Chapter 50 Jax
Chapter Fifty: Jax
I’m holding her and thinking about that word.
Happy.
She said it so easily. She didn’t even hesitate.
My arm is around her shoulders like I’ve made a decision and I’m sticking with it.
But inside, I’m still fighting myself. Still wrestling with the part of me that wants to be the only one. The one who gets her completely. The one who doesn’t have to share.
Except I already lost that fight.
I lost it the second I came back. The second I helped her get Zinnia. The second I watched her smile at Zephyr and laugh with Callum and realized she needs all three of us.
Not just me.
All of us.
And somehow, I have to be okay with that.
Callum’s phone rings. He gets up to answer it. Zephyr follows him into the kitchen to grab water.
It’s just me and Tiger on the couch now.
She looks up at me. “What’re you thinking about?”
I should tell her it’s nothing. I could avoid this conversation for another day or week or month.
But maybe I shouldn’t.
“About us,” I force myself to say.
Her body tenses slightly. “What about us?”
“We haven’t talked about it. About what this is. What we’re doing.”
“Do we need to?” she asks.
“Yeah. I think we do.”
She faces me. “Okay. Let’s talk.”
I run my hand through my hair and try to find the right words, but there aren’t any.
“I’m all in,” I say finally. “For real this time.”
“What does that mean?”
“It means I’m done trying to make you choose.”
Her eyes search mine.
“I don’t know if I’ll ever be completely okay with sharing you. But I know I can’t lose you. And if having you means sharing you with them, then that’s what I’ll do.”
“You don’t have to—”
“I want to. That’s what I’m trying to say. I want this. I want you.”
Tears fill her eyes. “You mean that?”
“Yeah. I do.”
She kisses me. Soft at first. Then deeper. Like she’s been waiting to hear those words.
When she pulls back, she’s crying. “I don’t want you to compromise for me. I don’t think that’s fair and you deserve––”
I shake my head. “I’m not compromising. I’m choosing.”
Callum and Zephyr walk back in and stop when they see her on my lap.
“Everything okay?” Zephyr asks.
“Yeah.” I look at them. “Actually, we need to talk. All of us.”
They exchange glances but sit down. Callum on the chair. Zephyr on the floor.
“What’s up?” Callum asks.
“I want to make this official,” I say.
Callum grins. “Took you long enough.”
“Shut up.”
“I’m serious. I’ve been waiting for you to pull your head out of your ass.”
“Cal,” Tiger warns.
Zephyr’s watching me carefully. “You’re sure about this? No more ultimatums?”
“Yeah.”
“What about the team?” Zephyr asks. “People are going to talk.”
“Let them talk.”
“What about your mom?”
“It doesn’t matter.”
Tiger looks at me. “You don’t mean that.”
“I do.”
Callum leans forward. “So what exactly are we saying here? That we’re all together? That we’re doing this for real?”
I try not to let that get to my head. If I do, I’ll back out. I’ll choose what sounds good rather than what feels good. And her in my lap openly feels good. “Yeah. That’s what I’m saying.”
“And Tiger?” he asks Tiger. “All of us? Are you sure?”
She nods. “I’m sure. Every time I think about it, I cry.”
We’re silent, looking at each other.
“So we’re doing this,” Callum says, standing up. He walks over. “For real.”
“For real,” I confirm.
Tiger looks at all three of us and smiles.
I pull her closer and kiss her again. Harder this time.
She responds immediately. Her hands in my hair. Her body pressing against mine.
I hear Callum move closer, feel his presence behind her.
Then his hand is on her waist, pulling her attention.
She turns and kisses him. And I’m watching them kiss and waiting for the jealousy to hit.
It doesn’t this time.
Instead, heat fills me. I lean forward and kiss her shoulder. The curve of her neck. Down to her arm where the bandage used to be. Where the scar is now.
She shivers and pulls away from Callum. She looks at me, running her fingers through my hair.
“Jax—”
I stand, picking her up. She wraps her legs around my waist instinctively.
