Chapter 43 Tigerlily #2
He grins at me. “We’re going to figure it out.”
We pull into the driveway, and my stomach twists into knots.
Jax and Zephyr are waiting in the living room when we walk in.
I can tell immediately that they’re on edge. I look into each of their eyes, and panic surges through me. They know. They can tell. I hug myself tighter and inhale.
It’s time for a conversation, whether we want to have it or not.
“Hey,” I say weakly.
Neither of them responds.
Callum closes the door behind us and says, “We need to talk.”
Jax stands up. “Yeah. We do.”
We all move to the living room. I sit on the couch. Callum sits next to me. Jax and Zephyr sit across from us.
The tension is so thick I can barely breathe.
“This isn’t sustainable,” Jax says finally. When I look at him, his face is tight. Fuck, it’s so obvious he knows. I hate that he knows I slept with Callum. Jax wipes his face. “Someone’s going to get hurt.”
“Why?” Callum asks. “Why does someone have to get hurt?”
Zephyr snaps, and I hear the edge in his voice, “Because three guys with one girl? This is going to be a fucking disaster.”
“Why not?” I ask quietly.
Jax looks at me. “Because it just isn’t how relationships work, Tiger.”
I’m shaking, trembling in my bones, but the conversation with Callum makes me realize that he’s right. Fuck everyone. Fuck society. Right now, Jax and Zephyr are going to make me choose only one of them, and I don’t want to. Fuck, I really don’t want to.
“But what if I don’t want normal?” My voice is soft, but at least I’m speaking my truth. “What if I want this? Want all of you?”
Zephyr leans forward. “Tiger, we’re worried about what people will think. What they’ll say.”
“Since when do you care what people think?” Callum asks.
“Since it affects Tiger,” he says. “It could hurt her. She’s already got enough going on.”
“The only thing hurting me right now is the thought of losing any of you,” I add, swallowing the lump in my throat.
I hate how ridiculous it sounds, but I don’t want to lose any of them.
I haven’t even slept with Jax yet. The thought makes my chest burn.
I wonder what he’s like, and I’d hate to never find out.
I look at Jax as he runs his hand through his hair. He stands and starts pacing. “I can’t do this.”
“Can’t do what?” I ask immediately, scared I’m going to lose him. Does he think I’m a slut?
Jax looks at me. “Share you. Watch you be with them and pretend I’m okay with it.”
“Then don’t pretend,” Callum says. “Be honest.”
“I am being honest.”
Cal calls back, “Then tell us how you feel.”
“This is killing me,” Jax snaps.
“Why?” I stand up and walk toward him. “Why is it killing you?”
“Because I’m fucking jealous. Because I hate knowing that Zephyr had you two nights ago. That Callum had you last night. And I know you’re not even mine. I know I’m supposed to be okay with that, but I’m fucking not.”
His honesty cracks something open in my chest.
“I didn’t mean to hurt you,” I whisper.
“I know. That’s what makes it worse.” He looks at me and inhales. “I want you to be happy. I want you to do whatever you want to do, Tiger, but I also want you to be mine.”
“What if I can be both?”
“What?”
My bottom lip trembles. He’s going to pull away. I can feel it. I’m going to lose him. “Can we try?” Tears pool in my eyes. “Don’t make me choose, Jax. I can’t choose.”
Zephyr stands up. “We have to really talk about this, Tiger. It’s more than just jealousy.”
We all look at him.
“What?” I ask.
“What if this ruins our friendship? What if this fucks up the rest of the season? We won’t have futures if we destroy each other fighting over you. If the team finds out––”
“The team doesn’t matter,” Callum says, and I’m relieved he’s on my side.
“Yes, it does. You know it does.”
“Not more than she does.”
Callum stands now too. All four of us in the middle of the room.
“It’s what she wants. Right, Tiger?” Callum says.
“Cal—” Zephyr starts.
Callum sighs. “I know.” He puts a hand on Zephyr’s shoulder. “I know, but fuck it. We want her, right?”
They all look at me, and my stomach fills with butterflies because I’m the fucking culprit.
They don’t say anything, and I feel my chest start to get heavy.
“I can’t lose any of you. Please.”
“Then don’t do this,” Jax says.
I look at him and a tear slips out. “Jax.”
