaze. Her eyes widened and she gasped weakly, “Again?”
In answer, he lifted her up over his body before slowly lowering her to his aroused cock. “Helios—” But the rest of what she had to say turned into a moan as she found herself fully possessed by Helios’ cock while riding him astride.
Helios started caressing her bare breasts, making her moan again. Looking at Helios, all golden skin and muscles like a god, his large hands clasping her hips as he started to lift her up and down his cock like her weight was of no consequence, MJ found herself falling in love with him all over again.
“I’m disappointed in you, brat. I thought you once prided yourself on being my #1 fan.”
She gazed at him dazedly. “I am.”
“Then how is it you believe once would be enough for me after the time we had spent apart?”
Her mouth formed an O of surprise at his words, but there was no chance for her to answer, not with Helios starting to bounce her up and down his cock. It would set the tone for the rest of the evening, with MJ given no moment to even think or breathe without Helios.
He fucked her from behind, fucked her while he was on his feet and she was against the wall, and later he fucked her in the shower. He fucked her on the couch when she told him she had to go back to her room, and then he fucked her one last time in her own bed, just so, Helios told her gravely, her bed would smell like him, too.
When she woke up, there was a note on her bedside table.
Don’t forget to make me beg, brat.
I look forward to proving to you how much I love you.
Yours forever,
Helios