Chapter Four Sophie
I can’t believe what just happened. I love him, I love him so much and have missed him.
I know that he is right and it is hard to breathe without him as well.
I need him and I’m sure we can get through this together, but I’m so angry.
Why the hell can’t he or anyone tell me what’s going on?
Are my babies still alive? What have they gone through?
Are they going to be okay when they get home?
I’m lost in thought as I feel us roll. He rolls so his back is against the back of my couch and he has his arm wrapped around my back, we are still connected as we face each other.
“We’ve got to talk, baby. There are some things I’m going to lay out for you. I want you to listen and not interrupt me okay? I know you’re angry, I get it. I’m angry too. I’m mad and I honestly blame myself as well.
I have a hard time blaming the club and my brothers because well they are my kids and it should’ve been me picking those kids up. I should’ve been on time and then maybe your mama and the kids wouldn’t have been taken. I messed up and I hate myself for it.
I hate that it has taken something from our family that I had a client run late and had to ask your mama to pick up the twins for me. I hate that these assholes weren’t dealt with before something happened. I hate that they targeted our kids. It makes me angry. So angry.
I hate that I’ve lost this time with my little man and sweet princess and that when we get them back they are not going to be the sweet innocent little babies they were before.”
He wipes the tears off my cheeks and leans in and kisses my lips.
“We are getting them back, baby. I’m going to tell you everything and you’re going to listen not interrupt.
I want you to know we haven’t just been sitting on our hands waiting for things.
I want you to know we were trying to find the location of them, we were going to get them back before six months if I had to tear this city and every surrounding city down to get them back.
We found the location they are keeping Dash and Dallas, along with several locations that they have as safe houses for their club.
They’ve been planning this for a while. He seems very focused on destroying your dad’s family.
I think because he feels like he lost something that was never his and your dad being the president of this club passing it down to your brothers has made him angry because he feels like that is his legacy.
I don’t know any details and your dad is really tight lipped if he knows anymore information about what is going on.
I know that upsets you, hell Luca is pissed he should be getting more information too now he’s acting president.
It’s like your dad is trying to solve all these problems himself.
However, I plan on destroying that club beyond recognition for what they have done to us.
I brought some stuff to church about our situation.
I feel like we need to change the dynamics up a little bit from now on.
I brought it to the table that I think the ol’ ladies should be more involved in club business, not so much like the Untamed’s women, but enough so you know what’s going on.
Where you and I can discuss the shit that we need to.
It passed. Everyone knows you Sophie, everyone knows this club is your family.
I mean most of the council brothers are actually your blood, but we are changing the dynamic of ol’ ladies' roles in the club.
So first I’m going to tell you that tonight after we get some men that will be flying in, your uncles and some of
your cousins from Untamed are flying in. We’ve got a few of our other charters coming in, you know when the national president calls you answer. We’ve got boys from Devil’s Hollow flying in, Burnt Mills, Devil’s Gate and Ironcross are coming. Everyone is taking flights to get here by tonight.
We are going to separate into groups, I’m taking one group with your dad and Luca to the house they have Dallas and Dash in.
The other boys are going to be raising the other safe houses and warehouses that these assholes have and set their shit on fire.
They are going to learn not to mess with our kids, baby.
They are going to pay for what they have done.
I’ll make sure of it. I’m sorry that it has taken us four months to get here and I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with all this while pregnant, or even at all.
I hate this for us, it has broken my heart a million times over.
Our other kids are going to stay with my parents for the next couple of nights.
We are going to bring Dallas and Dash to the hospital to get checked, I want to make sure they haven’t done anything to them.
They told us that if they didn’t get what they wanted in six months they were going to sell them to the highest bidder.”
He says this while he rests his forehead on mine.
I start to sob. How could anyone do that to a baby? They are only four years old.
“So I think it’s best we have the other kids stay with my folks so that we can stay at the hospital for a little while. There will be extra brothers watching over mom and dad’s place to make sure the kids and them are safe. We are going to get those two into therapy,
you and I are going to start therapy as a couple and you are going to do therapy separately. I am moving back in and I will not be staying at my room in the clubhouse unless you are staying there with me. We are going to get through this, baby.
We are going to have this baby and have all seven of our kids together under one roof. Then we are going to make so many more babies. I probably am going to aim for a football team because let’s face it I want to show the world how much I love you.