He shakes his head. “I’m not gonna be in some relationship with two of my best friends.”
Callum barks while Zephyr scoffs.
“Whoa, brother,” Callum says. “Nobody said anything about us being in a relationship. She’ll just rotate on us.”
“You think I want to put my dick where yours goes?” Jax snaps.
I clear my throat and step toward Jax. I put my hand on his chest and feel his racing heart. He looks down at me and says, “What’re you doing, Tiger?”
I reach up for his face and kiss him. He turns away at first, rejecting me. I feel the pit in my stomach grow. But he doesn’t step back, he just looks the other way.
“Jax,” I say, turning his face back to me. “Please.”
He looks at me and brings his hand up. “Where’s your bandage?”
“I’m letting it air out.”
He looks at it, and then he cups my face. “I don’t think I can do this, Tiger. I’m sorry.”
I tiptoe to reach his height. I lean my forehead on his. “What if we don’t make a decision today?” I kiss his cheek. He slightly turns his head away from me, exposing his neck. I kiss his throat. His heart is still racing under my palm. “Sit down on the couch.”
“Why?” he says, looking down at me.
“Fine,” I mutter and slide myself down his body. I lift his shirt and kiss his abs.
“What are you doing?” he asks as I unbutton his pants. “Tiger?”
I reach my hand in his waistband, and he’s already hard. I pull his dick out and immediately suck him off.
He looks down, chest heaving. His dick hits the back of my throat. “What are you doing?”
It sounds like he’s scolding me, but I don’t care.
I pump his dick with my palm and suck him the best that I can.
I choke myself to make sure he doesn’t reject me.
I push him to the back of my throat, taking his entire dick into my mouth.
My eyes water more than they already are.
I can’t breathe, but I stare at him to show him how desperate I am.
I run my tongue at the bottom of his dick and lick.
“Tiger,” he breathes.
I pull my pants down, and I hate how fucking desperate I am, but I don’t want to lose him. I want him the most. I need him. I kick off my pants and pull him to the couch. I force him to sit down, and then I climb into his lap and slide him into my pussy.
It’s too tight, though, so I hop off and do the trick that Cal taught me last night. I spit on his dick, watch his eyes roll back when I climb back on him and fuck him properly.
“Tiger,” he warns.
Zephyr and Callum are staring at us, but I don’t care. That’s what this is going to be. They’re going to share me and behave.
I don’t fucking care anymore.
I want them, and that’s the end of it. I’m going to get what I want.
Jax takes my nipple into his mouth, working his tongue against me.
“Is this what you want?” he asks as I bounce on his cock. “You want to fuck me while they’re watching?”
I keep working my hips, trying my best to make him come. I lean in and whisper, “Actually, what I want is you.”
He stops me from moving and runs his fingers through my hair. “Then be my girlfriend, Tiger. Only mine.”
I shake my head. “I will be your girlfriend, but only if I can have them too.”
He starts to stand, holding onto me. Then he drops me.
For a moment, I think he’s going to walk away.
My chest fills with dread as I watch him.
I fall onto the couch, watching him look down at me, and within a moment, he’s aiming his hard dick directly inside of me. Then he moves his hips and I moan.
“Listen to me, Tiger. You’re mine. Not theirs.”
I wrap my legs around him, moaning. “I am yours… and theirs.”
He eyes my face. “Fine. Compromise.”
I smirk. “What’re you thinking?”
He starts thrusting into me faster and harder. “Mine in public.”
The thought turns me on. He’s so fucking possessive, he doesn’t even need to touch my clit to make me orgasm.
“And in private?”
He leans down and whispers, “They get to watch.”
“Fuck me harder, Jax.”
He listens. He starts pounding into me, and this feels different than Callum or Zephyr. I think Jax is bigger or a different shape because his dick is hitting a spot on the inside that makes me purr like a cat in heat.
Then he comes inside of me and pulls out. He grabs the shirt from the ground and places it under my pussy. The semen soaks into the shirt as I stand.
“Take a shower first,” he demands.
I look at all three of them. These three men who’ve turned my life upside down in the best way possible. I glance at Jax, wondering what he’s up to.
Jax puts on his clothes. “Go.”
I nod. “Don’t kill each other.”