Chapter Twelve Sophie
A week has passed since we brought the kids back home and Toby has been living at home with us again.
Dash and Dallas have gone twice this week.
The other kids start tomorrow which will be nice for all of us.
Everything has been going smoothly this week and despite some occasional nightmares from the twins everything has been going alright.
I am glad they have someone to talk to when things get bumpy.
All six of the kids are staying with my dad, Davis and Tillie while Toby and I head to couples counseling.
I have yet to have individual therapy, so who knows how this is going to go.
We have been trying to make things as normal as possible for the kids, but it is hard when there is still all this hurt and anger that I am carrying.
I know that Toby is also probably angry with me for how I reacted, but he would never tell me that.
He would do everything he can to make sure I don’t feel his frustration and his stress.
I am hoping with therapy and this new found counseling situation he will be able to open up about all his feelings towards everything as well.
I have never been more thankful that Devil’s sister is a therapist and has took all of us on to help us move forward in this.
The ride to the therapist office is quiet, Toby’s hand resting on my thigh as we drive down the road with a couple of club brothers driving in front of us.
I normally would think that this whole thing is ridiculous, it is ridiculous that we need to have an escort on the way to a doctors office because of the fact that some psychotic person has yet to be caught.
When Toby told me that they have not been able to find the higher ups in the crazy MC that I am sure is up to way more than I have been told.
But what the club and my sweet husband here does not know is that I have been digging into things, that I have been trained by members of the Sirens to help me learn more about computers than I originally have known.
The anonymous helper that sent them information about where the kids were and where their other safehouses and shit were that all came from Nyx, one of the Sirens.
She has been the one that has been the most helpful in everything we have been doing to take down Acid’s MC.
I can now hack into lots of systems and using their techniques, strategies and programs I can do way more for the club then I thought possible.
I asked for them to teach me all of the skills that they can teach me, but they are waiting to teach me any of the physical skills and techniques until after I have my babies.
Toby doesn’t know that I reached out to my Aunt Sera after the kids were taken to get her to give me information to contact the Sirens.
Many people do not know much about who the Sirens are and what they do.
I’ve heard rumors around the clubhouse and from my brothers about them, so I decided that I could go and ask my aunt who is a badass valkyrie with the Untamed Rebels MC and find out what she knows.
If anyone knows anything about another badass group of women it would be one group of badass women
Well she had contact information for one of the assassins that will sometimes help the club with kills and interrogations.
So I reached out and just when I thought I wouldn’t get an answer multiple reached out including the woman that founded the Sirens herself, Alessia Romano.
She is a member of a very influential Italian family, married into another one here in the United States only to have five kids and then get divorced.
It is amazing that she reached out, but she felt for me.
I had left that message telling them that I wanted to feel more empowered.
So Alessia set up time for me to start their recruitment lessons.
Had I thought about becoming a trained assassin before all these things happened?
No. Do I think this is going to help me in the future?
Yes. We haven’t started anything physical yet due to my pregnancy.
But the things they have already started training me, if my brothers knew, if Toby knew, if anyone knew the things that I have already learned in over four months, I don’t know what they would say.
Toby would be angry with me for doing these things without telling him, but this is for me and for my kids.
I know that I am a strong business owner and my children would be proud of that by itself, but I want to be more than that.
Eventually I’d love to use these skills to help the club, maybe one day they will let that happen.
Alessia has talked about the possibility of me helping her at their base of operations here, but we are still discussing it.
She has loved how quickly I have caught on to everything they have taught so far.
So far they have been teaching me psychological training which includes reading microexpressions, emotional mirroring, empathy manipulation, predictive behavior analysis, and trauma pattern recognition.
Then I have also started on interrogation disciplines which includes female-oriented interrogation, male-oriented interrogation, soft extraction and hard psychological extraction.
The things that I have been excelling at are the technology and cyber skills which include phone cloning, basic hacking, digital disappearance, surveillance systems, and device bugging.
I’ve also been learning some tactical intelligence skills like pattern recognition, op planning, distraction theory and asset handling.
They offered to teach me their social engineering which is friend simulation, authority camouflage, romantic manipulation, and confidence extraction.
I kind of shot one of those down and asked to learn everything, but the romantic manipulation.
They have a long list of other things to learn and I cannot wait to learn more, but now with all of us staying home instead of going to work.
I know that I will have to discuss with them a way to move forward with more training.
I want to do everything they have to offer.
I want to be able to complete as much as I can.
I am not delusional for thinking that I will be able to get away with all this without telling my husband, but for right now this is going to be my little secret.
“Hey, baby, we are here. Are you doing okay?”
I look over at him and smile, “I’m sorry, I was lost in thought. I’m ready. We can head inside.”
With that he comes around to the side of the truck to help me out. We walk into the counselors office hand and hand and I hope that by the time we get out of here we will still be walking hand and hand.
We get into the waiting room and don’t sit down long before Dr. Erica Reeves comes out of her office to call us in.
She is Devil’s sister, so it is very nice that we have someone who understands the MC life because her family is in it so we can be as open as we want to be during our sessions.
We both sit down on the couch and wait to see how this whole thing is going to start.
I have never been in counseling before and all this is just out of the realm of things I am comfortable with.
But if this is going to help me figure out a way forward with my family then I am all for it.
“Alright, I’m so glad you guys are here. Now we don’t need to do introductions with each other because I know you both very well. So we are going to skip how I normally start and we are going to go forward to what brings you both to couples counseling today?”
“Do we just talk or I guess I have questions before we start with the whole what brings us here today.” I ask.
“Yes, basically you just talk freely, I’ll ask questions as we go. But this is a space for open conversation and it is a safe space to talk about feelings and what is going on. We want to be open and honest with each other and everything that you say here will be kept here.
I will only share with people you want me to, I know that you both are starting individual counseling so I will obviously be able to share my thoughts through that with the counselors you’ve chosen. I know that you are seeing members from my office and your kids are too.
So they all are very familiar with club life and therefore everything will be safe and secure with us. I’ve hired people that live the life or have family that have lived the life. So with all that said, what brings you both here today?
I would love to make sure the couple that makes everyone wish they were you is still going strong. I mean six kids and counting it seems.” She says with a chuckle.
“Babies seven and eight in there, Doc.” Toby says proudly and I just shake my head at him.
“I don’t know how much you know about what has happened with our club.
I know that women, especially women that are not ol’ ladies, do not get read into a lot of things, but I’m sure you know that my mama was killed back in January.
Our twins Dallas and Dash were also abducted during that time.
I am having a lot of issues with everything that has happened.
I am so angry all the time and I am angry with my family, I am angry with Toby and I’m beyond angry with my father.
I don’t know how to get through all of that.
But Toby and I want to work through everything and try to find a way forward.
Maybe help me find a way to get through all this anger.
My thoughts with everything that happened is that Toby should have been there to pick up the kids that day, like he was supposed to.
He called my mama when it was already past the time to get the kids because his crazy receptionist scheduled a late tattoo without his knowledge.
So he called my mama to get the twins because he wouldn’t make it to pick up time.
While mama was on her way to pick up the twins her SUV was hit by the rival MC that my father was lying to all of us about.
The man who came to find out that my father’s brother had come to the daycare and took my children had been informed by someone that Toby would not be picking up the kids.
There are many things that happened that day that don’t make sense to me that make me so angry.
You know like the club is the reason this all happened.
Some stupid legacy is the reason some maniac went after the club in the first place.