“Where are we going?” she murmurs against my neck.
“My room.”
I head down the hall and hear footsteps behind me.
I try to close the door, but Callum catches it, pushes it open, and Zephyr’s right behind him.
Tiger looks between all of us in the bedroom. “Is this—”
“You sure?” I ask her.
She nods, blushing. “Yeah. I’m sure.”
I set her down on the bed and step back. I let Zephyr move forward.
He cups her face and kisses her gently. “Tell us if anything’s too much.”
“I will.”
Callum sits beside her. “This is about you. What you want. What you need.”
“Okay.”
“Then tell us,” I say, kissing her hand. “What do you want?”
She looks at all three of us. “I want all of you.”
And that’s all it takes.
Zephyr kisses her again, deeper this time. His hands gentle as he helps her out of her shirt.
Callum’s behind her, kissing her shoulder, her neck, and making her gasp.
I watch for a moment. Then I move forward and join them. I lead the way, kissing her. I take her bra off and suck her nipples before moving south.
I pull off her pants and underwear, and she watches with lustful eyes. She stares at me while Callum kisses her neck and Zephyr bites her nipples.
She’s breathing hard when I expose her pussy by spreading her legs.
Callum glances down and makes a noise in her ear.
Her head falls back as I dive my tongue straight to her clit and lick.
She moans, Callum kissing her. Zephyr continues playing with her tits as I fuck her with my tongue and then my fingers, and then I’m pulling down my pants to the top of my thighs and inserting her slowly.
Callum pulls out his cock, and the sight immediately deters me.
It takes me a second to adjust. I look at her throbbing pussy that’s milking my cock.
She’s clenching me so fucking hard, and that’s when I realize that Callum is fucking her mouth.
Her body’s tense while he praises her. I fucking come all over stomach without warning.
Callum pulls out as Zephyr whispers something in her ear. She nods quickly, so he whips his dick out. She starts stroking him, and Callum takes my spot. I grab my towel and wipe the come off her stomach.
“That was fast,” Callum mutters.
“Fuck you,” I say just as he enters her.
“Oh, fuck,” he groans. “Fuck, Tiger. You’re so fucking tight. No wonder he came in two seconds.”
Tigerlily sits up and takes Zephyr’s dick in her mouth.
Callum groans, “Oh, fuck, baby. Do you like his dick in your mouth when I’m fucking you?”
She looks at me and then at Callum, then up at Zephyr. She nods, working her mouth on Zeff.
“Fuck, I’m coming,” Callum announces. He pulls out and comes all over her stomach.
Zephyr pulls out of her mouth and whispers, “Best for last.”
Callum wipes his semen off her and starts kissing her lips.
“You need to orgasm,” I say, leaning down.
She pulls away from Callum when Zephyr enters her. He presses his fingers against her clit and shakes his hand fast.
Her entire body jolts, and Callum is palming his dick again.
“Jax,” she says, reaching for me. She’s moaning from Zephyr’s handiwork as she says, “Fuck my mouth.”
She doesn’t need to say more. I pull my cock out and enter her warm and wet mouth. A whole new sensation tickles my balls as she deep throats me.
“Fuck, Tiger,” I groan.
“Come for me,” Zephyr moans.
Callum sucks on her tits. “Come on, Tiger. I want to watch you come.”
I look down at her mouth on my dick. “Is this everything you wanted, Tiger?”
She moans, so I shove my dick deeper.
“You want my dick in your mouth while they fuck you?”
I pull out and grab her face. “I got you, baby. Let go.”
Her body relaxes for a fraction, and then her back arches off the bed. I kiss her neck, watching the orgasm rip through her body. Callum mutters something. Zephyr comes into the towel we used to clean her stomach with.
I put my fingers inside of her and curl them. She cries out, gripping the blanket at first and then my shoulders.
“Fuck yeah,” Callum calls out as she starts making whimper sounds.
I watch as her hips buck against my fingers. Then I kiss her. She grabs my head with two hands and kisses me back, riding out the rest of her orgasm.