Those kids are an outward sign of our love for each other.”
He leans down and kisses my lips and when he breaks away he looks me in the eyes and moves his arm to my stomach to place his hand on my bump.
I place my hand over his, “That sounds good. You better call me as soon as everything goes down. I want to know the second you have our babies back.”
“You’re going to have two brothers here with you while we are gone. Your blood all volunteered to go and take part in this, so it won’t be any of your brothers. It’ll probably be Savage and Blade.
I know how much you do not like Pitbull and Skunk because of the shit with your Levi and Cass so they won’t be anywhere near you. Those brothers will escort you to the hospital when we are on our way there with the kids.”
I nod my head, “Can you take me to bed? I’m tired. I planned on painting all day, but I didn’t expect you to show up.”
He kisses my forehead and lifts me up. He stops for a minute kicking his pants off the rest of the way and walking us to our bedroom down the hall.
He walks us in and heads to the bed. He pulls the comforter back and places me down in the center of the king size bed and climbs in behind me and spoons me.
“Sophie, I can’t live without you, sweet girl. You’re my entire world. Without you and the kids I don’t know who I am.” He leans in and puts his head in the crook of my neck and kisses it a few times. “I know we can work everything out. You’re the only one for me.” He whispers in my ear.
I sob as he holds me. “I’m so lost, I don’t know how to move forward. I’m hurting so bad. It’s so hard to be angry with you and to feel all this towards you. You’re my best friend, you’ve been my best friend for as long as I can remember. It hurts when you are not around,
but I’m having such a hard time reconciling everything that’s happened. I’m so, so angry Toby. I just wish we had a time machine so we could go back in time and this never happened. Or I want to wake up and it will be a bad dream, I don’t know how to do any of this without mama.
My heart is so broken and I’m so scared for Dallas and Dash that I’m constantly living in a state of anxiety. It’s just all so much. I have never felt so betrayed by my dad before either. The fact that the club has been okay with all these women being so horrible and starting things,
you think something would’ve happened. I know for a fact that your receptionist at the shop is in on everything, that lady at the daycare that disappeared, I’m sure there are so many more. I think that they have resources to help these people infiltrate and stay hidden from Ghost or Wizard.”
He pulls me tighter against his chest and he buries his head in my hair.
“I’m going to help with some of this, baby.
I can’t bring mama back and I wish I could.
You’ve got to be thankful right now for who we do have, okay?
You’ve got all your brothers and sisters.
I know Davis and Tillie need you, baby. They are still young, they didn’t have her as long.
I know Davis has been acting out in school and Tillie has shut herself away from everyone.
We’ve got to stand together with all of this.
I know you are going through so much more with the fact you’re pregnant, you lost your mom and Dash and Dallas are missing, but lean on us.
Or lean on me. Don’t shut your siblings out, baby, they lost her too.
Your dad he’s hurting. He won’t show it, but he’s hurting and is lost too, baby.
He gave up his seat because of this, he plans to wait till after you have this little guy in here before he takes off for a little while and becomes nomad.
What you’re saying about the women, we’ve been thinking too.
We know Acid is working with some Russian family so we think they are helping hide the people they’ve placed in the club.
We’ve really kept the club girls in other areas and all the brothers know not to talk about anything around the women anymore. We are trying to weed them out.
Don’t take them not doing anything about these bitches as them not loving you, baby.
We just have rules that we have to follow so we don’t fire people and then have it bite us in the ass.
As for the club girls they’ve been warned away again from any taken brothers.
I am really one of the few that has been in a long term committed relationship.
Texas and Memphis have been having to deal with that too.
If you want to talk to Memphis about the club girls, I think that would be a good idea.
Texas has said she’s had run-ins with some of the girls outside of the club too, trying to make it appear that Texas is unfaithful.
It’s like they think they can take the men that really don’t have a disloyal bone in their body and try to cause problems in their relationships.
We are trying to clean house, but you’ll have to give us more time.
It’s going to take time. You are such a strong woman Sophie, you can handle all this.
But you need to have your family behind you.”
I lay there and cry in his arms, I think I have just needed him despite pushing him away.
I’ve needed him and now that he’s here I can finally have the breakdown I needed to have.
He’s always known me and been able to read what I’ve needed before I even knew.
I know that’s why he pushed me to yell at him in the office.
He’s trying to help me get rid of some of the pressure I’m feeling.