Zephyr and Callum step back and put their clothes on. Tiger reaches down and strokes my dick a few times, and then her body falls flat with a tremble.
I pull my fingers out. “That was so fucking hot.”
Zephyr hands her shirt over. I look down at her bare body and grin.
“How was that?” I ask.
She leans up and puts her forehead against mine. “Next time, you’re not allowed to come that fast.”
I smile. “Fair enough.”
This right here…
Her hair a mess, her heart racing, her lips plump, her legs shaking…
Was the best sex I’ve ever had.
The afternoon light filters through the window. Warm. Peaceful.
This is either the best decision I’ve ever made or the worst.
But when she pulls me onto the bed and uses me for a pillow, I know she wants me the most, and there’s no going back after what we’ve just done.
Zephyr’s running his fingers through her hair.
“You okay?” I ask her quietly.
“Better than okay.”
“Good.”
We lie there for a while. Just existing. Just being.
Then she sits up. “What time is it?”
I check my phone. “Two-thirty.”
“Shit. I have to pick up Zinnia from school at three.”
She’s scrambling for decent clothes. We all are.
“I’ll go with you,” I say.
She looks at me and smiles. “Okay.”
Zephyr and Callum head out, giving us space.
Tiger and I drive to the school. We get there early and end up in the pick-up line with a dozen other cars.
We sit in silence for a moment. Then I ask, “Have you thought about moving?”
She looks at me. “What?”
“The house we live in is fine for now. But with Zinnia... maybe we should find something better. More space. Better schools.”
“Jax, we can’t afford—”
“I know, but maybe Zeff and Cal will want to. Between the four of us, we can afford something nice.”
She’s quiet, staring out the window.
“You don’t have to decide now,” I add. “Just think about it.”
She pauses, then she says, “I’m dropping out of UCLA.”
My head whips toward her. “What? Why?”
“It’s expensive. And I need to work full-time to support Zinnia. I can’t do both.”
“Tiger—”
“I’ve been thinking about starting my own business. Something I can do from home. Something flexible so I can do school pickups like this without having to call off of work.”
“What kind of business?”
She shrugs. “I don’t know yet. Maybe something on social media. I need something I can build on my own schedule.”
“That’s... actually really smart.”
“You think so?”
“Yeah. You’d be good at that.”
She smiles. “Thanks.”
The school bell rings, and kids start pouring out.
“Do you think your mom will get out of prison and take Zinnia?”
Tiger blinks a few times, searching for her sister in the crowd. Then she looks at me, almost horrified. “I hadn’t thought about that.”
“Maybe don’t drop out until you know for sure.”
She looks sad as she says, “I found out Damien was getting credit cards under my name and paying for my college tuition that way. I don’t think that I can afford to continue.”
I try to piece that together, and before I can reply, we see Zinnia walk out with a teacher.
Tigerlily jumps out and greets her sister with a hug.
The knot in my chest loosens, but I watch Tigerlily closely.
She needs her sister, I see that now. Her sister gives her a purpose, a reason to strive for the better, and I hope her mom doesn’t take that away from her.
But deep down in my gut, I have a feeling that’s exactly what’s going to happen.
Tigerlily opens the back door and Zinnia climbs in the back seat. “It was such a good day! My teacher––”
Tiger gets in the passenger seat as Zinnia keeps talking about her day. “Seatbelt,” Tiger reminds her.
I have to wait in traffic. Kids are pouring out of the school, and teachers are yelling.
Zinnia leans forward and says, “Can we get Taco Bell?”
I glance at Tiger. She’s smiling.
“Yeah,” I say, pulling out of the pick-up line. “We can get Taco Bell but put your seatbelt on.”
Zinnia chatters the entire drive. About her teacher. About lunch. About the new friends she made.
And I listen to all of it.
Because this is my life now.
Tiger in the passenger seat. Zinnia in the back. Taco Bell drive-thru on a Tuesday afternoon.
Unconventional. Complicated. Messy.
But mine.
All mine.
And I wouldn’t change a damn thing.